there is a chasm between me and the world outside of me. a gap so wide my feelings can't cross it. by the times my screams reach the other side, they have dwindled into groans.
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BLAIR,
STARTER FOR JUDE. ( @kimurahhâ )
â A CLOSING SHIFT WITH OSCAR THE GROUCH HIMSELF. normally, blair wouldâve begged someone to swap â especially after he saw her lose at poker so miserably on the boat ( and she knows sheâs pretty good at bluffing ! so it was just embarrassing hand after embarrassing hand. ) but, in lieu of other recent events, blairâs kind of glad for the moment alone. â kimura,â she calls, lighting a cigarette in the store. thank god jennifer doesnât stick around past five or six. â can you stop actually doing your job and come over here a sec ? â blair asks, commanding despite the fact that she has no authority over him. aside from seniority, which she is apt to remind the newbies of at any occasion. â i wanna ask you about something. â
heâs never wanted to be at high volume less. of all the thingsâof anythingâhe could be doing right now, manning his shift at this godforsaken record store was at the very, very, very bottom of his priority list. within the span of the few weeks, a prison break, a whole-ass boat burning to the ground (err, water?), and now the death of one of the gangâs very own are at the tip of the dumpster fire that is his worries. wrinkled eyebrows and permanent frown etch his features as he finds himself unconsciously sweeping; the swishes of the broom echo as background music to his thoughts, until blairâs callingâgod, what the fuck does she want now?âprompts him to speak up for what seems to be the first time of the day. âyâcanât ask me from across the room? itâs not like anyoneâs here,â he barks back, exasperatedly gesturing to the empty storefront between them. ââand your big ass mouth is obviously loud enough that i can hear you fine from all the way over here, shapiro.â
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starter for , @nisafmââ
time , late at night, morning? right after the riverboat incident
location , outside nisaâs and sloaneâs apartment
he doesnât remember how he got here. itâs all a blur, riddled with this confusing mix of ire and impulsivity. his first instinct is to screamâat someone, too, preferably, and naturally, his thoughts wonder to sloane. not for any reasonâand heâs the first to admit that she doesnât deserve it, not at allâother than the fact that sheâs the only one who vaguely knows, understands why heâs just so fucking angry. he wants answers, and an well-overdue explanation, but most of all, he just wants to feel vindicatedâlike heâs allowed to be mad. maybe if things went differently, like how he planned, no one wouldâve gotten hurt, let alone died. so jude needs to yell before unbridled rage turns inward instead of outward; fists practically bang against the front door as he shouts, âSLOANE! if yâcanât answer the phone, at least open the goddamn door!â
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BLAIR,
â âWOW, YOUâRE FRIENDLY TONIGHT,â BLAIR REMARKS, leaning on the table. she narrows her eyes, â very suspicious. â then, a grin to show that sheâs absolutely joking ! and heâs right, too, sheâs always been a betting woman, believes in LUCK more than she believes in any god. still, she knows jude must think of himself as pretty good at this â and he very well might be â if heâs asked her to play him. she certainly has no idea he could have connections, and blair revels at the chance to put him in his place. she nudges him lightly, â oh, iâm sure you will, â gaze is challenging, â deal me in, then. â Â
