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“oi, he’s talking to you. respond” it’s ringing in my head over and over. arvind naidu. OVER AND OVER. u destroyed me today. and i will never be able to recover. thank you.

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my biggest regret was telling anyone i had it

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third. third relapse.

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maybe im supposed to tell u how much it hurts me whenever u raise ur voice at me or how ur tone changes when i do something to annoy u but how would i ever tell u that knowing u might do it again

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and how you have no idea how lonely it makes me feel when you’re not around to talk to me, even though it’s selfish, i don’t have anyone to talk to, not my friends not anyone at home but then again, it’s too selfish for me to expect you to be there with me all the time :)

and maybe it’s my fault for getting too attached to ur presence around me

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i fucking hate this feeling

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i hate to do it but honestly what choice do i have

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all of you truly make me feel fucking miserable, truly. fucking. miserable. and it feels like im suffocating in this labryinth of suffering and torture that i will never be able to get out of as long as i live.

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the same people who im supposed to be calling family, who is supposed to communicate with me are the same people who make me miserable

and are the same people who can't be happy to see me now that i've found another family who genuinely cares about me

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no one understands, no one is hearing me out

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i don’t know how it's been years and it's been months since i last saw you and i still can't help finding you in everyone i meet. i don’t know why. and i feel fucking guilty abt it because no one can ever really compare to you. it's crazy if you ask me, crazy how just one thing about you can get me into buckets of tears. so much damage. and yet i feel nothing but love for you.

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its the way people are getting on my last nerve these days

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fuck you i hope you fucking rot in hell

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its. a. fucking. cat. the fuck you gotta shout for cb

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i may not be a good person but at least im not an awful human being.

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i don’t know what to do. i do like you but then again.. our friendship is at stake and id do anything to not ruin it. why couldnt it have just stayed the way it was. why must we ughhhhhhh

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