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bobby: so… did they?

hen: i fear not, cap.

bobby: you’re telling me i was trapped in a secret government lab for nearly three months, and they still haven’t gotten together?

chimney: it’s a mystery to us all, cap.

bobby: eddie was practically forced to come back to LA and become roommates with buck, and yet, nothing?

ravi: sounds about correct.

bobby, sighing: they’re completely helpless, aren’t they?

chimney, ravi, and hen simultaneously: yep.

bobby: i died in vain.

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The fact that Eddie and Maddie aren't best friends in the show is fucking criminal, because those two? Literal twins, their lives are so similar it's kinda sickening.

Eddie, oldest child, has two younger siblings. Maddie, oldest child, has two younger siblings.

Eddie, forced to step up and be "the man of the house" because his father is always working, and his mother is emotionally neglectful, typical "you had food, clothes, and roof over your head, so you should be thankful" parent type. Maddie, forced to step up and raise her own little brother because their parents were emotionally absent and only paid attention to Buck when he got hurt.

Okay, now it's getting creepy. Maddie was 19 when she married her abuser. Eddie was 19 when Shannon got pregnant and they had no choice but to get married.

Maddie became ER nurse. Eddie became army medic.

Maddie moved to LA because she was running from her husband. Eddie moved to LA because he was running from his parents.

Maddie was traumatised by abuse Doug put her through and had a hard time processing his death . Eddie spent years in toxic relationship with Shannon and had a hard time processing her death.

Both fucking adore Buck.

Eddie left for another tour because he was terrified of being a parent and when he was honourably discharged he spent every walking moment trying to be the best parent for Chris, but he was still haunted by doubts and afraid of failing. Maddie left after Jee got accidentally hurt on her watch and when she came back after getting the help she needed to fight her postpartum depression she spent every walking moment trying to be the best parent for Jee, but she was still haunted by doubts and afraid of failing.

The level of understanding and trauma bonding those two can reach is frankly ridiculous.

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When Buddie finally starts dating, Chris asks to talk to Eddie in a very serious tone

Eddie thinks the worst, that Chris has a problem with them dating, and starts speed running crisis management in his head

Chris starts with “listen, dad. i like buck. a lot. he helps me with my school projects, and he knows a lot of facts, and he cooks”

Eddie is sweating bullets. Chris leans in, and points a finger right into Eddie’s face

Chris continues. “do. not. mess. this. up”

Cue Eddie going ???

Chris: “let’s be honest, dad, your dating record reads like a ‘how not to keep a partner’ handbook. we like buck, so try to be less of.. whatever happened with the others.”

Eddie: “are- are you giving me dating advice?”

Chris: “im just warning you that if something goes wrong with you two, i will assume it’s your fault and buck gets me in the divorce.”

Eddie: “you’re my son!”

Chris: “not for long if you don’t pull yourself together.”

The day buddie get married (and buck simultaneously adopts Chris) Chris gives his dad a hug and whispers “thanks for not messing it up”

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jennifer love hewitt creating madney and buddie with one decision and changing lives forever

peter krause wanting to keep doing the show

angela wanting bobby back

oliver and ryan wanting a stable and fun relationship for buck and eddie - *cough* buddie canon *cough* (you’ll never convince me ryan doesn’t want it too. “cUt tO… nOw yOu’Re My LoVe iNtErEsT 😀😊”)

kenny rooting for captain hen

no one liking bucktommy

i love this cast so much, they just get it 💘

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Buck unties the apron and hangs it up before uncovering the pot of chili. The scent is exactly the same and, a quick taste test later, is as close to what Bobby used to make as he can get it.

Taking a deep breath, he makes himself smile as he turns around and announces, "Dinner's ready."

"Not hungry, Buck," says Chimney on the couch.

Hen is at the table poring over paperwork. "Thanks, Buck, but I don't know if I have the appetite right now."

Buck swallows down the disappointment. "Right. Okay, uh, I-I'm just gonna leave that on the island. Help yourselves to it when you get hungry."

Gerrard and Eddie walk out of the office at that point and Gerrard sniffs the air. "Buckley, you made dinner again?"

"I've washed the dishes and utensils I used already, sir." Buck keeps his expression as pleasantly neutral as he can. "Would you like some?"

Gerrard harrumphed. "Well, I would. But I'll serve myself.."

After Gerrard takes a bowl and walks back to his office to eat, Eddie wanders over and plops into the chair next to Hen.

"Can't believe you're cooking for that old geezer," Eddie says.

"I'm not cooking for him, I'm cooking for everyone on shift." Buck stirs his chili. The color is rich and the scent decadent. He wants to throw up.

Eddie rolls his eyes. "Well. At least he appreciates it."

"You can have some too," Buck says quietly. "I'm not stopping you from getting a plate."

"Nah. Think I'll just order a burger, I'm gonna head home soon." Eddie stands.

Buck slaps his ladle on the counter.

He doesn't know why he did that. Abruptly, he stands and heads to the kitchen island to grab a dishrag to wipe away whatever mess he made.

