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please for the love of Heracles & Iolus!!!!! I dont want to go back to school so I can get a job to pay down my debts

You would quit working to be a full time meathead

Reblog if you’d make the gym and gains your full time job — so we can find and sponsor you.

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the real reasons for Daddy's training in tights in the gym...making sure their boy is focused only on them!!!

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captain my cap'n

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somebody please pay me to achieve this!!!

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bigger!!!!

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this should be how most second year college men should look

Tyler Oberholtzer

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beautiful art repressing HIMBO's!!!

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the growth hits hard!!!

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big man Eric !!!

Eric Janicki

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what should be every male teenagers goal

What a muscle packed cleavage!

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whne youre best friends older brother knows exactly what you want when you visit him

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umm yes plz til im 300 Kbs of solid fricking muscles!!!!

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New year new rants

alright so this post is entirely out of the blue, but I needed to get stuff off my mind cause it has been a heck of a day today and this is the one place I know none of the my irl people will ever see it which is good cause there isn't really anything they can do for me about the situations.....buckle up cause its gonna be a long one and very chaotic/tangent filled.

so  not even a full 5 days into the new year and my entire plan for getting my life together is completely off the rails starting at about 9 20 am: get in to work today to find out that our primary full timer’s sibling came down with a fever instantly making him ineligible to return to work for the week as per our company policy regarding potential illness read covid exposure requiring employees to not come in until a full 72 hrs have passed following the end of symptoms. so that unfortunately means that I am now the one in charge of our little show for the week and effectively reduced my days off to 0 this week between my two jobs. this also means that I had to cancel the rest of my personal training sessions this week that I had booked 2 weeks ago since there is no one else who can cover the shifts which occurs during the same time period as my trainer operates....I had actually done my work this year and prepared the entire weeks lifting schedule based on shifts as scheduled, I was super proud of myself for managing this only to watch it just crumble under the  “needs of job expectations” aka our company being stingy with hours and number of staff hired in case of such emergencies. so the day continues for us and because of the time of year our usual monthly pattern is broken to hell and we are steady busy the entire day which is unusual for the start of month and people are just absolutely mean today. I mean like full on grumbling about wait times, number of staff, and complaining about stupid things that are in essence beyond our staff’s controls. One lady goes full “karen” after I let her know that for security reasons the transaction she is trying to perform has to be done differently as it isn't her own account she is taking care of...well the way she got upset you'd have think id told her to go out and shoot a puppy, I was called a host of things including incompetent told I didn't know how to do my job and that in the three years she’d been doing this she had never been told this was a requirement and I was being ignorant and disrespectful of not just her but the person whom she was acting on the behalf of. unfortunately for me when she asked for a manager I had to tell her he was gone for the day but I could find someone, who took maybe five minutes as he was finishing his own work, and then continued her tirade at him and me suggesting that when he offered to take her to the side and calmly discuss things that we were trying to cover up the issue of my poor job performance and apparent rudeness. another customer tried to intercede politely at first then it devolved into insults and threats as there was a continuous line behind them, which I do appreciate when customers try and assist employees who are clearly being used as a vent scape goat but it was not especially helpful in deescalating the situation. the entire charade went on fro almost 40 mins and when my assisting supervisor finally got her out of the way so I could take more clients I was vibrating for the next three hours with just pure anger at having been so abused by a client who didn't want to follow our protocols because to her protocols are different from legalities which is untrue in this situation as the protocol in question is a security requirement that has very real legal implications for me if violated.

As a direct result of this everyone ended up staying late and was very behind on our closing procedures. I was still vibrating with anger that I decided I would not go the gym immediately as I would like be mildly inconvenienced and try to fight someone. as it would turn out I would be immediately inconvenienced by my mother over a stupid issue that was not at all the concern she had originally made it out to be, so I was once again angry and now I was also cold and hungry and dehydrated. this is the sort of thing that seems to happen frequently with her which has put a serious strain on our relationship because I'm the only family member who lives near her and takes her calls every day. she tried to guilt me into either going out for food with her or eating there with her but I was dead set on getting out so I pushed to just leave. She also suggested that perhaps I just take the night off the gym so that I didn't jeopardize my workouts or gym membership. This one I actually took but looking back at it now I realize this probably didn't do me any favours as I not only ate a grotesque amount of take out food primarily in the carb department but I also ended up binging on cola which is one of the things that I'm trying to quit consuming...which is very difficult after being used to drinking lots of it for almost half my life.

This of course circles back around to the fact that I had made very clear plans for this year to be one where I actually got my nutritional side of fitness under control and pushed myself harder so that I would grow from an overweight guy to hopefully a muscle bear. ideally as anyone who has looked at my repostings knows is that I'm into bodybuilding and would very much enjoy turning myself into a great big muscle behemoth that turns heads. however this is where my knowledge and experience contradict my actual actions; I have aspired to be big and muscular since I was a teenager but my nutrition is an absolute nightmare as I work two part time jobs and spent the last 15 years in university seeking degrees that would allow me to leave retail behind and enter a standardized professional career. But as one might imagine this flys in the face of every well muscled athlete and gym rat’s experience of college; because if you truly want something you would do anything to get it right? so why couldn’t I just plan the nutrition and stick to it in high school and university? part of that answer lies in a deep seated kind of naiveté that took hold of me years ago, which believes that because of how puberty and lifting any weights generally works that my body would naturally adapt and produce the results that logically come with going from being a boy into a grown adult man. This is of course a logical fallacy as can be proven by the fact that obesity is perhaps the most common illness in North America afflicting more people annually with a multitude of medical issue than any other single condition. There are clear examples in everyday life that should clearly put me in my place and say that no unless you are doing some expert level training and control your nutrition like the men you see in fitness and bodybuilding magazines do, your results will always be sub par and you won't just magically grow into this athletic masculine adult. The entire fitness supplement industry is built on this misconception that if you just do this one magic thing or take these special products you can look just as good as the professionals and models....obviously this is utterly untrue as it takes easily 5 to 10 years for a person to reach that kind of physical peak.

