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"I've even fallen in love with looking up at your face like this. Every expression you show me drenches me in a shower of light. On this day February, 21st, our worlds came together as one."

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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Do you guys also write fics or work on WIP in places like waiting rooms or the bank ? Because i do and i found it to be very relaxing, i hyperfocus on the story, my wording and i tadaa i'm less anxious (i tend to be super self aware in public).

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Important rules/tips I've learned as an adult that helped with anxiety

If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you

If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

People are allowed to be wrong about you

If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect

Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it

The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something

You can improve relationships and gauge willingness to talk to you by giving compliments. It's like a daily log-in bonus and nobody thinks twice about it

Most things are better after you sleep on them

Most things are better after you have a meal

Most things are better after you shower

Your brain makes up consequences that are irrational. If the worst DOES come to pass and someone acts like they do in your head, they are overreacting, and you are entitled to say "what the fuck"

If your chest hurts after you feel like you've made a social error, that's called rejection-sensitive dysphoria. It means your anxiety is so bad that it's causing you physical pain, which is a good indicator that you're overreacting. Tense yourself, hold it for 20 seconds, let it go, then find a distraction

If you're suddenly angry at someone after you feel like you made a social error, that's also rejection-sensitive dysphoria. You are going to feel annoyed about it for awhile, but being genuinely pissed off is your anxiety trying to find something to blame to take the responsibility off your shoulders, and getting scared because it can't justify itself. Deep breaths, ask yourself how much you ACTUALLY want to be angry at that person, then find a distraction

"Sour grapes" is more healthy for you than stewing. Deciding you don't like someone who's perpetually annoyed with you, won't talk to you, etc. makes letting go of anxiety over them easier

If people don't like you, they will find reasons to be annoyed with you when they otherwise wouldn't. If people do like you, they will find reasons NOT to be annoyed with you when they otherwise would. People do not ping-pong between the two

You DO have to make a conscious choice not to think about something. If you're having trouble circling back to it, say out loud that you're done thinking about it and why. Then find a distraction

When you're upset, part of you is going to want to make false bids for attention (suddenly texting differently, heavy sighs, etc. but when someone asks you about it, you tell them it's nothing). Do not listen to it. You gain nothing from it except more misery

People like to help people they care about. It makes them feel good about themselves

If you think you're insufferable for needing help, see above. Yes, really. They get a serotonin kick from it

If you think you're insufferable for mannerisms you have, you either have to consciously choose not to do them, or accept that they're part of the package that comes with you. Being apologetic about existing does nothing except make you more miserable

If you do things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it makes it easier to do them when you hate it

If you avoid things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it reinforces and magnifies how bad it feels when you hate it

Seriously. Read those last two points again. If you can make yourself make a phone call when you've got nothing to lose, you will slowly lose that panic you get when you have to make a phone call you haven't prepared for. You do have to CONSCIOUSLY take that step

Hobbies that make you care for something get rid of that nagging feeling that you're not doing enough. Go grow some rosemary

If you don't engage with your hobbies regularly, you will feel miserable, and anxiety will spike

Hobbies are things that give you a bit of happiness. They do not have to be organized or named to do that. Go be creative in something. Play with coins. Make up lists. Start a new WIP

No one cares what you look like

If people point out things they don't like about how you look unprompted, they are being rude. You are entitled to say "what the fuck"

People who like you will find you pretty to some degree. Minor things about your appearance go completely unnoticed. Literally, scars and dots and blemishes do not register to someone who likes your company

You looking at yourself in the mirror is 10x more closely than anyone is going to look at you

If you're anxious about your body type, and you're creatively inclined, make/write an oc with that same shape. Give them nice things and make other characters love them. Put them on adventures. You'll start to see yourself in the mirror more kindly

You care about wording and perfect lines/colors way more than anyone who views your work ever will

Sometimes when you're upset, you're going to feel like not eating. Do not do that. Not eating makes you more miserable

Same with things you normally enjoy. Denying yourself helps no one. You are punishing yourself for being sad. Stop it

Both of these will take conscious decision to break the habit of. Make yourself do it anyways, and it will slowly get easier

And again, to reiterate: If someone is mad at you, it is THEIR responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

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An older one that I just found again.

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Levi checking your gear's safety system right before jumping out of an airship, acting as if it's part of the protocole but he's actually personally worried about your safety.

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Hey Ree, regarding your last post I'd like to tell you something I've heard long time ago "if he didn't come tell you that he has feelings or ask you out then the answer is no"

And let me add that this doesn't mean no he doesn't see a future with you but more like don't count on it or wait for him. If you assumed from the beginning that he doesn't want you it'll save you a lot of heartbreak but if you saw potential and he let you down, you'll be disappointed.

So deal with him like any other man where things could go right or wrong and don't think about that spark between you both until he himself come to you ❤️

Thank you a lot dear anon ! It's the approach i'm going for even though its hard, but yes my well being is more important than hypothetic potential.

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How would Levi act if he heard a rumor that reader had a crush on him

Levi isn't one to care or listen to rumors, even the ones involving him, but i think it depends. If the one having a crush on him is a colleague, like a squad leader, he will be a little bothered/intrigued and his behavior towards the person will slightly change.

If the rumor is about a younger cadet having a crush on him then he'll just shrug it off and ignore it until everyone eventually gets tired of it, he knows rumors die fast.

Hange, Mike and Erwin would tease the hell out of him though.

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How you knew Levi Ackerman fancied you Headcanons

You weren't necessarily a great beauty but he'd stutter when he'd speak to you.

He'd engage in a casual conversation with you more than others, and you know Levi hates small talk.

You would catch him glancing at you from the dinner table at festivities.

He'd always get informations about your position during the expeditions outside the walls.

You can see him frown when you're chatting with other male comrads and even young male cadets.

He'd always compliment your dress when you attend formal balls and ceremonies.

He'd offer to dance with you during those formal ceremonies even though he would frown during the whole thing.

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💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome 💌

Thank you ✨

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Trust that there are other things worthwhile for you and they will come.

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i’m 23!! (,:

That's lovely !

Please don't tell me the crying emoji is because you think 23 is old, because if that's the case, then wait until you're 30 :'')

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I’m 15 oopss

That's cute, i hope you do respect the blog's policy by skipping the content not intended for minors. I also hope you don't interact with it.

Other than that, you're welcome to read any minor friendly story.

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People who met their significant other, how did you meet ?

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If Levi had a little boy headcanons

He'd wrestle with him, but forgets to let him win.

He'd enjoy cooking him his favorite meals and eat with him.

He'd teach him horse riding, sword fighting, archery and different ways to defend himself, taking notes on what Kenny taught him, he'll be less hardcore about his teachings since his boy isn't facing death everyday like he did when he was a kid.

He'd teach him how to defend himself and how to survive if he ever found himself alone somewhere though.

Unfortunately his little boy would eventually learn too many swear words for his own good, and USE them.

Levi would get angry at his son's potty mouth even if he knows exactly where he got it from.

"Okey, at least don't swear in front of strangers"

If Levi is sleeping, his son would crawl next to him, hug him and sleep with him with a big smile. He loves his daddy.

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I might be depressed actually, so I'm sorry, I don't have any tips because I do feel lonely too

Sorry to hear that. If you're depressed, i advise you not to isolate yourself (depression tends to make one do that a lot).

I hope this will ease your loneliness.

Thank you for sending your message.

I hope you get well.

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Advice or tips to cope with loneliness ?