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Chungha in Music Videos 21/∞ ↳ Chungha - Stay Tonight (2020)

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UNDERWATER ꕀ Kwon Eunbi (2022)

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A colorful little sketchbook spread

Made in gouache and colour pencils

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’Flow’ This piece was also one of the first artworks I finished for my solo exhibition at Gallery Nucleus. I was inspired to make several water-themed paintings for the show!💦

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where's that quote abt like. being embarrassed abt the thinness of ur life the way ur embarrassed by a threadbare piece of clothing. bc like yeah

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Cute cat and new project, I’m working hard!

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I just updated my print shop with some new artwork! So if you’re looking for some art to put on your walls, take a look: https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/loish/

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𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵.

𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘭𝘺, 𝘐 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.

𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰, 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘧 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦?

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doodle

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Watercolor on paper  2020

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life update 2023

I started this tumblr when I was 16, which is crazy. I'm 29 now. Life has continued to take me infinite miles away from where I was before. I still remember being essentially a severely depressed shut-in at 16. I remember craving love, understanding, and joy. Craving geniune human connection. I remember intense loneliness. Often I was so lonely it was physically unbearable. I truly believed I was defective. Now I understand. Looking back on 16 year old me is like looking at a complete tapestry. What a gift hindsight is.

Last I updated, I was living in NYC during the start of the COVID pandemic in 2020. I think I came back to Tumblr at that time because it was sort of like being a depressed shut-in again, haha. Since then I've found love. Real love. I've been with my current partner for just over 3 years, living together since April 2021. She has made many of my dreams come true. There are so many wonderful things I could tell you, but they are my little treasures that I won't share. Just know that there is someone who I can reveal all my tenderness and softness to, who makes all my joys 10x more colorful.

I'm not on speaking terms with my parents. I hadn't been speaking with my father since our falling out in Dec 2018. Then I had a falling out with my mother in Jan or Feb 2022. It was very painful, but it has ultimately given me great peace to be away from them.

I lost Kali. She passed in my arms at the vet, May 26, 2023. She was 19. A long, good life. Never long enough. I knew death would come one day, but it didn't stop me from wishing she would be here forever. There is no healing. To heal would mean to let go. I cannot let go of the love I had for her, and the love she had for me. It is all I truly have left of her. No platitudes comfort me. We move on from break-ups, mistakes, and disappointments. Kali wasn't any of those. She was my baby and my angel. A fool would say she was just a cat. A fool could not fathom what I know.

I want children. I've wanted children for a long time now. I think I had pangs of desiring a baby since I was around 20 (quite young!). Obviously I was nowhere near ready enough to seriously consider it at that time. But I've always wanted to meet my child, and to know them. To see who they could become. I have so much to share, but also space in my heart for what they have to share with me. I have ears waiting to listen to them, arms waiting to hold them, eyes waiting to watch them go through this world.

I spent so much of my youth wishing that I could find life to be worth living. It took me a long time, but I don't regret being born and struggling to find value in my life, because eventually I truly came to be glad to be alive. Depression and loneliness wasn't a death sentence. Hating myself wasn't the end of my story.

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LEI XUE Drinking Tea, 2010

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Cartoon Network:

Tell the Whole Story | The Crystal Gems Say Be Anti-Racist

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My book Hot Pot Night comes out Sept 8th and is available for pre-order now!

What’s for dinner? A Taiwanese American child brings his diverse neighbors together to make a tasty communal meal. Together, they cook up a steaming family dinner that celebrates community, cooperation, and culture. Includes a family recipe for hot pot! 🍲🔥✨

Click HERE to see where you can pre-order it!

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Even in the age of swift gods and miracles, I have never seen such burning autumn red as drenches the Tatsuta River 🍁🍂