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Trust in him. Thing will be okay

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8:59 a.m.

“I want to mess around & probably date another female” he says.

My pumping organ that helps me

breathe burst, forgot how to breathe, almost dying trying to exhale what I’m now feeling & waterfalls coming along with it.

“Truly don’t want to hurt you, your a good girl and deserve to be treated right”

he also says.

They all said.

I remember those words vividly like it was yesterday. It’s always been a yesterday

I’m always the: good girl, great friend, homie, blessing they always claim I’am. They believe in their hearts that I deserve better but why did I believe he was better? He’s no bad guy, he’s great but he’s just a... guy.

Love has its prices and was I wrong for loving? Feeling? Opening? trusting?

I wasn’t wrong. I was doing what I felt was right I was giving love another chance.

Would I become bitter? Can’t even lie I’m mad as hell... hearing that same stupid line all over again.

“Good & deserve better”

this isn’t no good & if you call this the route to better you can keep it because right now. I don’t want of any of it. I’m back to laying low.

Love can find me in a couple years or probably not at all...

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Conscience & Me

All I can really do is write.

And I, myself don’t even know what I’m writing about my emotions are taking the place and just going on a dramatic race.

Is there something wrong with me?

“No” myself says

Just like any other guy he’s just exploring.

Your beautiful, strong & great !

So why does this hurt?

“Because honey, you’ve let yourself love again and love hurts”

Well is this really love?

“You we’re willing to let him hurt you knowing the day will come. Risking your heart to feel what it hasn’t felt in a long time so what does that tell you?”

Probably It was just one of those moments again of wanting a guy around cause I was desperate...

“You were never desperate, he wasn’t toxic, he wasn’t unhealthy for you & your soul, you knew & felt in your own mind & soul who he really was. He was actually good”

Yeah... he was actually good,

he’s just a guy

and guys will forever be guys. No matter what good lives in their hearts

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Know This

Word from Lo’C @locaac

“Know your worth, seek your truth

Talk to God & let him guide you.

Believe in yourself, find love from God.

My child you are beautiful.

Know this.”

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black is beautiful, so why not embrace it. people would call us dirty, fill up our insecurities but it takes a strong black young lady; to fight. To prove them wrong & herself right. To tell herself she’s enough. To scream to the top of her lungs & say “THIS IS ENOUGH I LOVE MYSELF! GOD CRAFTED ME IN GOLD & I WONT EVER BE TOLD AGAIN IM NOT ENOUGH, BECAUSE IM ENOUGH” 🌻 @blackgrlsaremagic

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“Suicide” poem from @locaac 🍷 I’m now 18 living in 2017 remembering the past back in 2013.

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this will open to see that love is a whole other thing..