"You don't have to be passive aggressive about me eating something else," Eddie says.

A bowstring in the depths of Buck's mind snaps. He grabs the pot of chili and dumps the lot of it, pot and all, into the trash.

He stares at the hours of work he's just discarded, and swallows down the tears before turning around to go downstairs, except the three others are now all standing and staring at him, like he's gone mad.

Maybe he has. Who the fuck cares.

Eddie has his hands on his hip. "What's with the dramatics now, Buck?*

"None of you want it anyway. Why should I bother?" Buck snaps.

"Buck, we just weren't hungry," Chimney starts, but falters when Buck glares at him.

Hen steps closer. "Buck, you didn't have to throw the food away."

"Do you even know what I made?" he demands.

All of them are silent. Buck feels another bowstring break.

"I made chili. Bobby's chili. With his secret ingredient," Buck says. "Hours. Washing, chopping, cooking. No one asked."

"Buck, we were busy," Chimney offers weakly.

"I know, I went out on the same calls as you. I mopped up the bay floors, took inventory, rolled the lines. I did my job and I cooked." Buck gulps down the sour frustration in the back of his throat. "I cooked for us. But I guess I should know better by now."

"You're gonna make it about you again, Buck?" Eddie sounds exasperated. "We've talked about this."

"No, we didn't. You accused me of it, just like you're doing now, and so what if I'm making it about me?" Buck explodes. "Am I not allowed to feel emotions? Am I supposed to just grin and bear it? To let you say those things like they don't hurt?"

The silence that falls over them is deafening.

Buck can't even look at them. "You think I don't know I'm being irrational and obsessive about all this? I don't know what to do! I don't know what to do, and there isn't anyone I can ask, but I am trying! I'm trying and I get no acknowledgement of it. Every time I reach out, you guys just brush me off or, or talk about me behind my back, like I am not mature enough to handle difficult topics. Like I'm a child."

"Buck, that's not -"

"It is, Hen, and you know it is. But I have a duty. I have to... I have to, I have to check in on Chimney, and on you, and I don't even know how to approach Athena but I will have to, and I have, I have to think about, think about how Eddie feels, what he thinks, because otherwise he would hide important stuff from me, his so-called best friend, and he gets angry when I find out even though he's the one hiding secrets, a-and work goes on, and no one eats together anymore, and I'm trying. I am trying so hard to keep the 118 as it was, but I can't do it."

"No one asked you to," Hen says gently, reaching for his shoulder, but Buck bats it away and steps back.

He stares at her bleakly. "Bobby did."

The atmosphere chills about ten degrees. Buck hugs himself. "Bobby told me... He told me I'm gonna be okay. That you guys would need me." He can't stop the tears now but he doesn't care, he's so tired. "But you don't. None of you do. And I don't think I'm gonna be okay, not anymore."

Eddie takes a step forward and Buck backs up. Incredulous, Eddie stares and folds his arms. "And you think any of us are gonna be okay?"

"I didn't say that-"

"So what are you saying? That you're special and your feelings are unique?"

"You weren't here," Buck spits out, cutting Eddie off.

Eddie goes pale and tense. "Buck, don't you throw that in my face-"

"You weren't here when Bobby fired me and took me back into the 118. You weren't here when he showed me that he believed in me. He was... He was the one who guided me through my first real relationship, and he had... He'd..." Buck wishes he could grab someone and point them to all the things Bobby's taught him. "The last thing he said to me... The last thing he said to me, was 'I love you, kid'. He was proud of me and he loved me, which is so much more than my own father ever showed. In every way except for blood, Bobby was my dad. And everything I've done since that night was to prove that... That I could live up to his expectations, but I can't, and I'm sick and tired of having to be okay, when I'm not, of trying to be the one you guys can reach out to, but none of you even have a hand outstretched, and I know I'm not Bobby, I can't be him, but all I wanted was for us to have a meal together, like the family he made us."

Hopelessly aware that he's a blubbering mess, Buck scrubs his palms over his eyes and cheeks before he pushes past Eddie and a silent Hen.

Chimney reaches out to him. "Buck -"

"I'm done, Chimney. You guys eat whatever you want. Do whatever you want. I'm done."

He tears down the steps and runs out of the firehouse. It's not about the chili. It never was about the chili.

But he wishes they had taken some and they could have eaten together.

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every wife deserves a man like buck...

