king-of-theforest

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I just wanna share something today heheh.

Today we have a new client that has two kids that are both non verbal and have asd. Both of these siblings are for therapy and so as usual we did our usual work of assessing them since its their first day. I overheard our financial admin told our friend and co worker that she was asked by the parent to be the therapist of her child since she saw all the testimonies and recommendations of the parents. All of us were amazed and really happy na nagkaroon ng ganun, especially since nakakatuwa din na ikaw yung mismong hanapin ng parents para matherapy kid nila. Yung tiwala sayo tsaka sa skills mo, it feels really good.

So when it was time to endorse, I explained the parent lahat ng naobserve ko and nakapagrecommend din ako ng a few stuff na pwede gawin sa bahay para makahelp din. The parent was really kind and looks like a really joyful and happy person. After endorsement, fast forward to where we bring out the kids for them to go home, I guess I was lucky or maybe the kid found comfort when he saw me, when he was beside his parent he looked at me and was really happy. He jumped up and down and smiled while looking at me. I was really happy but the biggest kicker was, I didn't know that the parent also wanted me to be the therapist of her other kid. The parent told me that I was also recommended by other parents because of my kind approach with kids and that I'm really good with them. The parent wanted me and my friend to be the therapist for her children and that she was happy that she got both of us. That made my day🥹🥹 though the pressure is there, but I guess it really warms and fills the heart that you're not the only seeing the progress of your kids and that the parents also acknowledges your skills and efforts is something that makes it worthwhile in this job of mine.

Yun lang nmn hahahha, nakakatuwa lang yunn🥹🥹🧡

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Damn...

Everyone's right, the world is cruel for people like us.

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There's something beautiful in surrendering yourself to time, you see everything that comes and goes. Every possibility that will be yours and every decision that you made. I did that and all that came to me was beautiful and good. But I sometimes miss the little things in the past that now I can't seem to get a hold on in the present.

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I miss my friends

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I don’t want to kill any dragons.

I don’t want to fight demons.

Let them breathe fire elsewhere.

Let them roar down empty roads.

I’ve set my sword down.

I’d rather have tea under the tilting willow tree,

watching the wind stir its long green fingers,

listening for whatever truth the leaves remember.

I don’t want to do more damage—

not to the shadows I carry,

not to the soil I’ve scarred just by walking.

No more battles inside my chest.

No more betrayals in the name of becoming.

There’s already too much wreckage in the world—

why should I add my own smoke to it?

I want to sit.

To stay still enough that even the shyest wonders

crawl out of the cracks and speak.

Not to be heroic.

Not to be healed.

Just to be here.

And let the world tell me something true.

Let the thunder pass without my name in its mouth.

Let the storm forget me.

I have no need to raise my voice above the rain—

I’ve found shelter in the quiet.

The earth hums beneath bare feet,

a language older than war.

It tells me I am enough, even in pieces.

So I stay,

cup in hand,

watching the steam rise like prayers I no longer have to speak.

If peace is a rebellion,

then let this be mine.

-Larson Langston

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I haven't been posting in this account for a while, and at this point I think wla na nmang natingin or interested sa mga ginagawa kong stories hahahh but that's okay. Hmmm, I guess today gusto ko magwrite ng letter.

Letter to the Moon

Hey old friend, sup? Its been a while since I have decided to go a different path now and its been a heck of a journey while being in this light of dawn that I'm in or basically a new era in my life. At times I do miss you, every time I see you I feel this comforting and familiar feeling in this ever changing world. Through you I gain a lot friends and basically a family of mine. But I have to keep going and moving forward because in some ways I'm learning more about myself. Its scary at times and feels lonely and I depended more on my friends for my happiness and because of that it's been really a disorienting journey from there. I didn't even have the time to be able to process everything. Maybe I did, but I don't think it was enough. A lot of breakdowns hahhah, but in a way it was all worth it to see me now. I have a job now by the way hahahh, suprising no? That guy that was relying on your light and wanted to be hidden away is someone now that is capable of helping other kids now who feels the same way that I did before or even more. I became stronger now, but yeah from time to time I still miss my friends deeply. I'm not good with change, you know that better than anyone, but I'm learning how to adapt now, no choice din nmn hahhah. But yeah I'm making my own light now. I guess I haven't been able to say this since I've been caught up in trying be better and okay with how things are now that yeah I've been keeping these feelings. Anyway, see you soon old friend, I hope I can see you again during night time. You always calm me down.