despite initial instinct, judeâs quick to bite back a retortâinstead, he finds himself stepping back, hands thrown up and lips downturned in a âif you so soâ-kind of curve. he even goes out of his way to pull a chair out for her as the âdealerâ sets up their first (and definitely not last) hand. itâs all in the long game, yaâ know; give her a false sense of confidence and whatnot. âhow much we thinking âbout putting on the line, shapiro?â jude subtly probes. âof course, this is a casino, so thereâs obviously money involvedâbut iâm willing to up the ante if you are, because i think my back-to-back opening shifts next weekend are just dying to have your name on them instead.â
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MARTY,
đđđđđ: riverboat casino, outside deck đđđđđđ: closed to @kimurahh
well, fuck. if things didnât look grim to marty before ( with the ever-so-present threat of a murderer thatâs way too interested in a group of people ) they sure as hell do now. whatever the plan was coming here, whatever the high volume employees were thinking they could achieve for coming here ( for once, marty is so completely out of the loop and itâs their own doing ) marty is almost a hundred percent sure it doesnât include two of them falling in debt with whoeverâs in charge of the gambling tables. marty knows she ought to know â and yetâŠ
the cold air from the mississippi river hits martyâs skin like a bucket of ice water being thrown at her, a feeble attempt at grounding them. âfuck, fuck, fuck,â she mumbles under her breath, looking back at the door to see if anyone followed them out. seeking a spot away from the exit to the deck, she walks over to the railing and leans on it, hands gripping it like sheâs trying her hardest not to jump into the water. itâs not a thought that even crosses her mind, to be honest, even if cold water does sound better than whatever the fuck sheâs feeling now.Â
this party has been going on for fucking agesâor, at least, it feels like it has. he doesnât know how much more of this he can take, navigating this semi-double life of his; heâs talked to pretty much every member of the gang heâs spotted at this point, but not one is willing to fess up where their beloved criminal mastermind (cue the internal choke of sarcasm) is. after all, itâs not that big of a boatâwhere the hell could james be?
but judeâs long-resigned himself to not bothering with trying to decipher the absolute disorder that is jamesâ planning (or lack thereof), so instead, heâs waitingâfor a sign, for a signal, all while smoking his nth cigarette of the evening. âhe was even well on his way to finishing his pack before marty storms out, summoning high volume-jude to react accordingly. âuhh, hey there,â he lazily greets. an unlit cigarette haphazardly rests between lips, while eyes follow her own gaze before focusing on her own features in front of him. âyou all good? yâlook like youâve seen a ghost or somethinâ.â
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JAMIE,
@kimurahhâ // toward the end of the night probably
jamie might just be absolutely hammered, but did he and marty just gamble away a ton more money than they actually have? heâs slipped away from the guys they owe, but somehow also lost marty along the way, and now heâs just hoping heâll make it through the rest of the night unscathed. itâs almost enough to make him forget about the fact that his dadâs murderer could still be somewhere around here. almost.
he rounds a corner to make his way back to his friends, but quickly catches sight of one of the guys he and marty owe money toâ making him whip back around in retreat so fast that he bumps right into jude. âshit, hey, whatâs up,â he greets messily. âi canât turn around to check, but the guy in the red shirt isnât coming this way, is he?â
itâs been a while since heâs been around the gang; itâs even kind ofâdare he sayânice, just a little bit. thereâs just this feeling that comes from being around so many familiar faces, as if judeâs in his element amongst the shady practices and the even shadier people. itâs not enough to crack a smile, obviously, but there is a certain stride in his step when heâs leaving a conversation with another gang crony before turning to be abruptly pulled into another one.
