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i hate him i hate how he makes me feel he’s so mean n i didn’t even do anything and im in trouble n i wanna go home n i wanted to go to the fair to see my bff in her competition n im stuck here feeling lonely because they are all mad at something that is stupid n im so mad

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disneyland is stupid n i wanna leave

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i will never forgive them for taking everything away from me. FUCK.

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OW?

Bites @loloslounge /loving

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I AM INNOCENT

the more that arlo introduces us to random stuff the more alters we form😭 i blame this guy for us splitting so often!! /j /lh /loving /silly!!

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the more that arlo introduces us to random stuff the more alters we form😭 i blame this guy for us splitting so often!! /j /lh /loving /silly!!

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me when all i want is to hold someone for a bit:/

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you know it’s serious when you have to pull out the online 90 minute therapist

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gonna write a song called fuck it all

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giving myself a homemade top surgery ill let u know how it goes

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My hair won’t go the way I want it to. 

It’s too long. 

It doesn’t cover what it needs to cover 

It’s too thick. 

It doesn’t move to where it needs to

It doesn’t hide what needs to be hidden 

I’m too feminine with my hair 

I want it all off

All including my boobs

I need them gone 

I need a flat chest so I can breathe in a body that’s mine. 

I need to lose the weight 

So I can be the pretty boy everyone wants. 

I want to be out. I want to be a boy. 

But until then I stay, with my hair not going the right way. 

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i want to be happy. i want to be the fun to be around arlo! but i also know thats all i am. i dont feel seen as a person. i dont feel like myself. i want to look masc, i want to come out. i want to come out so fucking bad. but last time i did my family said they didnt see me as trans and my brother would miss his sister and shit but fuck its weighing on me. i want to cut my hair, i want to start t i want to feel like a boy and i fucking dont and i cant and i feel trapped.

i wanr to be attractive i want people to WANT to hang out with me. i dont want to be seen like a child i want to be happy again i want to feel again and theres so much shit happening that makes me feel so numb and one of thr main things is the fact that i hahw ro keep pretending im a girl and have to kist fucking deal with it.

and if i come out itll be the same thing, or they will think im trying to copy someone but FUCK. fuck. ive felt like this for years. in 6th grade i came out as genderfluid, ans then trans, snd then hid bakc in the closet bexause my family missed their daughter and i just wish i could be who i awanna be and i should sleep

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why do things change

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i wish we met earlier in our lives

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i am so frustrated, and i know i shouldn’t be, but it’s just annoying that he can do whatever he wants, and if i do that thing i get yelled at or in trouble for it. idk. it’s frustrating but it’s okay, i ranted in my notes app about it so im okay now but it’s just so:/ i get ur trying to look out for me, but maybe back off a bit..?

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charlie spring SCREAMS my comfort man. i love him.

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i love gay people

(gay people being @amoureuxsys)