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having an oc you love dearly but you created when you were very much 15 and going through it is rough because you realize you forgot to give him a personality besides being depressed

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yeah

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NEVER KILL YOURSELF . SOMETHING LESBIAN MIGHT HAPPEN TO YOU SOON .

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one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

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oh boy i saw a Post that i know was at least partially a joke about how we should get to appeal people who've blocked us... i made the mistake of checking the comments. oops. lots of people who don't understand how people can be such meanies and block people over almost Nothing at all, or that blocks should expire after a year... and, well.

i have several people blocked for safety reasons/peace of mind, people i want to have the least amount of access to me as possible (harassment campaign, terfs, etc). i figure most people agree that these are good and noble reasons to Block. but i also have lots and lots and lots of people blocked for seemingly petty reasons (bad opinion, annoying to me). i have also found myself blocked by several people - some i know exactly why, some complete strangers i have never interacted with and cannot figure out the motivations of. so let's explore some angles here:

- Receiving An Appeal: i did actually have someone email me to ask if they were really blocked or if it was a mistake. i was put in the very fun position of having to find a nice way to explain that yeah, sorry, i soft blocked you several times because the commentary you kept adding to my posts was driving me nuts but it didn't stick so i had to hard block you. no hard feelings, you're fine, i just personally find you annoying but please don't take it personally. i mean i didn't HAVE to reply to that email, and maybe i could have found a way to tell that person to give me some space, but. the internet is so loud and so full of people and i have a threshold for how much i can handle, i do not have the capacity or patience to sit down with every person i find annoying and tell them to please repress their entire personalities for my sake. i don't WANT to do that! i want people to be their loud and vibrant self but sometimes i need to slam my door shut before i snap at someone. or everyone. taking care of myself is to everyone's benefit okay!!!

- Wanting To Know Why: look, i get it, it's frustrating to not know exactly WHY someone blocked you, but my honest advice is that... you probably don't actually want to know. maybe if it was someone you have a personal relationship to outside of tumblr, sure! that's a whole other can of worms to deal with. but you probably don't actually need to hear a stranger tell you you're annoying or that your headcanon sucks or whatever. there's a parallel here to wanting to hear the Exact reasons for why someone broke up with you and it's just gonna make you feel like shit regardless of what it is - except it's an online random who doesn't even know you probably. you literally do not need a stranger's approval to exist in a space and do your thing, and the stranger did the right thing by curating their space. i'm sure there's lots of examples where people get blocked for a "small" reason and the blocker forgot Why and could probably easily unblock them and carry on. But. do you really really really need access to This particular stranger online? maybe they have a really cool blog you enjoyed! but there's so many other cool blogs. you'll live!!!!!! i promise.

- Is Blocking A Declaration Of War And Ill Intent? no. it's just not. it's a tool for curating your internet space. nobody gets along with literally everyone else on earth and we were not made with extreme exposure to millions of other people worldwide in mind. maybe it seems extreme to yeet people out of your blog just for being a little bit annoying, but it's not so extreme if you have a larger following and lots of people making noise in your notifs. it doesn't have to be deeper than that!!

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*sonic drowning music*

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reddit white is like the typical racist guy living in a multicultural city with whom every time a nonwhite person enters their FOV they'll whip out the most predictable derisive racist quip like a pokemon shouting its own name. they'll consume nonwhite cultures as theatre but refuse to engage with it on the same level as white culture. tumblr white is like a gated community guy who is so unbelievably insulated from any nonwhite people or culture they'll straight up say wild shit like "well no one told me that dark skinned people didn't have thicker veins! how was i supposed to know that? you can't blame me for that!"

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I drew up a big ol' batch of crows!! I'm planning to have these animals as characters in my final drawing for Perspective, so I needed to draw some to know what I was doing later. I'm very pleased with them!

I hope y'all like 'em too!

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when tumblr dies we should just all go back to pdfs

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Tumblr be like:

-the horniest kinkiest post in that would give a cishet person a heart attack

-silly lil joke

-3 page rant about how cars are racist

-a 3 page rant about the previous rant

-a 3 page rant about how the first rant was actually correct

-hey! Blorbo from my shows

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any hetgem rudomaru soldiers here

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‘anon’ is gender affirming language

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"And that's why I have huge cock"

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funniest shit is going down on discord rn