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scarlet johannson did not spend an entire decade fighting tooth and nail to make natasha into an actual character instead of the sex object writers wanted her to be while also having to endure the most vile, misogynistic questions during press tours for people to now disrespect her legacy because yelena is 'better'. the only reason why that is, is because of everything scarlet went through. natasha singlehandedly paved the way for every other female superhero in the mcu and don't you forget that

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Things Evan 'Buck' Buckley said in S8 9-1-1

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eddie and maddie scene where eddies just sharing shit about his life because they never talk and she really doesnt know anything about him, but somehow, maddie keeps knowing all of this intricate information about him, like obscure stuff that not even most of the 118 know. and hes like "are you stalking me??" and shes just like "no buck just talks about you ALL THE FUCKING TIME"

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eddie, who panics when he has to date women and when his girlfriends start being a part of his life, but gladly involves buck in his home and his family with such a soft, fond look on his face

oh i‘m sure

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8x09 sob stories // 8x18 seismic shifts

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8x09 sob stories // 8x18 seismic shifts

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Happy pride month to him specifically

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This thing between us. 9-1-1, S03E06, S08E09, S08E10, S08E11

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buck: *says dumb thing* eddie: *agrees*

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hear me out: eddie feelings realization in 818 and then he forgets how to act around buck for the entirety of 9a

because everyone kinda expects buck to be the first to realize how he feels about eddie right? well wrong, because eddie pretty much has an epiphany when buck is lying there under the rubble. oh and that's it - i'm in love with buck. buck is my joy. i'm not gonna let a bit of rubble take my joy from me.

so cue the roommates era with awkward eddie. because the last time eddie had a crush was when he was in high school ffs. and now he's sleeping in the same bed with his crush. and it's platonic, even though buck is bi. and it's killing eddie.

he can't sleep. because he just stares at the miracle that is buck. and one night buck wakes up and eddie is staring, blatantly staring. so eddie, the worst actor on planet earth, quickly rolls away from buck and starts to snore. very loudly, and very obnoxiously fake.

or in the morning, when buck is making breakfast with chris at the table, eddie forgets how to breathe. or speak. or move. so when buck goes 'hey eds can you make me a coffee?' eddie essentially starts shouting 'no, you make your own coffee, i can't make coffee, what's coffee?!'. and buck is just so confused? but he keeps trying to get eddie to, well, be eddie again. 'eddie, can you grab the spatula and give the eggs a stir?' and eddie tries but he fumbles with the spatula and drops it not once, not twice but three times. all with a teenager with more game in his pinky than eddie has in his entire body snickering at him.

but eddie keeps trying. flirting. people flirt when they have a crush right? okay, eddie will flirt. yeah, he can do that. he can tell buck he has pretty eyes. that's fine. so when it's just the two of them on their couch watching a movie, eddie turns to buck and goes 'buck... eyes. you have eyes.' and runs out of the living room before buck can even begin to process any of that.

and when buck is sitting at the table with chris, helping him with his homework, going on and on about why walruses have bumps underneath their flippers, eddie can't be around. he can't trust himself to handle whatever his heart is doing in his chest at the sight of his love and his son together. and he can't trust his son to not out him. so he keeps his distance. and he tries to sort his feelings and his thoughts so he doesn't go all weird again when buck inevitably re-appears in their bedroom. and really, he should've known it wouldn't work. buck returns with that bright smile on his face and eddie's traitorous knees fail him and he all but falls flat on his ass, stuttering his way through some excuse about how the ground was wobbling.

eddie almost gets caught once, by buck. okay, don't judge him. he promised himself he would embrace joy, right? and what's more joy than buck? so when he's alone at home, he pulls out that stupid cuddly pink cardigan from buck's closet. and he puts it on. and it's way too big on him but it feels like a hug from buck. like buck is engulfing him. and it almost makes eddie cry because he's so sure he'll never have that for real. only his little joyful-turned-tearful cardigan experience comes to an abrupt end when buck steps in the house. eddie manages to take the cardigan off, but now he's just holding it in his hands. buck just raises an eyebrow, letting whatever excuse eddie has come to him. eddie decides to go with 'i was... i was gonna do laundry... and thought you might want this washed too'... to which buck just goes 'so you pulled my clean cardigan out of my clean closet to... clean it?'. and look, eddie knows he's fucked. so he just agrees with a 'yup' and walks out on buck, with the cardigan in his hands.

and it's worse at work. because hen and chim know something. and under their watchful eyes, he's acting even weirder. so when buck is cooking in the firehouse in his apron and asks eddie to grab something for him because his hands are dirty, hen and chim almost get whiplash from turning to eddie to watch his reaction. and eddie panics okay? he panics because he had completely zoned out thinking about buck's strong arms and how they might feel around him. so when buck talks to him he just screams 'arms' and walks away. and then he realizes he fucked up, returns with his eyes looking anywhere but at buck, grabs whatever it is buck wanted from him, plops it on the counter and leaves again. and great, now hen and chim know for sure.

to his credit, buck isn't weirded out. he's endeared actually. beacuse eddie from seven years ago would've never allowed himself to be awkward and panicky. eddie from seven years ago would've done everything in his power to keep up a cool, calm and collected demeanor. and it would've been a shame because to buck, eddie has never been cuter. and buck's not dumb, he caught on pretty much 24h hours in. but eddie was just being too adorable for buck to do anything about it. eventually, buck decides to put eddie out of his misery and one night, on their couch, he gives eddie the most gentle and tender last first kiss either could've ever imagined. and he tells eddie about how he thinks he's the most adorable thing to ever happen to mankind. and eddie groans because 'you knew??' and buck just goes 'baby, you weren't subtle, you were cute but you weren't subtle. you bought me enough time to buy a ring though'.

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i need these two divas to interact more often