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i feel like an old woman watching the kids play in the street. every time i go inside to make a snack the most outrageous shit happens outside. by the time i get back in my rocking chair the children have begun to reenact lord of the flies.

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a system of cells interlinked, within cells interlinked, within cells interlinked ♱ the vague outline of my tell-all book. or y'know . . . just some asks i have answered. please be aware that you are free to fill up my inbox but i do not give out shifting advice.

i. look in the mirror, there is a girl standing behind you

scientology realities? at the end of the day it is me versus me.

ii. lost in the space between understanding and infinite doom

call of the void.

iii. my routines and habits

how i script. how i intend to shift. website to add colorful text.

iv. everything leads back to the boy next door

kennie's vison. venus's gift. aveline caught him wearing. mack showing off the red hood calico critter. theo rage-baiting himself. does jason follow canon in my realities? the insane hair cut.

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guys pls bombard my asks rn so i can actually post bc i don’t have time to create my usual ones anymore

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manifesting our layla back .... you are dearly missed 💔💔 all the best with college !!

i miss you guys so much oh my goodness 💔💔💔

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i miss you BRUH

I MISS YOU. WHAT’RE WE TALKING ABT. so ummmmm actually college is okay but like so ass at the same time. i fr walked 21,000 steps today and i still have to figure my class in the morning ( it’s 9pm rn ). oh, and i gotta shower and wash my hair. it’s a mess. idk when im gonna be able to post again tbh 💔

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speaking in a hushed tone i am completely furious. no one ever really instructs you on how to avoid remaining frantic or how to keep from panicking when everything appears hopeless. i feel awful it all seems like a cruel prison ive built for myself everyone advises understand it , your dr belongs to you and just unwind, but how does one actually unwind its simple to declare, but witnessing the identical reality day after day continues to drive me further into madness? layla, i am exhausted from being told recognize your own strength cease being idle it feels incredibly harsh particularly toward those of us who have been attempting to shift for such a long time. perhaps ill just surrender because merely assuming no longer feels sufficient despite striving for what feels like an eternity apologies, i’m doing what i can . adore you <3

♱ my sweet sweet anon, you are not alone in the haze between understanding that ‘ your ‘ reality exists but still not feeling able to shift. i have mentioned this before but i have been ‘ trying ‘ to shift for over five years but remain wholeheartedly unsuccessful.

i have dreams of my drs and i have come to the conclusion that im simply seeing memories of them. i have learned to love this reality and all its faults. even though i cannot live with the boy i love most in this reality— there are still parts of it that fulfill me. and that’s because i have pulled myself out from the valley of doom ( the deep depression of my teenage years ).

you are not alone. there is no structure to discovering the endless universe. i am right there with you trying to figure all this out.

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i hope we all understand that even though he’s got nine inches and at least thirty pounds on me— he does not run shit. he’s a big crybaby who gets upset when he can’t just stay on my heels at functions.

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artist reality ♱ college basketball star, jason todd. the brunette boy layla cannot seem to leave alone. can you blame her? he's only two halls down!

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hi!! which website do you use to add the coloured phrase in your posts? :)

♱ helloooo, i use this website for the colorful text in my posts!

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defending a racist yikes

who are we talking abt?

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EVERY JASON THING I SEE makes me think of you. So I’m sending this tweet I saw 😭😭

this haircut might be the worst thing ive ever seen on him. just go bald atp holy moly

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laylaaa waylaaa tell me something about your outerbanks and znation dr

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here ya go, venus ♱ the differences between my outer banks reality and my outer banks off-script reality. plus a few ' fun facts ' on my z nation reality! so sorry that most of these rambles are about jason . . . i might have a tiny crush on him.

outer banks reality ♱ this reality mostly follows the plot points in the show. well season one with john b searching for the gold because we ( i am his older sister ) might lose the house if we don't get money to pay the bills.

can you even soft launch with the rafe cameron? absolutely not. every single person on the island knows about the ' hidden ' thing between him and i. you can see it in his eyes every time someone mentions my name. he claims to be casual and nonchalant but i promise you he's all in my phone as soon as we're apart. so there's truly no purpose in even trying to do the cute ' soft launch '. every one already knows bruh.

rich boy!jason is nothing like rafe. i mean sure a little bit with the stern faces and chiseled jaw. but my sweet boy is surprisingly empathetic and kind. he finds the kook and pogue shit unbelievably cringey. there's been multiple times where he's clocked rafe doing that dumbass kook shit. him and rafe are childhood best friends. so like the drama between the three of us is too dramatic.

outer banks off-script reality ♱ this reality does not follow the plot of the tv show. instead it mostly consists of me being a pogue turned kook when my mother married into a kook family.

changes to rafe: he does not care about the social hierarchy at all. he just worries about himself and the next time he gets to go out on his dad's boat with jason and his other guys. also! no cocaine. fyi this goes for every rafe cameron i will every be associated with. cannot handle being around that so i refuse to!

the older sister from hell is the exact nickname topper gave me in middle school. all because i told on him for stealing and smoking one of his dad's cigarettes. he was eleven. like of course i am telling on your dumbass. i'm only two years older than topper and a year older than jason and rafe. the age gap during our childhood consisted of rafe being the usual teen boy making jokes about his best friend's older sister.

the switch junior year was when i had my ' glow up ' so rafe's jokes were happening less and less. he would get all red in the face as soon as i walked into the living room where they were playing xbox. he would throw his controller and act like he was a ' grown man '. he was not fooling no one. the jokes flipped onto rafe having a crush on me.

z nation reality ♱ just the usual journey across the entire united states to get a blue man to some doctor to create a cure for the zombie virus.

placement in the vehicles almost never changes. in pickup trucks me and jason are always in the bed. ten-thousand ( tommy ) tends to be back there with us too. all three snipers in the back is the smartest move honestly. but if it's a car or van or whatever we're always in the far back. always giggling about random shit or sleeping all over each other.

ace hates men. every single one expect jason and doc. ace would leave me in the dust to chase after the old man. i'm being dramatic lol.

boredom has led jason places i wouldn't go with a gun. just kidding . . . kinda. his boredom has held to him counting the beauty marks on my skin he says i have six on my face, twelve on my left arm and seven on my right arm.

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sticky notes ♱ i miss the earth so much, i miss my wife.

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sticky notes ♱ random ass moodboard because my pinterest feed keeps reminding me of @withluvvenus

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www.laylasverse.com/moots-n-moodboards/rrezshifts-twenty-first

sticky notes ♱ happy birthday, @rrezshifts!! i hope you have the best day ever. you have been so welcoming it's insane. i appreciate you so much. thank you for listening to my crash-outs <3 i'll always see you as a mythical being who loves trinkets.

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outer banks off-script reality ♱ outer banks, north carolina. topper's older sister. trouble by frank ocean. home for the summer. late night swims. chasing on the beach. group photos. on my heels.

jason todd and rafe cameron ♱ forbidden crushes

introductions

i. lore-drops who is the eldest carlisle daughter? heard she hangs with that cameron boy. oh, wait, who's that brunette boy with her?

ii. thoughts

iii. activities songs that remind her of jason.

picturesque

i. digital-footprint

ii. edits

iii. moodboards

inbox

i. asks why is it called off-script?

ii. ask-games

in excess

i. pin-board

ii. spotify-playlist

sticky notes ♱ this reality has barely anything to do with outer banks. i just borrowed the characters and made them a little less focused on the class system.