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"Its only when you're at your lowest can hope shine the brightest."

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A letter to the moon

As the year ends, I want to thank you for teaching me so much. You taught me to be humble, to be kind, to be able to see through so much with what I'm only seeing. You taught me to be anyone's light in the dark and at the same understand it. To be quiet and listen. You taught me this much throughout the years that I've been alive and I'm ever grateful. But I think this time I want to forge my own path and see the world with my own eyes and in a way, my own light. Throughout the different people I've met, they see a light in me that I don't and I want to make it brighter. They say that I give off a warm aura, and if that's the case then I want to explore that part of me. Maybe that's something that would make me understand myself even more. I'll always remember everything that you taught me and I'll carry it with me. So for this one, old friend I thank you and I guess this time I want to rise with the dawn as a way to enter this new year.

-Kyll Dawnwalker

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This past months and weeks I've been feeling this assumption that all any person that I like romantically will always see me as a friend and nothing more than that. This happened to me multiple of times, well apart from that one time. So a song that describe this is this,

"Season after season

We never found a rhyme for all your reasons

Bleeding, you don't see it

My heart against my head

Internal treason

You kissed me one night

You never thought twice

Now I'm a punchline

At least that means I'm something to you

I'm so sick and tired

Of following the light of stars that already died

Am I just chasing anything that shines?

Baby, you're so unaware

It's not your fault that you don't care

It's like leaving up my Christmas lights in June

It's embarrassing how long I'll wait for you

So, you go, knowing I'll follow

The little bit of hope you leave me for tomorrow

It's a sharp pill, it's hard to swallow

But if it helps take off the edge, and fill the hollow

Hole inside my chest that's shaped like you

No one fits the mould, so what's the use?

So, I'm so sick and tired

Of following the light of stars that already died

Am I just chasing anything that shines?

Baby, you're so unaware

But it's not your fault that you don't care

It's like leaving up my Christmas lights in June

It's embarrassing how long I'll wait for you

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh, I'm so sick and tired

Of following the light of stars that already died

Am I just chasing anything that shines?

Baby, you're so unaware

But it's not your fault that you don't care

It's like leaving up my Christmas lights in June

Oh, it's embarrassing how long I'll wait for you"

-Christmas Lights by Zach Seabough

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Through this year, I met this girl and she made me realize that I can do things that I couldn't do before. I'm always ever grateful that I met her and I hope that whatever she's doing and wherever she is, I hope that things are good for you. So I dedicate this song to you as I let the memory that we shared together. All the good and the bad.

"Hindi mapigil ang bugso ng aking puso

Sa tuwing ako'y papalapit sayo

Maaari bang hingin ang iyong kamay

Hawakan mo't huwag mong bitawan

Hindi mapigil ang tibok ng aking puso

Sa tuwing ako'y nakatingin sayo

Maaari bang huwag kang humiwalay

Dahil sandali na lang

Darating din ang gabing walang pipigil sa'tin

Kung hindi ngayon aasa bang maibabalik ang kahapon

Kahit sandali palayain ang pusong 'di mapigil

Sana'y tayong dalawa sa huling pagkakataon na ika'y magiging akin

Hindi matigil ang gulo sa aking isip

At para bang walang kasing sakit

Alaala mong hindi ko malimutan

Oras lang ang may alam

Kung darating din ang gabing walang pipigil sa'tin

Kung hindi ngayon aasa bang maibabalik ang kahapon

Kahit sandali palayain ang pusong 'di mapigil

Sana'y tayong dalawa sa huling pagkakataon na hindi na para sa'tin

At sa bawat minuto

Ako'y 'di natuto

Ipilit mang iba ako'y maghihintay sayo

Ikaw ang aking kapiling sa huling sandali

Kasalanan ba kung puso natin ang magwawagi

Kahit sandali palayain ang pusong 'di mapigil

Sana'y tayong dalawa sa huling pagkakataon na hindi na para sa'tin

Kahit sandali patawarin ang pusong 'di tumigil para sa'ting dalawa

Ang maling pagkakataon na ika'y magiging akin"

