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Howdy, I'm kinda merging blogs since I decided I have way too many and can't skip between them all the time to keep up. I've also not felt particularly drawn to a single fandom for a good while, so I'll stick to one of mine that I didn't post as much on before. If you'd like to stay connected and still see me overshare on the dash and/or msg me, send me a dm and I'll let u know my new-ish blog :3

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Howdy, I'm kinda merging blogs since I decided I have way too many and can't skip between them all the time to keep up. I've also not felt particularly drawn to a single fandom for a good while, so I'll stick to one of mine that I didn't post as much on before. If you'd like to stay connected and still see me overshare on the dash and/or msg me, send me a dm and I'll let u know my new-ish blog :3

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Bestie wake up it's der Maus ihr Geburtstag!!!

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super quick sleeping beef. he's tired (me too)

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9-1-1, shot on film 📸 thisbemesara

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I am both proud of my fellow zukka shippers for making the fandom as big as it is, but at the same time a bit sad that I can't call this my true rare pair anymore. Like I remember being such a weirdo for even mentioning it all the way back in 2016 before the resurgence. Zukka had only 9 pages on ao3 and I've probably read all the fics that existed in a span of 2 months.

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I still can't decide what I think of the writing of 911 especially season 8 (which I watched completely so far), a lot seems a bit clunky and too obvious but I guess this is prime time tv for you. But can I just say I didn't spend like 3 years in the johnlock basement of meta analysis to just let the priest scene slide? Like the beard-juice-celibacy stand in of a metaphor chaos? I am not versed on the lore of the show yet, I am still catching up with so many episodes and seasons, but this? Having a character say they are straight, then having a conversation about self flaggelation, fruit juice, and beards? Also all while the celibate priest is flirting with him? Yeah this might just be too on the nose for me. If that man isn't on the brink of coming to terms with his sexuality I don't know anymore

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Subconsciously picking mostly friends who respond to conflict by distancing themselves (because that's how I respond and feel comfortable with I guess) was gonna bite me in the butt eventually. It's fucking lonely and I feel like I don't really know anyone in my life at all which is so frustrating. I hate this evasiveness. I would prefer people to openly challenge me and confront me but everyone just keeps moving away for no apparent reason and I am doing the same thing. Hste it so much

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I expected to see that the buddie shipping is yet another exaggeration born from pretty baity tumblr gifs, yet I am met with the opposite. I know what happens in S7/8 with Buck, so maybe that's why its easier to see his attraction/hinted at attraction to men, and the obvious love he has for his best friend, but now I think that Eddie is much queerer in how he's written, and by peeking into the wiki for further info, I would even go as far and say that he is possibly a closeted gay man. Though I really don't know how it plays out in the series, maybe I am wrong about that. But knowing he grew up extremely catholic and still doesn't know what to believe, having like dated 4 people at most in his life (and having panic attacks about the relationship getting more serious), as well as getting told by so many people that his son needs a mother in his life... dunno there's so much potential for inner conflict and uproar. I don't know if that's a generally agreed upon theory but I am completely headcanoning him as exclusively gay, but very repressed. Second headcanon would be on the ace spectrum somewhere. I thought he would be portrayed as a superficial womanizer but now I really don't see that anymore

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I might have accidentally watched the first two seasons of 911 in one sitting whoopsie. I don't even know why to be honest, not my type of show usually

It is addicting. Very cheesy and painfully american sometimes (and not sure if I like all of the romance pairings some are so boring) but getting to know the characters feels like a warm hug. Also Hen??? Best character ever played, that actress is genius. My fave character so far. Also yes I see what everyone is seeing. What's straighter than co-parenting your bff's kid and staring at his naked torso? hahaha

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in light of skype finally shutting down [#estonian loss] dont understand why broader emojis never incorporated the skype emo emoji. it is one of the most crucial emojis in the world and the only way to access it is being shut the fuck down.this world is so cruel to its endangered species.

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The Wrong Turn

Guess who's back here? I had a bumpy ride but I made it eventually.

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i might be getting into the gay firefighter show.. i watched some eps and honestly its really gripping

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I misread the deadline of an application and now I cant hand it in anymore :/ kinda bummed that I let this opportunity slip by :/ I know that this is not gonna change anything for me. But it would have been nice to be part of that

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Helskinki, Finland