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We see things they’ll never see.

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DO YOU EVER THINK OF ME?

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that empty feeling when i go home and realize there's no one waiting to hear about my day, no one asking how i've been, what happened throughout my day or how tired i am.

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“A counsellor will call you back at around 5” my fucking arse

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bonjour

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at least i finally have an answer for “what are your goals or ambitions?”

“To actually be happy with my life.”

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Lea Seydoux as Fragile Death Stranding 2: On The Beach (2025) dev. Kojima Productions

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📸 iPhone 15 Pro Max

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onwards, comrades

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forever cursed to be the bridesmaid

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it’s true that you adapt to grief. after a while you barely notice it.

every now and again your grief button gets pressed and you’re reminded of just how gut wrenchingly painful it is. i’m in agony right down to my core. the feeling of being impaled by a desire to talk to someone that’s no longer here. the sensation of your entire body being split apart by feeling of desperation of wanting to hear your voice again.

you were only able to see my potential. you were robbed of being able to see the man i’ve become. the light you brought to so many lives extinguished so suddenly and unexpectedly. i think that’s what hurts me the most. that i never got to say goodbye to you

it’s been almost 7 years now, and despite me getting used to living with grief, i still cherish my memories of you more than anything i can think of. it bubbles under the surface but i love you just as much now as i always have, to the fullest extent a son can love his mother.

it’s that love that’s causing me this pain, and that’s how i cope with it. it’s absolutely a price worth paying.

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“Sometimes somebody dies, and you suddenly realize they were the only person on earth you wanted to talk to about it” is such a devastating line and I cannot believe it’s from an internet improv comedy sketch about local theater troupes.

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