-Huling Sandali by December Avenue

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Helloo, so as the year ends I guess I wanted to share here a bit of what I'm feeling from time to time in the months and weeks that passed. Since I can't really recall almost all that I felt, here are the lyrics from a song that best describe it so yeah here we go.

"Wish I was a stone, so I couldn't feel

You'd yell in my face, it'd be no big deal

But I'd miss the way we make up and smile

Don't want to be stone, I changed my mind

I wish I had eyes in the back of my head

Then I could see the places I've been

But then I would know that you're talkin' shit

I don't wanna know what my friends think

Wish I were my dog out on the lawn

I'd be so glad when I hear you come home

But if I were my dog, I wouldn't live long

I'm sure gonna miss her when she's gone

I wish I could act in a show on TV

'Cause then I could practice not bein' me

I'll practice my cry, put it into my reel

But you won't believe me when I cry for real

I wish that my brain would triple in size

I'd nail every joke, I'd win every fight

But I'd get too deep with that kind of mind

I don't wanna know the point of life

In some other life I would be rich

I'd travel in style, I'd cover the bill

But couldn't complain 'bout anything small

Nobody'd feel bad for me at all

If I was cocaine or a bottle of Jack

I'd get invited to every frat

But when you get old and your good days have passed

You'll only want me when you're sad

Wish I was a song, your favorite one

You'd follow the dance to me at your prom

I would be there when your baby is born

For two or three minutes, then I'm gone

I wish I was big, as big as my house

I'd sleep on the trees, I'd skip every crowd

But I wouldn't fit on my therapist's couch

God, I could really use him now

I wish I was God, I'd never trip up

And if I did, well, so fuckin' what?

I could be cruel and break all your stuff

Yeah, I'd be loved no matter what

But if I was God, it'd get kinda weird

'Cause you would only say what I wanna hear

And then you would die, you'd love me to death

I never know who the hell I am

I wish I was me, whoever that is

I could just be and not give a shit

Hey, I'll be whatever makes you a fan

'Cause I don't know who the hell I am"

-Maybe Man by AJR

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Not long ago, I made a vow to myself where I would find the true meaning of freedom. I know that deep in my heart its not just being able to go wherever you want and be able to do anything that you want or is something where you're all alone in this world where you would have no one to turn to.

I was right, because I found this line from a writer and it made me realize a few things. I hope that the same happens to you guys that read this.

"Freedom means not being owned, not occupied, not bought.

Freedom means finding the place in me that connects with every person I meet rather than thinking of myself as different, better or on top.

It means opening my heart to my granddaughter’s little perfect fingers, taking in the fragility, the tenderness there, the potential loss.

It means feeling what the suicide bombers must have been feeling at the same moment I am grieving those who died in the bombing.

Believing there is a power determining everything at the same moment I know there is absolutely no one in charge.

Feeling angry at my teenage son for doing the opposite of what I suggested at the same moment I marvel at his independence.

Freedom is not knowing where you are but being deeply there.

Not waiting for someone to save or rescue you or heal your terrible past but doing that for yourself.

Not putting your flag in the ground.

Being willing to get lost.

Living without borders and passports.

Evolving.

Becoming.

Freedom is about being vulnerable to one another, realizing that our ability to connect is more important than feeling secure, in control and alone."