âdamn, dude, whatâs got you in a rush?â he asks with a quirk of his eyebrow and a not-so-subtle quick glance to the guy in question. âuhh, if i say he is, is that bad? because, like, he is. âoh, please donât tell me thatâs something to be worried about, jamie, when weâre currently stranded on a fuckinâ boat in the middle of the river.â
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location , somewhere on the boat idfk
heâs thankful that these people think more with their livers, than their brains. just a week ago, whispers and woes of a certain man no longer behind bars had them reconsidering this whole riverboat party, but he shouldâve known that the majority of these deadbeats wouldnât pass up such a prime opportunity to be drunk on a motherfuckinâ boat. âhonestly, you canât make this shit up. so in that sense, jude should be thankful (?) for them making his job a little bit easier tonight; heâs patrolling the party ever-so casually to keep his eighteen favorite people either within eyesight or earshot. most are at varying levels of wasted, until he spots one employee with a rather concerning expression of worry to strike up a conversation about. âyo, max, you doinâ good? you look a lilâ paleâare you, like, seasick or something?â
#EVENT (TAG)#HOEDOWN THROWDOWN (EVENT)#THREAD (TAG)#002 (MAXINE SINCLAIR)#lmk if you wanna change anything :))
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location , by the bar (on the boat... obviously)
he needs this people piss-fuckinâ-drunk, like, canât tell their left from their right, up from down-levels of drunk. he needs them incoherent and completely incapable of snitching to the police when all hell (or, any hellâhe wouldnât know, not like the gang fucking tells him anything) breaks loose. thankfully, most of high volumeâs employees absolutely cream their pants at the mention of âopen barâ and âpartyâ in the same sentence, but others, well, need a bit more convincing. so jude stands here, leaning against the bar counter with one hand nursing the same glass of water heâs had the whole night, while the other has the honor bringing his third cigarette of the evening up and down (and up and down, and up and down) from his lipsâjude stands here, like a predator laying in wait for its unsuspecting prey, when finally, a voice calls for the bartender. the familiarity of it prompts him to turn his head, only to see, âyo, milhorn.â another drag of his cigarette, before he gestures it towards the other. âplease tell me youâve had a change of heart about drinking, my friend.â
#EVENT (TAG)#HOEDOWN THROWDOWN (EVENT)#THREAD (TAG)#001 (ETHAN MILHORN)#i hope this is okay lmk if you want to change anything <3
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location ,  inside, by the entrance of the casino
maybe itâs the inherent business instinct in him because, despite having much higher priorities to worry about tonight, his greed for getting absolute suckers on the hook for debt with the gang canât be reined in. âand who better to reel in than one of high volumeâs very fuckinâ own? so when a familiar face strolls in, judeâs quick to wink at an empty tableâs âdealerâ, look at the pair of muscle in the back corner, before heâs approaching lucky victim number one. âshapiro!â he calls. âi know youâre a betting woman, so how about a game of poker? can definitely give you more than a gum-ball if you win, too.â
#EVENT (TAG)#HOEDOWN THROWDOWN (EVENT)#THREAD (TAG)#002 (BLAIR SHAPIRO)#hope this is alright! lmk if you wanna change anything <3
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ERIC,
location :Â Â the hoedown throwdownÂ
featuring :Â Â @kimurahhâ
â HEYYYY JUDE !  donât let me down ! â  an arm wraps around judeâs neck in a weird bro-hug as he comes up to the guy from behind, giving him a playful slap on the back before pulling away. the partyâs been going on for some time, and there hasnât been a moment where eric hasnât had a drink in his hand ( not even when he went to the bathroom, which⊠gross much ? ) . ericâs speaking a little louder than normal, cheeks flushed despite the illinois night being a little chilly, smiling at jude as if the two are best friends. then again, he does consider the younger kid a friend, or at least a brotherly figure. compared to some of the people heâs dealt with tonight, judeâs presence feels like a saving grace.  â whatâs up, man ?  you having fun ?  you want a drink ? â  his mouth canât move as fast as his brain does, words a little slurred as he tries to get it all in. eric glances around, feeling like somethingâs missingâuntil he realizes itâs a someone.  â whereâs sloane ? â  he asks, trying to remember when he had seen her last. they mightâve shared some drinks together, but it felt like a lifetime ago now.  â youâre nailing her, right ?  good for you, with the older girls. â  his holds his hand up to be high-fived.Â
judeâs on edgeâlike, really fuckinâ on edge. like, if there were a meter from one to ten of how âon edgeâ he was, heâd be a goddamn eleven. for pursuing a career in organized crime, there sure as hell ainât anything organized about this. the illegal gambling ring was already shady (and shoddy, heâll admit) enough, but now they have to add a prison break to the, um, services they offer? itâs stupid, and demonstrates how everyoneâincluding james, practically the devilâs incarnate himself at this pointâin the gang severely lacks a sense of foresight when it comes to the cold, hard logistics of actually getting away with their fair share of crimes. so, in short, judeâs on edgeâand eric (err, drunk eric) coming up behind him whilst deep in these thoughts wasnât exactly helping. âhey... uhhh... man,â jude responds rather slowly, partly because he was distracted by other, well, distractions, but mostly because he never knows how to get along with the buddy-buddy type of drunks. his eyes narrow rather quickly and pointedly, though, at the mention of sloane, only for them to immediately widen at the insinuation that theyâre fucking. âtalk about a harsh slap back to reality. âyou think? me? and sloane? are sleeping together? seriously?â he echoes out; his own hand slowly reaches out to return the high-five, but at such a low speed, it was more of jude just, like, pressing his palm against ericâs.
