livelifeunfiltered
livelifeunfiltered
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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1.31.2018
was told to pass some requirements on or before feb 16 :)
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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1.24.2018
Just had another heartbreak. So, there’s this guy na matagal ko ng crush, 2013 pa. Nung review sa CPALE. It was like it happened very unexpectedly. He looks alright but I’m not that attracted agad. Tapos he sang something, and I was singing a worship song before that. He got my attention then.And kahit na may nakita akong flaw sa kanya, my heart was happy. And after that I knew na it was something already deep. We had moments, well for me they were already moments. But the thing is ako lang ang nakakaalam ng mga ‘yun. But even ganun, I was happy. Results of the board came and I didn’t make it. Well siya naman nagstart na sa isang firm sa Makati then when I passed the next year, I chose private sector to work. So, our paths never crossed. I just stalk him in his socmed accounts, and dun sa blog niya sa wordpress. And even we didn’t get to talk, it’s as if I already know him based on those. Kaso, dumaan din ako sa heartbreak. Obviously, he didn’t know about that. It’s when he’s like being teased to this girl - very beautiful girl and I thought that time na magiging sila na so I decided to stop na lang since it’s masakit. That’s 2014. But years passed, fast forward to 2018, ganun pa rin. I still like him. Very much. In a way na I prayed to God na if hindi talaga siya yung the one then alisin na lang yung feelings ko, kaso hindi nawawala. So, I prayed instead na God will not let us meet until I’m ready in all aspects of my life. Then today happened. Today, I’m far from that - being ready. Nagsisimula pa lang ulit ako spiritually. Emotionally, getting mature but not enough. Financially, totally wala. Career wise, papunta pa lang. And physically? I don’t think we’re bagay pa. Then I saw an old pic, saw this before kaso then I didn’t notice na nagcomment din pala yung mommy niya dun. And his mom told him na they look good together. Masakit. Sobra kagabi naiyak na naman ako. Feeling ko wala na naman. Hindi naman bumalik yung insecurity pero yung thought lang na nanay niya na yun? And I don’t know what he’s feeling. he could be turning 25 na on March and maybe he’s thinking of getting into a relationship already. At yun, that stops my heart. Maybe, he’s not really the right one. Maybe, kinulong ko yung sarili ko sa wrong feeling for 5 years (almost). Siguro, kailangan ko na nga talagang tumigil. Pero paano, Lord? Help me. I don’t even know if our paths will cross again. But help me Lord God to heal this pain in my heart. And to let this pain lead me in focusing on You more. Show me Your hand Lord, lead me to Your path. I need Your comfort. I need You. Sobra. Help me Lord na magtake ng step, but first show me what step I need to make. :) I love You lord. I still believe there’s someone out there, someone You prepared for me. I’m his missing bone that made for him to be his suitable partner. He’ll come Lord. In the perfect time You set. :) In Jesus’ name. :)
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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12.27.17
Yey! Another progress. Notarized PDS and after this yung authenticated PRC na and appointment after. Just two months and I’ll be in COA na. Thank You, Lord. But first let me really go back into journaling kasi nawala siya. Pero yun thank youuuu Lord. Everything I really owe to You. :) Salamat talaga for making me mature of things. :)
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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I'd be lost without You; But now I'm found singing Your praise.
Scandal of Grace (I’d Be Lost), Hillsong United
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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They worshiped God and trusted He was with them, even when their situation seemed hopeless.
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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12.06.2017
Here it comes! Super blessed and I am filled with joy! Overflowing joy! This must how it feels. Galing galing lang ni Lord! Ang amazing Niya kumilos. I was praying for a smooth interview and He did give it. And plus yung mga na-visualize kong magaganap, nandoon eh! Yung promotion every year. And a lot lot more. God is really gracious and it is always worth it trusting Him. :) I’ll have longer entry mamaya. I’ll try hahahaha
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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12.05.17
Finally the perfect time of Yours has come. Thank You Lord! May final interview na po ako. Tomorrow sa Cluster 4. You are really working. Thank You! Thank You! 
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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12.01.17
Finally know about my papers’ status. Sarap po talagang alam mo yung status. :) Thank you, Lord. I believe in Your name that this is the start. :)
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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11.28.17
Ang sakit na naman. What to do?
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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11.16.2017
Early this year there’s a company that contacted me and offered me a position. It’s actually in line with the position  I am currently in. At yun, they contacted me again nung naka-apply na ako sa government. At that moment, I made a choice to pursue with COA since its something na yun gusto ko. And compensation wise, i could help my family and yung church. So, I declined with the said company. But then it’s as if they are reserving a position for me. Now, COA has not called yet and I’m wondering what will be my next will be. In my prayer list, I write down that until November I will wait tapos yun if not then balak ko mag-apply again next year sa Gov. Then my heart is torn na. With this job. Yung sa private. Kasi I know that mapoprotect dun yung spiritual life ko. Avenue din to meet people outside. I don’t know about the compensation yet but it’s something na I know I can be bold sa faith. Either way, if I go with the government, alam ko rin naman na I will bold sa faith. But now, yun,I don’t know where to go. Right now I will really pray na God will really give me the wisdom what to do.
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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11.10.2017
Take me out of here.