- Eve Ensler

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"Trust is the most fundamental part of wild-shaping. Not trusting others, but trusting yourself. Because the assumption of an animalistic form comes part and parcel with risk - that you’ll like being a beast. Like it too much. You’ve got to trust yourself to the extent that you’re comfortable courting that danger. Trust yourself the way you trust a marital partner with your heart." - Mac Tire, Moon Druid

This may be pertaining to shapeshifting in dungeons and dragons but in real life this can be applied also. Change the term "beast" into "change" itself.

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Winter

Once upon a time, in the far north of a village beside a beautiful forest full of life and a verdant display of color, there lay a single tree where its branches are covered in ice and snow, creating intricate snow flakes that replaces the very leaves that one might find upon any ordimary tree. Upon that tree, there lies a person whose very power is that of ice and frost. This person is the bringer and bearer of winter itself. His hair is as black as night and skin as pale and as cold as ice. He wore a cloak, whose color is as white as the very snow that he brings. It is said that wherever he walks, entire areas would instantly freeze and would be blanketed with ice and snow. Whenever he speaks, ice cold winds would come forth and when he's mad a permanent blizzard would come and will cover an entire kingdom inevitably freezing everyone unless he stops it, if he so wishes. With this tale, many people in far off kingdoms were scared of this being and were always prepared whenever winter comes, as they would always lock their doors and be afraid of the coming cold. However, for the bearer of winter, this was not something that he wished. He only wished that everyone would understand his power and how winter is also an important part of the cycle in all four seasons. He wished that everyone would enjoy that whenever winter comes, everyone would play in the snow, build snowmen, and marvel at the beauty of what ice and frost has bring. The same way that he does in times where his season will come next. As fun as that would sound, this was not to be so as the townsfolk despises the cold and said that it would only bring startvation and death whenever it comes and one does not need such season to arrive. With this, the bearer of winter isolated itself close the tree that he lives by, vowed to never again show himself after his winter has passed.

For days on ahead, the season of spring came and the land was said to be a flourishing place of emerald gardens of different fruits, vegetables, flowers, trees, and many more. This brought the people happiness and prosperity for days to come. Eventually, the seasons have passed without winter and the townsfolk were happy that no cold came to those days and celebrated. However when spring came, they noticed that the each flora was slowly beginning to lose their vigor. They would grow slowly and their trees would bear so little fruit. The animals were starting to get tired and hungry by the minute and were slowly dying. The villagers were confused. Winter didn't came, so how come in the time where everything is flourishing, many are dying? Alas, the spirit of spring came and told the villagers, "You seem to have forgotten that every season is important in their own way. I bring forth life, summer brings upon radiant energy to the land and those that live in it and autumn prepares the land."

"Prepares the land for what?" Says one of the villagers.

"Winter" The spirit of spring replied

"But what good can it bring but coldness and death?" Says another.

Spring lets out a quick and saddened laugh

"This may be what you see, but to us and the other flora and fauna that live in these lands, winter protects us and gives us a time to rest. With winter, I can bring forth more life and summer can bring more energy into this land."

Upon hearing this, the villagers didn't believe at first but looking at what's happening in the area, it seems like this does bear true.

"What can we do?" One of the villager said

With a smile, the spirit of spring replied "My siblings and I will do what we can to preserve the land's life for as long as we can. But you need to convince my brother that you need him. As he has sworn to never again show himself in this land for the fear of hurting everyone." With that the spirit of spring disappeared in a burst of petals.

With days passed, came the time for winter to come and so the villagers sought out the bearer of winter. They searched far and wide, but they cannot see him. Though one little child, a boy managed to find a frozen tree in the far north of the forest that they live in.

The boy shouted, "Is anyone there?"

"Leave this place, I don't wanna hurt you", the bearer of winter replied

"But you're needed, you have to come. You're important for everyone." The boy said in turn.

"Am I? All the things I've brought are just the cold embrace of winter and has brought on many dismay upon this land and its kingdom." The bearer replied with sorrow in his heart.

"But I miss winter." The boy told the bearer

"Really?"