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SLOANE,
     âyouâre always stressing yourself out so much, jude. youâll get frown lines by the time you hit twenty-five at the rate youâre going.â sloane doesnât know anything about being a sibling, but thereâs a chiding edge in her tone. heâll bristle at that too, though thatâs never stopped her from saying what she likes to him. âyou probably couldâve just left. i doubt jennifer wouldâve held it against you. some of these people barely even show up to their shifts on time.â sheâs not sure what she had expected from this group of people, but punctuality had been somewhere in there. âhonestly? you kind of do. you and jamie are like two peas in a pod.â
âyou say that and yet act like youâre not the main cause of all my stress, sloane,â he barks back, partaking in what could only be seen as a pissing contest in who can annoy the other more. he doesnât remember a time when the two werenât like thisâwhen sloane wasnât excessively ticking him off and when jude, much to his chagrin, wasnât forced to tolerate all of it. âright. like i want jennifer to lump me in with the imbeciles who got her own fuckinâ brother killed,â he retorts, with his tone quickly turning into a hiss-whisper by the tail-end of his sentenceâjude even reaches over to flick sloane on the forehead; real quick thinking in that one, for sure.
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NISA,
     her head tilts as she puts on an exaggerated look of concern. âwhat you smell affects your hearing? you should probably see a doctor about that.â while nisaâs tone is unaffected, thereâs a part of her thatâs offended by judeâs comment on her perfume. but she knows heâs just trying to get under her skin. well, probably. âlike thereâs anywhere else to go.â never mind the fact that she canât leave, at least until after their set. âthis town has a strict one event quota, and this fills that spot today. everywhere else is definitely dead right now.â
a dramatic gasp escapes him, with a melodramatic hand-on-chest pairing itself with the reaction. âyouâre rightâbeing in your presence is detrimental to my health. youâve already ruined two of my senses, now youâre out for a third?â a hasty grab of his collar pulls the fabric up to his nose, all the while heâs tugging himself farther away from her in a rather theatrical fashion. âyou better stay away from me, princessâunless youâre willinâ to put your money where your mouth is and pay for my hospital bills.â thereâs a beat of silence before he finally relaxes and lets up the act for a minuteâor, err, barely a minute. âwell, iâll be damned. here i thought we mutually hated each other guts, but yâdonât have to dance around the fact that you actually want to spend more time with meâdonât tell me yaâ told jennifer to schedule us on the same shift together today, or i just might puke.â
#EVENT (TAG)#GRAND REOPENING (EVENT)#THREAD (TAG)#001 (NISA SUNAY)#jude: is teasing her#me: accidentally writes it like he's flirting uhhh
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JAMIE,
jamie pretends to consider for a moment, before cracking a grin. âi mean, you know i feel about occasional violence,â he shrugs in agreement. âtheyâll know not to take advantage of the new guy again once weâre finished.â as frustrated as jude seems by the job at the moment, thereâs definitely a part of jamie that hopes heâll stick around, and that high volume can keep him on his feet. but he wonât be surprised if jude just gets bored of it after a while, given how transient his life has been before now. âaside from the flaky as shit coworkers, howâre you liking it so far. wish you couldâve been here when my dad ran it, he was a lot more⊠hands-off.â
