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Confession: 70

I feel as if I keep taking small steps backwards. Overall, everything is just fine, but there are tiny details and responsibilities in my life that I legitimately keep overlooking or just plain ignoring. Saving something simple for another day because I finally have time just to myself. I am good, but there are theses types of moments that still need work. I’ll keep trying but, I constantly have to peel myself off the ground like old gum. I just feel sad and so close to a river of tears.  I want to whole-heartedly relief this frustration I am facing within myself, yet my will is fading in and out of my consciousness. I hope to be better than I actually am being now. It’s like I have to coax and beg my mind to cooperate with the rest of me. On top of it all, I have to go to work almost every day and stuff all the pieces of this internal chaos in my closet, hoping that it won't make too much of a ruckus while I’m away. Don't give up on me, please.

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Confession: 69

I just want to know who you are now; where you’ve been and where you want to be in the future. Actively participate in something good in your life without the pressure of society swaying you into believing that it’s not good enough. Something small is still a success. I’d rather you to be humble by nature and not have had something drastic humble you. Although, if the latter has occurred, it’s alright; that is one of the bittersweet exchanges of life. Acknowledge the bitter then find help and strength to propel yourself out of it. Gain momentum with the sweet happenings and effectively put forth the effort to continue on its path. It is easier to plummet from the mountain you have been trying to climb as opposed to summiting its peak on any day, yet still --team up, gear up, go up.

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Confession: 68

Promise me the reassurance of you being interested. Similar to peanuts butter and jelly, I really do want you to enjoy my company and companionship. I hope that you feel instinctively close to me; wanting to be closer all the while learning boundaries and demolishing walls that you no longer need. Garnish me with compliments and breathe new life into my everyday-- every day. I will do the same, promise.

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Confession: 67

Progress doesn't happen in a straight line. So, be well and do good along the way.

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Confession: 66

I wish I could just cuddle up with my insecurities and let them cry themselves away in my arms. Holding theses jagged shells of myself for too long is not my intention; thus I will have set them down and actually deal. Truthfully, I’ll let them go so that I can hold you. Of course, I want to be able to mention some of these  personal obstacles to you in an effort to seek advice and create healing bonds, but I in no way want you to feel as if you have ‘fix’ me. I can assure you that I am in many ways hurt, but not broken. I just want us to feel comfortable with one another and realistically, that may mean feeling extremely uncomfortable at times. I am here for you, always. Let’s journey and explore; slowly returning these mystifying artifacts back to the cool blue crush of the seaside.

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Confession: 54

I went into work and led the team like the greatest boss! I believe that I set a new standard of cleanliness, organization, and work productivity all at the same time. Honestly, I was pushing through panic attacks and not feeling as if I knew exactly how things are supposed to be or look because I had no clear example just the hope of words. I created the example. I’ve never done that before and am so very proud to have started something attainable.