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I'm not really a believer in goodbyes...

...but I think I need to offer an apology instead. I'm so sorry I couldn't follow you all to Skyline Terrace. Things have been really stressful lately what with work and everything that's been going on in my personal life, the new place just didn't seem like something I could afford or keep up with. I don't believe in goodbyes, but I'm going to say one. Just for now.

Sam - You were one of my first friends at Garden Gates. I remember when I met Bitey for the first time and you helped me take care of him very easily. You just seem to have everything so figured out and you never fail to make me laugh whenever you open your mouth. Thank you for being a friend to me, Sam Evans. I'll be seeing your trailers on the big screen someday, for sure.

Mia - You've always been amazing friend to me, Mia. You've helped me get through things when times weren't exactly the best and there's never been a moment where I didn't enjoy talking to you. Keep staying gorgeous, I know I'll be seeing more of you in the future. Your Little Wolverine.

Sebastian - We...haven't gotten to know each other as well as we could have. We may have a different history, but I hope everything does work out in the end for you and that you find happiness somewhere, too. Because nobody does like a mope fest, do they? :)

Rachel - Words can't even come to thank you enough for all you've done for me. You were there to save us when our scary landlord trapped us in the basement and you stood by me when I was going through one of the roughest times...you're an amazing friend to me and I'll never stop admiring you for all you do. You are the brightest of stars, Rachel Berry. I can't wait to see your opening night.

To my Bee, you are one of the most optimistic, happiest people I've ever had the opportunity to meet. You never fail to cheer me up when I'm down, and I can't help but just smile whenever I see your bright, smiling face. You've always been there for me, Brittany. You're the best friend a guy could ever hope to ask for. I love you. - Logi Bear

Blaine - I'm writing this one last because...well, I don't think I can get through it without becoming a sobbing mess. You're my first boyfriend, my first love, my everything...and I don't think anything will ever change that. We've done so much together, and...become so much together. You've made me the happiest I've ever been in my entire life, helped me overcome my past and been there for me in every way and whether you believe it or not, you deserve everything and more. You deserve to find someone who can give you that, because you're...you're so amazing. Which is why it's so hard to say that I'm leaving. But I promised I would never say goodbye to you, so consider this a parting message for now. Maybe someday I'll be able to see you again and we can laugh like we used to and remember the time when everything just seemed right. I'm not ever saying goodbye to you, though, not forever. I made a promise, and those are meant for keeping, right? I love you so, so much. Please...take care for me, baby. I'll definitely be buying your EP in the winter time. I'm so proud of you.

So I guess that's it. Thank you guys so much for letting me get to know you all like I have. You've made my time here the best time of my life, and you...you all taught me what it means to really have a family. I'm moving into a smaller apartment in downtown LA near work. It's nothing extraordinary or anything, but it'll help with the rent. Someday in the future I hope I can come to live with you all again, when things are better. If you ever need me, ever at all, I'm only a dial or a text away. I'll be seeing you all soon.

- Logan S. McCoy

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...If you're sure. Thank you, Blaine. It really means a lot to me.

[Private] Blogan

Thanks…I mean it.

No, no, I’m talking about you. Sam’s still here in mine. I don’t want you to be alone.

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...Oh. Okay. It still applies, I mean...

Well, you know...I never really go anywhere except for work so if you ever need someone, I'm here.

[Private] Blogan

I…maybe?

I want to. It sucks being alone in an apartment.

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You remember what I told you when you landed that contract, right?

I'd...really love that, but...you don't have to.

[Private] Blogan

I don’t want to just assume that everyone thinks I’m an okay singer.

Do you…I mean, do you want me to come over sometimes? Just so you don’t ever get lonely.

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Why do you say it like that?

Um...yeah, I should be fine. It was kind of a surprise because he up and left with a lot of his stuff behind...I'll be alright, I think.

[Private] Blogan

Haha, yeah, maybe. 

Hey, Logan…are you alright on your own? I mean, now that Aiden’s gone?

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“To Build a Home” by Cinematic Orchestra

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Good. That's...oh. People must miss hearing you sing, I'll bet.

[Private] Blogan

Yes it is. Work’s fine, I’m just waitering along but I’m not allowed to sing there anymore. My manager said I couldn’t.

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It's not very important. How, um...how's work?

[Private] Blogan

What did you think I meant?

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Oh...I thought you meant...oh. I...really don't want to stop talking to you, either.

[Private] Blogan

We’re…not really, completely together anymore?

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Just...just because we're what?

[Private] Blogan

It means I don’t want us to stop talking just because we’re…yeah. I will.

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I'm...not really sure what that means. I thought we were pretty well-acquainted, or at least...used to be. Let me know how your next recording goes, alright?

[Private] Blogan

Okay. Don’t..don’t be a stranger, yeah?

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I don't know, I...probably not. Right now I have to go beg my boss to be kind enough to let me work the late night shifts on the weekend. I don't see affording drugs being in my future for a long time, so...you can stop worrying.

[Private] Blogan

Why would you say that? I don’t think you are.

That’s what they all say. That means you’re not going to do it again, right? You’re going to be smart about this kind of stuff?

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That's all I am anymore. Ignorant.

It was just a onetime thing, it's not like I'm an addict, I know when to stop, all that. Sometimes I...sometimes I just need an escape. It was wrong...but I don't regret it. Even if he didn't, what I do with my life isn't his concern.

[Private] Blogan

That doesn’t mean you’re completely ignorant to it. I know you’re not.

What…what new arrangements? Do you mean with Aiden leaving? Because I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t want you doing this either.

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Nobody was around to give me one, Blaine.

Look, this isn't a me pity party. I've had enough of those as it is...I just need to get everything sorted with the new arrangements and I'll be fine. That's really all there is.

[Private] Blogan

Drugs, Logan, drugs. Did you miss that talk? They aren’t good! 

I…oh, God.

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...I just hope that she's alright and nothing serious happened to her while we were all busy being wrapped up in our own problems. If you ever hear from her...can you make sure she's okay?

What's happening to everyone?

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It's really not, but you're making it out to be. ...Do I have to answer that?

[Private] Blogan

It shouldn’t be a problem in the first place! Why are you doing this? 

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....Well, whatever it is, it's my problem to deal with.

[Private] Blogan

No, it isn’t. It isn’t fine at all.