âgood to know that you can take the kid out of juvie, but not juvie outâta the kid,â jude says, offering his own smirk in reply. ââbut as tempting as the idea is, wouldnât want the word to get out that the townâs local high-school dropout isnât scared of throwing punches on the clock. would be really counterintuitive to âstraightening outâ and all that other bullshit, huh?â thereâs barely a twinge of guilt at the lie (another little white lie on top of all the others, enough to keep jude blind to the truth, after all); heâs not all that wrong, after all. the whole gangâs operation relies on their judeâs mastery of hiding in plain sight, and he sure as hell wasnât going to jeopardize their guise for some dipshit who canât even bother to come into their stupid part-time job on time. âi bet. your dad mustâve been, uhh, pretty cool if he was letting his son and half of woodstockâs youth population hang out on his dime.â
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ERIC,
ERIC CAN ONLY CHUCKLE AT JUDEâS THEATRICS, the insult of being called slow physically and mentally rolling right off of him. sure, the joint he had smoked helps soften the blow, but jude looks so funny tapping his finger to his forehead, like heâs trying to look like some kinda scientist, that the point is missed.  â what ?  donât tell me youâre a backstreet boys fan, â  he asks with another laugh, slowly moving to take judeâs spot behind the counter, frowning to himself when thereâs no chair to sit in. not that he needed one anyway, seeing as there were swarms of people around the counter that wouldâve made it impossible for him to sit back and kick up his heels like usual.  â well if you come back, bring back some pizza for me, â  eric offers.  â i could go for a pepperoni slice. i havenât eaten much today, either. â  and it wasnât going to take long in this shift before he starts to feel it.  â i donât think you need to do any advertising to help with that, â  he laughs again, looking around at the store.  â but thatâs nice of you, man. maybe if you ask jennifer, sheâll give you one of those signs you can spin on the corner. â  as if thereâs one just chilling in a closet at the store.
jude shouldâve known better than try to engage in a coherent conversation with a high manâdonât these people know that just because they live in a town called woodstock, doesnât mean they have to act like theyâre at the festival everyday? so he rolls his eyes, ignores ericâs comment (and fights off the intrusive thought of whether or not he should be offended that someone would even consider him a backstreet boys fan) as jude gathers up his things for a (hopefully) quick get-away. âyou didnât eat before you got here? how? the munchies havenât kicked in yet?â he questions with a shrug of his jacket on and a shove of his name tag into a random pocket. ânow that you mention it, maybe i should bring the suggestion up to jennifer herselfâyâknow, just to see what she thinks. maybe your sorry ass will be the one spinning a sign on the corner. yâcould think of it as, like, divine retribution for keeping me here past my shift.â
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MAXINE,
   NOT  THAT  SHE  EXPECTED  TO  BE  MET  WITH  GRATITUDE  ANYWAY.  max  hops  into  judeâs  spot  with  a  light  smile  because  if  she  doesnât  sheâs  certain  she  might  actually  not  be  able  to  take  this  â  another  20  minutes  she  can  do,  but  hours  ?  she  hopes  judeâs  reliever  is  right  around  the  corner,  but  who  knows  with  these  employees.  «  why  not  ?  you  have  such  inviting  shoulders  to  cry  on,  »  she  mocks  lightheartedly,  scrunching  her  nose.  «  got  it.  thanks  for  the  encouragement.  youâre  always  so  sweet  to  me,  judey.  »
itâs people like maxine that (heâs sure, heâs gotta be) keep high volume running as well as it is; nice people who the not-so nice (slackers, loafers, imbeciles) take advantage of to do most, if not all, of the work needed to keep the store afloatânot him, though, of course not him. so even with his eagerness to take off running as soon as heâs relieved, donât lump him in with the rest of âem: heâs sensible to a fault, maybe, but not a total slouch. âwhat can i say? iâm a sweet guy; sweet enough that i waited for someone to take my place before ditchingâso if jennifer walks by and asks, be sure to put in a good word in for me, yaâ? maybe then sheâll finally stop saddling me with the closing shift every weekend.â
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KEMAL,