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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11.06.2017
Still waiting. :) Lord, I am still waiting. 
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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11.06.2017
Actually I failed. This past week lang, nung vacation. Ako’y yun, nagpadala sa aking weakness and I failed God. It’s still crazy and nakakaloka talaga how once’s heart works. Like it’s so filthy and twisted and complicated. But I’m blessed pa rin sa way ng Lord. Ayun I’m starting all over again. Lagi na lang. But not complaining. Dami ko pa talagang kailangang ipaayos, ipatabas sa aking life. But I believe in this journey, I’ll e better in God’s grace. Yun lang naman ang ultimate goal ko. To be better. :) And to soon make my dreams come true. This moment, I learned to be persistent. Na if I know it’s not for me yung mga hinihiling ko. If it is mainly for God and for the betterment of those around me, I’ll push it. ☺
new beginning
10.27.17
October is almost ending but in the Lord, it’s always a new day, a new chance to begin, a greater height to reach. Sobrang blessed pa rin ako sa confe. Next year talaga I will really push yung patron and as early as now will really encourage the girls to earn for that. I am blessed in a way of knowing all those truths, where should I put my value and knowing God is in every step of the way. That even I am in the midst of crisis, even I am hurting, I can still trust Him. Even in the moments na as if He’s not moving I know that He is. Sobra kong inspired na kahit anong maranasan ko at this point, I will really depend on the Lord. I will cross deep seas, even yung init ng apoy, but I believe that God is with me. He wiill make me pass through. I just have to live by His Spirit. :) Praying I’ll keep this momentum for long. And that I can really touch lives with this annointed hand. That lahat ng ginagawa nito ay maging kaaya-aya sa harap ng Panginoon. ☺
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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new beginning
10.27.17
October is almost ending but in the Lord, it’s always a new day, a new chance to begin, a greater height to reach. Sobrang blessed pa rin ako sa confe. Next year talaga I will really push yung patron and as early as now will really encourage the girls to earn for that. I am blessed in a way of knowing all those truths, where should I put my value and knowing God is in every step of the way. That even I am in the midst of crisis, even I am hurting, I can still trust Him. Even in the moments na as if He’s not moving I know that He is. Sobra kong inspired na kahit anong maranasan ko at this point, I will really depend on the Lord. I will cross deep seas, even yung init ng apoy, but I believe that God is with me. He wiill make me pass through. I just have to live by His Spirit. :) Praying I’ll keep this momentum for long. And that I can really touch lives with this annointed hand. That lahat ng ginagawa nito ay maging kaaya-aya sa harap ng Panginoon. ☺
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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10.19.17
A classmate before informed me about the status of her application on the same agency we applied for. And I thank the Lord kasi sobrang tame na ng feelings ko. Like I was not hurt at all. Unlike before na super kong dinadamdam. Na parang end of the world na. Hahahaha. Right now I just choose to see the good in the situation. That even it takes time to happen yung inaasam ko (chos) still I know that God’s hand is holding me. That He’s leading me. Laking tulong na nitong nakaraang araw, I’m consistent with devo and journal. It’s like God readied me for this na. But somehow, I have an action plan kung wala pa rin. I am still waiting yes, but I will take an action too. Una, since there are friends who took the interview earlier than me, I somehow gained tips of the questions to be asked so i can ready myself. i’ll do that. Plus extra time to really make bawi in the current work, to be better and to minister to colleagues. Tapos yun just more lessons and characteristics that the Lord is molding in me, Dami ko rin naman kasing natutunan dito.
I still get sad but I am more patient now and trusting and at peace. :)
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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And my soul waits only for You, And I will song till the miracle comes.
Even When It Hurts, Hillsong United
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livelifeunfiltered · 8 years ago
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peace
10.06.2017
I don’t know how to explain yung nararamdaman ko ngayon, but I just feel that there is an endless peace inside me. Like I am not even worrying honestly, I feel really okay, and yes, I will admit that I still am waiting for COA to contact me. Still ecstatic about the idea of them calling me. But unlike sa tone ko before, even the emotions, it is more, well, way more better now. I am calm and content and at peace. And I am just happy. I feel blessed. I feel that God is moving and He’s doing something. It’s like I’m not nagmamadali. And this kind of reminded me when I took the board, yung mga subjects ko na conditional, ayun nung naghintay din ako ng result ng graduation, ganito din yung feeling ko nun. Grabe lang. Yung andun yung acceptance and I know I am completely healed about this. And amazing lang Lord na nagagawa talaga ng word Mo na magtouch ng heart. i FEEL BLESSED WITH THIS LIFE. NO MATTER WHAT. I AM BLESSED. YOU WILL BLESS ME. AND NO ONE WILL TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME. I am also happy for the people around me. No envy at all. Because I believe you’re dealing with us separately. I will smile, love, be good, build Your kingdom. I will wait for Your rain of blessings with a happy, grateful heart. I am just thankful, Lord. This must be the peace from the Holy Spirit. Sarap sa feeling. Sarap sa pakiramdam. I feel like I feel light. Thank You, Jesus. Literally, You are just enough. :) I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH. :) THANK YOUUUUUUUUU. THANK YOUUUUUUUUUU. For every revelations, for everything that’s been happening in my life. No regrets. Just mere trusting You. 
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