it is an ongoing issue for me that results in a love hate relationship with my body , especially this year as the gym I attend has continued to grow and bring in newer younger members and for the first time in forever since I came out of the closet I have a steady lover who is also interested in fitness having been at one time a physique competition placer two years in a row. For me it is incredibly frustrating to continue to watch these young guys go from mildly in shape to being ripped lean muscle machines, even some the older members closer to my age group are growing at a faster pace than I am. this of course makes me even more unnerved because I carry pretty much all my extra weight as fat in the core of my body, which at a glance clearly tells others just how committed I am to being in shape. I worry more now that my binging and nutritional neglect will lead to my lover leaving me because I'm not measuring up to my own stated preferences and certainly not up to the level of condition that he could pull anytime he wants to...I certainly don't fall into the category of attractive that is the primary image of gay men which typically runs towards the obviously muscular tight waisted men seen in media and at pride events. in  order to help facilitate proper movement towards this ideal I have set out for myself, I spent the majority of jan1st at home with a white erase board and my training log book planning my year goals, my quarterly goals and how I would be restructuring my workout schedule so that I could fit in all the areas I feel are lagging behind and start tightening my waistline. One of the reasons for this is because of the difference I feel between my personal training sessions and my gym time on may own; in my session I'm usually done being exhausted, sweating like mad and super pumped enough to see the muscle groups I've worked through my body fat. on my own I'm usually just pumped, not super sweaty and rarely exhausted, which could be because my personal time in the gym I can run the same workout cycles my trainer puts me through at his own personal gym studio where there is no one to compete for equipment. As such this year I began to wonder if perhaps I wasn’t training hard enough o elicit the level of growth I so desperately want to see on my body that I see in lots fo others. one of my friends who I built a training regiment for is seeing more visible results now that he has his Crohn’s under control and getting enough proper nutrition in his body, which I will admit is coming from the opposite end of the body spectrum of ectomorph. 

understandably I've begun to feel that I've lost a greater majority of the last decade and a bit of training to under training, which was then added to the fact that I discovered at age 30 my obesity had absolutely destroyed my body’s ability to produce proper levels of testosterone, we discovered I actually had the test levels of a toddler, for which I started TRT in an attempt to not feel lethargic and see if my body composition would finally start shifting more rapidly. My GP was receptive to me wanting to initiate this therapy, which would normally just be left alone at that age group according to medical ideal since it was naturally on the downward slope anyway, but unfortunately they didn’t have any supportive training for endocrine therapy and were unsure how my dosages should proceed. We added my name to the waiting list for local endocrinologist aid but it was going to be a year at least before id get to see him, this was of course later compacted by Covid shut downs and I'm still waiting to see him as he is the only one currently operating in the entire souther half of my province and TRT for men in my age group is not deemed an emergent issue so my request for consult can't even be rushed. so not only do my T levels sometimes bounce up and down out of the “normal range” but I spent that majority of the years I could have seen drastic growth without the biochemical means to even do so. it feels veery much like a lot of time and training wasted for very little gain because the medical field now looks for my slower growth pattern in teenagers to see if there is an issue with the endocrine system where as I was just deemed to be a “late bloomer” despite the fact that I barely grew during my teen years except for perhaps sideways. needless to say my GP tries their best to be of help but the support isn't there for me even on the home front. My mother tries to understand but has a bad habit of being contradictory when it comes to my nutrition “ a little desert won't hurt you” or the guilt trips to going for food with her because of her “need to see other humans” for which she never calls her friends for during covid. yet she has continued to make comments about my midsection when she knows I'm the only one in our family who does any type of fitness and that her comments usually fall into “if you'd just take up swimming again/cardio id bet you'd see a difference in no time, id be willing to make you a bet for $100 if you started swimming your waist would just disappear in a month or two” or my personal favourite “you used to have a flat stomach so what changed from then?”

anyway I think that's about all the chaos I can spill right now as its almost 2 am and I have to be at work for 9 am ...ugghh I need a vacation

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do you ever just realize you've been an adult for over a decade and you have no money and live paycheque to paycheque?

do you ever just realise you’re almost an adult and you have no money 

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at last its resurfaces!!!!!!!!!!!

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there's def a few! 

smash that rb if you know a boy that is just so fucking handsome

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Blain Gibson: Rooster Teeth’s Resident meathead and Thirst trap aka “Daddy Blaine” aka ‘the dude who just doesn't need to have a shirt on ever”

Blaine Gibson: A Summary