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Writing

I’m sitting at the desk, my computer and keyboard glowing in front of me, the white of this empty fucking document laughing in my face - personification. Music is blaring in my ear, it’s a little distracting if I’m honest. Narcissist Cookbook (a great musician and an even greater writer). I have a million ideas for a novel and not a one of them makes it past the first chapter - most don’t even produce a full page. Who knew writing would be so goddamn difficult. I only have myself to thank for this. With damn near zero experience, I keep wanting to write the next Tolkien, the next Jordan or Sanderson when I’m not even close to being a Maas. Next to me, my bookshelves mock my vacant expression. A board game that work has made impossible to break out. Novels left unread because of school. An empty document left unwritten because of my own hubris. I’m rambling, I know I am, but what's a good piece of writing without a little bullshit? Writing is a fucking hard hobby, and an even harder dream. Everyone has a story to tell, and I’m sure I do too, but it’s so hard to put pen to page, word to document. It’s damn hard. Every time I do, something goes wrong - I lose my train of thought, I lose my focus. What was I talking about? Oh right! Writing. Who has the time for this? Who can find the time between work and school and life to sit down and put their thoughts out there? Who can find the courage? I wrote a piece I was semi-proud of, put it out to magazines as a little experiment. Looking back, its shit. The story is more than a little silly, it's not very cohesive, and the point is so poorly put out that it’s almost laughable how obvious it is that I didn't come up with the meaning until I was done writing. Needless to say, it didn’t get into any of the magazines, and even though I know it wasn’t good, and even though I know there was no way for it to, it hurts to have not even gotten an email back. A ‘wow your writing sucks’ A ‘you need to put more effort into the setting and the dialogue. Your characters are flatter than weirdos online think the earth is, your prose are worse than cave wall paintings, you clearly wrote this within an hour, and your meaning is meaningless - never contact us at the ‘fuck you eat my dick magazine’ ever again.’ Of course, the fuck you eat my dick magazine being the premier writing magazine, I didn’t expect much. But, I keep pushing it. I keep writing, I keep working toward being a Mass. Why? Why do I torture myself with the klaking of a keyboard as I write out more and more slop? Why do I keep putting my input into places where it shouldn’t be? I should just stay put and do something easy. But I won’t. Because I want the challenge, and I want to challenge. To be a writer, in the most pretentious way I can say it, is to challenge the world, and the views of ourselves and others. To present new ideas to ourselves and others. We need to write because it keeps us questioning. It keeps our peers questioning. Because if we stop questioning we cannot be humans, truly. So I’ll be a Maas, so I can be a Tolkien, so I can be an Orwell. As should you.

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Took the Stranger Things 4 poster and stole the poses for this smaller piece, not entirely traced, but the poses were copied from the original

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Quick art I did a while back of a girl and her moped

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Quick sketch kinda messing with arm perspective and stuff

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Please. Include. Concept. Art. In. Your. Games. Or. Art. Books.