"Yeah, its beautiful and I like how it makes comfy in bed. The spirit of spring also said that you make everyone do the same. You make them all sleepy, so when she comes everything is good." The boy grew excited as he told his story

"I see, would you like me to come back child?" The bearer said as he comes out behind the tree

"Everyone would like to." The boy replied back with a smile.

The bearer of winter smiled back and from there he transformed into a white owl and flew across the land, covering it in ice and snow. Winter came back and everyone cheered as its presence was felt through out every land.

From that day on, everyone in the land appreciated everything that winter brought and understood that every thing is important in their own way.

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Gwydian

Ps: work in progress but here's the idea

A divine being which has domain over the cycle (life, death, and, rebirth), guidance, duality and the moon. He protects all those that travel through the world at night having a chosen champion or envoy that in the form of an owl with feathers as white as snow.

Champions chosen are mostly mages or sorcerers though mostly there circumstances where warriors or paladins can be chosen for this task.

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I remember a saying where

"Sometimes you need to burn in order for you to shine as bright as the sun."

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Kitsu

A boy born with the spirit of the fox. A spirit of mischief and trickery but it also holds wisdom and cleverness. The fox started to manifest itself when a life changing event happened. He was battered down so much but he rose above and since then a tail and two fox like ears was born. As of now he has nine tails. When the fox inside him wants to fight and he lets the fox possess his body, his eyes become golden and slit revealing the fox's true eyes and his aura is golden as well. When both of them agree to fight together, his eyes become silver and slit. Due to his high spiritual energy he is capable of doing magic. He learned spells that are capable of binding and when he uses them the color of his eyes become silver.

Fox Abilities

Illusion

He is able to change his appearance through an illusionary human face mask that he casts upon himself. This lets him become literally everyone even their voice. He can also change his appearance into a fox using a fox mask. A gray fox with the ice blue color for his eyes. He can also hide himself by casting an illusion on the area to make him seem invisible. He can also change the appearance of other beings, objects, and himself or just simply switch his appearance with others. The illusion's power is also able to manifest images of himself that one cannot determine whether he is the one or not. Its as if one cannot touch him and he can also switch objects, magic, and people of their positions. A more focused power is that he gains the ability of those that he transformed into.

Tail

He manifests tail as a sign of having a life changing event that triggers it to grow. He can have up to nine only. Each tail contains vast amounts of spiritual energy which he can use. Once reached nine, he can transform into a divine fox that which has almost an unlimited source of spiritual energy. The divine fox's ability is capable of bending reality and unleashing devastating amounts of energy against its opponents. The fox has dichromatic eyes due to Calcifer's soul, the left eye has the golden glint of the fox and the right has silver slit eyes while its fur is white.

These tails can defend against any attack unless if it is a blade that has a concentrated amount spiritual properties. They react depending on the situation because they are connected with the users instincts.

They can also be used offensively as they can slash or pierce through almost anything. Even magic but spiritual energy can be proved difficult.

Spiritual energy

He can use spiritual energy for flight, spirit bolts, unbounded blasts that knocks away enemies, can contain the wind with his energy and blast them like blades, and of course barriers. There is also fox fire that can burn away magical or spiritual energy. He can also take magic away from a being or object and render it to become normal and make himself stronger.

Bewitchment

An ability in which any word that you say onto any living being becomes bewitched and they will do whatever it is your bidding. It is said that the higher your emotional output is the greater the range. Bewitchment does not only reach the mind but also the target's soul, meaning that even if the target is unconscious, they will reawaken and still do your command. He may also possess other people with his own conscious mind and during this the fox in him controls the body to keep it safe.

Absorption

This type of magic either absorbs the target's life force or magic. This completely reduces the magic until their is nothing left.

Magic

Sealing

He learned spells that at first was able to seal the fox inside but he learned that the fox is only looking out for itself and himself and has made an agreement that they will help together. Now he is able to use this magic to be able to seal enemy's movements and their magic and abilities by either using shadow magic or his newly learned spell which is spider web. The shadow magic is also able to link the targets shadow's on other objects or people as well.