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I wore myself out because his words got to me!!! Dear heavens why did a version of me have such a great affect on me?!

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He has NO right to make me feel this way DEAR HEAVENS TALKING TO HIM IS MAKING MY BRAIN ALL FUZZY. FUCK HES MAKING MY HEART FLUTTER. DAMN YOU META. (Lovingly)

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Scott ain't host anymore. PARTY TIME!!

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FUCK MEN!!! Screamed the sapphic tranny woman and the lesbian in denial as the lesbian serves her now ex husbands the divorce papers!!!! (Said lesbian in denial being Mona, said men being Gideon and Scott)

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Very weird brain thoughts

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Not a vent per say ? Just kinda bored here in class ....

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I just wanted to say goodnight... I didn't know you were busy...

Mnn.

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I was told I can scream my vents into the void here... Whatever that means... Uhm.. hi, to whoever reads this? Im bassilyne.. but that's not important..

Our grandma called me a lazy bitch because I physically couldn't get myself to shower (I did wash up, just didn't full on get in the shower.)

I don't think she realizes that our hips hurt so very much and that I'm nauseous and have a massive headache..? Oh! She also told me cousin "fuck you"! Our cousin is 9 :D!!!

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My head hurts like hell can this kind please shut the fuck up. Like kid, you're being told not to use a fucking stamp on yourself. You're 9, you listen to your mom. You're making it worse..

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I started getting even sadder and my dog picked up on it and keeps trying to alert... He always alerts when we're mad/sad..

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Sitting here and my brain is just. Blank. Like not in the I don't know who I am sense, because I know it's me.... But I just can't think, my brain wants me to sob, run away, all of it. I don't know why? Why is my brain being like this why cant it shut up for once just please

Shut up....

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I don't really know why I'm so sad??? Why am I feeling like this??? Help???

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PLEASE TALK TO US PLEASE FUCK WHERE ARE YOU?! DID WE DO SOMETHING WRONG?? YOU'RE NOT LEAVING US LIKE HE DID ARE YOU FUCK PLEASE DONT LEAVE US WE NEED YOU. WE NEED YOU. PLEASE WAKE UP, CALL US BACK, TEXT US BACK EVEN. WE NEED TO KNOW YOU'RE OKAY, THAT YOU'RE STILL HERE... THAT YOU STILL LOVE US. FUCK.

Please don't be ghosting us...

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They're okay right? They aren't hurt? Or ignoring me? They're just asleep right? I'm just panicking over nothing. I'll be okay, because they're okay right? They still love me right...?

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Ive been up all night unable to sleep, just thinking on this. What does this all mean? We've done this before and screwed up? What the fuck does this mean?! Why can't we just go with the girls already?! I WANNA GO HOME!! WHAT ARE WE DOING WRONG TO HAVE TO REPEAT THIS OVER AND OVER. WE'VE FOUND EACH OTHER, WHAT GIVES?!

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I gotta wait to go home. But waiting is torture. I don't wanna mess this up. I wanna actually go home, be with them. I hate this.

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Please let me go home.