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little lady (6'0 war criminal) and her new armor design

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Best fuckibf part of my day

To be fair, I do find my first fic posted Really Fun, So I love when it gets love and it's now like 4 years old I think

hi, sorry, I just wanted to ask, and this is prolly going to sound super dumb, are authors chill with people commenting on their old fanfics and stuff?

just want to make sure that I'm not inadvertently being annoying

I believe I speak for most authors when I say they’ll never be annoyed by any positive comments from their readers

authors, reblog if you love receiving new comments on your old works

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just a heads up to my fellow writers out there that AO3 is currently fighting off bots commenting on people’s works to tell them that AO3 will delete their fics “due to the works being deprecated”, and the deletion will affect their accounts unless the authors delete the fics themselves first. IT IS A SCAM. AO3 will NOT delete your works. please do NOT fall for these bots!

I’ve been told the reason why these bots are doing this is due to copyright infringement issue where they’re trying to steal your works (possibly to train AI but this is just a guess) ‼️‼️‼️and once you deleted your fics, it will be either very difficult or impossible for you to claim ownership of your own fics when they were already deleted.‼️‼️‼️

a reminder that AO3 will never contact you through your comments section (in case they claim to be one of the moderators). AO3 will only contact you through your email address which you use to register your account, and it will be from AO3’s official handle. not some sketchy ass @

so if you get a comment telling you you should “delete your works to protect your account because AO3 is doing blah blah blah” report that comment. don’t delete your works.

PLEASE DO NOT FALL FOR THESE SCAM.

AO3 IS NOT DELETING WORKS.

DO NOT DELETE YOUR WORKS JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE CLAIMS THEY KNOW SOMETHING.

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Happy Pride Month!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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The most beautiful line in all of Cr

"...Respectfully."

-Critical Role Campaign 2, Episode 110, "Dinner With the Devil"

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Wanting to be included in conversations and social groups.

And then the conversations heavily being based on Romantic and sexual interests that you don't really feel :(

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Because of some personal shit I probably need to work through in therapy

It sometimes feels so devastating to be aromantic.

Because it feels like society values Romantic relationship so much more than platonic ones, So even if I feel the Strongest Connection with a person, Like they are my biggest ally, My dearest brother, someone I will die for... I'll be playing second-fiddle to their lover. Even when I call for you first, you won't do that.

Just feels a little shitty, ya'know?

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There are things that are frustrating make me angry

But Nothing will be more Infuriating than a "therapist" saying "You'll understand when you're older" at my like 16-17 year old ass when I said I do not believe in any higher power, in any "cosmic importance".

ITS BEEN LIKE 4 YEARS MY DUDE

STILL DON'T

YOU DID NOTHING BUT SEED CONTEMPT INTO ME

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I need to sit down cross someone

And ruminate on Providence

Every time I think about it, I'm like "I need to watch it again to catch more info cause I feel like I'm missing things"

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Now that I've basically came to the same point at which the anime stopped

I think the anime gave a little more for the characters, like:

Haruichi having Dad Problems (and Subequently calling him to see if he could get any help to Kafka) (Aoi also being there and trying the same thing)

The salute to the transport van (and Hoshina Totally fucking Lying about saluting their commander)

It gives them a little more empathy and a little more time that I do appreciate. It feels cohesive, they have been fighting and training together. The anime in that sense gave them more of that "team" feel.

(I kind love the fact that there is no Doubt in Kafka. No one is Ever doubting his humanity. )

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There is a hard switch in that goes "I have nothing to live for" and "there are so many things to live for"

And, depressingly, they do not contradict themselves

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I watched Kaiju №8, the anime.

And what endeared me to it, truly, was the genuine and wholesome heroism of Kafka.

I remember the scene in the last episode, as Kafka wakes up after getting his ass pummeled, viscerally destroying his own body.

He looks at the man that Hurt him, the father of a person he admires.

Kikoru's dad's first reaction is to say "Don't be scared, I'm not here to kill you." Logical. Cause that was that the Motive looked liked.

Kafka's first reaction is, WITH RELIEF, "I'm glad you aren't hurt or else I wouldn't be able to look Kikoru in the eye."

There is a couple more things that endeared me to this story, even though it is so similar to many others told (Almost cried in the first fucking episode over the friendship). But I feel like that one just made it solid.

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I want something to tell me, with profound awe, the meaning of it all

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Call me a whiny ass bitch button god do I have to force myself to read bsd.

I enjoy people analyzing these characters!! I think there is a lot of moments with Characters and their Relationship that are can be so interesting!! And Fun!!

Then I go to read it and it's Another fake death, another kind of Deus Ex Machina moment of "They, This random thing? Yeah, it happened and it saved everyone when you thought there was no hope!"

It feels like the rug is pulled from under me, you know? There is no tension for me, although it feels like there should be? I know the characters will get out and I'm not interested How because I know that whatever Idea I have will be like "Haha! Lied to again! This thing that you expected to happen? Nope! This COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THING HAPPENS"

And there is a little bit of that casino mindset of "well I already put so many hours and emotions in, how can I not finish?"

I want to know but I hate the suffering

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Headcanon that as a child, Kunikida wasn't allowed to have a lot. He learned not to ask for things because the answer would always be "no" or "we got you ___, be grateful for that" (it's always something bare minimum that they mention).

He threw himself into becoming the perfect child for his parents, perfect grades, perfect behavior, perfect everything. But some time when he was a teenager, the question of "what do you want when you get older?" came up in class. Not exactly "what do you want to be," but "what do you WANT?"

that got Kunikida thinking.

He's learned not to want anything, tangible or not. It's an unwritten rule within his household. He took what he got and was grateful for it.

When he got home, he took out a piece of paper and started writing. He wrote about what kind of person he wanted to be. The type of things he wanted to do. What he wanted to teach people he met. Everything. Eventually he wrote so much that he had to staple multiple papers together. This whole thing made Kunikida feel so... fresh. He felt like he had an outlet.

He was asking himself for things that would be achieved over time. Kunikida would improve upon and create his Ideal.

@christelightlavo ik this isn't sskk but teehee....