heâs kind of glad heâs on the later shift, though he would have rather had been on the same one as max, even if heâs basically been here all day anyway and sheâs still wandering around somewhere. so, he knows judeâs also been here since the morning, but kemâs not entirely sure whoâs swapping out with him so he has nothing but a shrug to weakly offer in response. â if you gotta go,  just go. â though it is fucking busy and judeâs departure would make it worse but kem and the rest of them could probably deal with it. maybe. â no one can force you to stay. â maybe.Â
if thereâs anything that jude hates, itâs being told what to doânot like kemâs ordering him around necessarily (itâs more like a suggestion, really), but itâs the tone that gets jude, the inference that heâs an idiot, a part-time slave to capitalism who complains about working but wonât take off when he should. itâs annoying, like, of course he knows he can just go; heâs not a fuckinâ idiot. so maybe heâs a bit short with his wordsâbut donât blame him. really, itâs everyone elseâs fault for getting him so angry in the first place. âno fuckinâ shit, but the ways thing go around this place, my ass is in hot water for leaving my post empty, rather than the dipshit who couldnât come in on time, so.â
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JUDE,
â âDUDE, YOU TOTALLY CHEATED,â she laughs, shaking her head admonishingly at him, â that doesnât count. â expression is matter-of-fact as her shoulders lift. still, itâs pretty nice to have some fresh blood around, and she finds jude especially amusing with the way he always seems so serious. â hm, wouldnât you like to know ? â she retorts, â though, come on, everyone enjoys a good ass now and then. usually better without a big stick in the way, though. â blair reaches into the tip jar again and brandishes a quarter out to him, â here, â she says. â quit griping. âÂ
âwow, sore loser much?â he counters with a raise of his eyebrows, a restrained scoff under his breath. he doesnât even know why heâs still bothering to entertain all this... baloney. clearly, itâs a lose-lose situation for him either way, no matter how much he arguesâespecially if blairâs the one calling the shots; the girlâs got it our for him, he swears, and he hasnât even fuckinâ done anything yet. so, out of reflex, he begrudgingly reaches for the quarter. âyouâre lucky itâs busy today. jennifer would be out for blood if she saw fifty whole cents missing from the tip jar, â he warns, with a squint of his eyes that read âiâm watching youâ.
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TRIP,
   (...) fortunately, his co - worker spares him from further insanity by drawing his attention away with a call to the crowd. less fortunately, all it takes is a flickering glance for trip to realize the person judeâs got in his sights isnât one of their scheduled saviors for the afternoon, but a random customer wearing an old piece of store merch jerry had insisted they sell years ago ( something about needing new forms of income after the building lease had gone up. he donât know. not like it really matters now anyway ). trip makes a noise somewhere between a hum and a sigh, watching as the customer disappears back into the crowd with little more than a bewildered expression thrown their way. â i think itâs time to face it, dude, â he says. â weâve been completely abandoned. â
itâs an honest mistake, though, not one that judeâs exactly all that keen on apologizing forâso he doesnât, instead meets the customerâs frown with a click of his tongue and a tilt of his head in the opposite direction. scram, he silently says the innocent passerby, before he turns around to face trip with a taciturn look of his own and a growing temper. ânah, this is complete bull, dude. âm not staying here another minute longer if iâm not getting paidâand knowinâ jennifer, i highly doubt sheâs... enthusiastic about paying for overtime.â thereâs a shake of his head now, a heavy sigh, before thereâs the appearance of another patron at the counter. âsorry, weâre off the clock,â judeâs quick to announce, with a tap of his finger on the imaginary watch across his wrist. âgood luck finding somebody to check you out, though.â
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