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Checkpoint

Are you having fun? Do you want to keep scrolling or are you just on autopilot?

Have you eaten today?

Have you consumed water today?

Do you need to go to the bathroom?

Have you slept recently?

Do you have any chores in process that you've forgotten about or are putting off? (Laundry that needs taken out of the machine, a dishwasher full of dishes that need put away, etc.)

Have you taken all your meds?

If the answer is "All good," feel free to keep scrolling!

But if any of these reminded you of something you need to do, please take care of yourself. 💕

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anybody can want you…it hits different when someone actually values you.

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as much as i understand people, i want to be understood, too

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💞you haven't lost who you are, you're just different now💞

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Finally learning this…💜

You can change your mind. You can say no to things you said yes to before, you can back out of commitments and relationships you feel uncomfortable or unsafe in, you can give up on something you thought you’d spend your life doing. It’s so realistic and okay to change your mind over and over and over until you’re happy with yourself and/or where you’re headed!

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by marloholden

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you deserve the best, i’m the best.

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An open letter to the parent that chose drugs. …and everything else… over me -

I don’t hate you, I couldn’t if I wanted to. I just hate all the hurt you have consistently put me through.. My earliest memories are filled with drug runs, being locked in a room so you could feed your addiction. Strange people, all behaving in ways my 3 year old mind couldn’t comprehend. Being woken up by the bang of a police man on our front door and you being hoisted away. Painful jail visits through a glass because I couldn’t understand why you weren’t outside with me instead. I thought we would be able to have a decently formed bond by time I was an adult; but I was wrong. Twenty four years of being burned down, belittled, insulted, threatened, and mistreated all to fill your cup and have to be blamed for your choices. Your manipulation and toxic mind games no longer take a toll on me. I am not your punching bag, nor your escape goat to all of your choices in life. According to you, I am a never ending list of insults and awful things you’ve painted me to be.. That is only because I refuse to give you your way. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be a daughter you could love, be proud of, but that time has come to pass. I no longer care for your opinion. I’ll always love you, but from a distance seems safest. I’m not going to argue anymore.

Sincerely,

Your daughter who tried.

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Heal yourself first.

The rest will come later 🌿

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