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4 days after he broke up with me and staying in this empty room is torture. I wish to forget him all together, to forget all the joy, and if i have to remember something let it be the constant criticism and pain he put me through. Resenting him will make this easier, but the truth is one week ago I was still so much in love.

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I hate this blog, it's an declaration of misery and ineptitude. I wish to be born anew. I wish to enter into a frenzy of change. I wish to not go back for Christmas in my hometown. I wish to pour all my energy in the thesis. I wish to move away after that and be a new person. I wish to find myself anew by changing everything.

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I've cried all the tears I had for this relationship

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Half of an year has passed and yet I'm taking my life in my hands back where i left it

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The last months being back in my hometown have left me the shell of my former self

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The last months being back in my hometown have left me the shell of my former self

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Oof great week but how to handle the desperation that comes now. I feel so unhappy. Unbearably unhappy.

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One comment from him and I'm shattered

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Seeing him in 4 days fills me with anxiety rather than exactement what's wrong with me

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Lol wow now he doesn't even answer texts? A new abyss of mediocrity has been reached

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Lol today another day passed, same bullshit. I really don't know, i don't want to push again but this is so wildly disappointing, i just feel like I'd like to stop the debacle from happening idk

My bf keeps postponing the time we see each other and i know he's busy and it's fine but i can't help feeling frustrated

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Feeling very frustrated right now, like??? What should i do? Let him be? Just let the window in which we could have planned something pass and do nothing of it? Uff. Exhausting.

My bf keeps postponing the time we see each other and i know he's busy and it's fine but i can't help feeling frustrated

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My bf keeps postponing the time we see each other and i know he's busy and it's fine but i can't help feeling frustrated

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I have these waves of anxiety. Are they linked to the family business situation? The thesis one? The bf one? I don't know but I'm really having a hard time

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The answer to your problems is self-discipline

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Clueless. What am I supposed to do with my life. Everything is shattered. No fucking direction. No people I can trust. I'm utterly alone in my dismay. I'm behind with my degree, have no career prospects, none who really care about me. I'm a mild annoyance to everyone, like a very annoying mosquito. I have little to no hope left.