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                                I'm  not  used  to                                  being  loved.  I                                  wouldn't  know                                   what  to  do.

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"The truth is that no daughter can save her mother."

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‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ i'm not a good person.‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏ ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ i'm barely a person at all.

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kanade + guilt. ( spoilers for the newest event under cut. )

kanade is always harboring some sort of guilt inside, whether she truly should or not. she often allows it to consume her, leading her to throw herself into composing, overworking herself to the point of collapsing in hopes of saving as many people as she can with her music. she is truly a remorseful soul, willing to sacrifice her own time and energy if it means that her music reaches others.

while most sources seem to indicate that her guilt started when her father fell into a coma, i feel like it started before that, when her mother fell ill. in the immiscible discord event, we see a flashback to kanade and her mother talking. it's noted that her mother puts her daughter's interests first, even when kanade wants to make her mom happy. i can definitely see that being a source of guilt whether or not she wants to admit it, especially as it's assumed that not long after that, her mother passed away due to her illness.

( not to get personal, but i too lost my mother due to an illness. i also felt an immense amount of guilt as a result of her passing, like i didn't do enough to "save her" even though i knew deep down that it was inevitable. i'm only bringing this up because it ties into why i feel like kanade's guilt started sooner than assumed. )

when her father overworked himself to the point of hospitalization, the stress jumbling his memories and giving him amnesia when he's not in a coma, the guilt only intensified in volume, nearly consuming the young girl. she threw herself into her music, determined to save as many people as possible, in order to "repent" for her inability to save her own family. but what she doesn't realize is that in order to save others, she has to save herself. and if it wasn't for her grandmother's insistence, as well as the existence of honami, kanade wouldn't be able to keep herself alive long enough to save anyone. she would have suffered the same fate as her own father.

kanade struggled with composing a song that would save mafuyu, and even when the latter runs away and starts living with her at the end of the most recent event, saying goodbye to my masked self, she still worries that she can't completely save her.

but the least she can do is give her a place to stay, right? after all, she can't exactly return home now. what else is she supposed to do in that situation?

edit: forgot to add this detail — during the new event, you can tell that kanade feels guilt towards the fact that she spoke to mafuyu's mother, that part of the reason mafumom is acting this way is because of her actions. she seems to tense up or even seem more saddened than usual in response to mafuyu's situation and definitely blames herself for all of it.

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Lack of Sleep Starters!

pronouns and context can be changed as you see fit.

When was the last time you actually got some rest?

Alright, that's it. You're going to bed, and I'm not taking no for an answer.

Look at you! You're spilling coffee.

You have bags, and I'm not talking about the Gucci kind.

Jesus, have you been awake the entire night?

It's 4am. You need sleep.

You're safe here. You can rest now.

I promise, I'm fine. I just look tired a lot, thanks to... the tiredness.

Look, I'm okay! I've pulled all nighters before.

This isn't the first time I've gone without sleep.

I'll carry you to bed if I have to.

Do I need to baby you?

Huh? What? I'm awake, I swear!

You just ran into the wall. It's time to lie down.

Go. To. Bed. That's an order.

I made a nest for you. You can sleep in that, if you want.

Can I get an extra pillow / blanket?

Want me to tuck you in, too?

I'll check in on you in an hour. You'd better not have moved.

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            Give me a few days of peace in your arms—             I need it terribly. I'm ragged, worn, exhausted.             After that I can face the world.

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Did I close my fist around something d e l i c a t e ?

Did I... shatter you?

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"You can't protect everyone."

I have to try.

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PRE ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue to help set up already existing relationships between your muses and give them past scenarios to reference, adjust as necessary

CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS

we were only kids back then. we didn't know any better.

you promised me we'd be friends forever.

you've changed quite a bit since i saw you last.

how are your parents doing? will you tell them i said hi?

i've known you for years, and you haven't changed a bit.

you've always been like this.

remember the last time this happened?

sure, i made a lot of mistakes, but so did you.

do you remember how we met?

you always stood up for me, no matter what.

i've always had a lot of love in my heart for you.

when i was struggling, you were always there for me.

I TOLD YOU TO STAY AWAY

i thought i told you to stay away.

you've got a lot of nerve, showing your face around here again.

i really don't want to see you again.

you're supposed to call and warn me before you show up here.

there's never going to be a "next time."

this is the last time you show up like this.

last time i said i never wanted to see you again, and yet here you are.

you can't just show up here unannounced.

you remember what happened the last time you showed up.

every time you show up here, shit hits the fan.

you're putting us all in danger by showing up here.

don't you have somewhere else to be?

ROMANTIC FEELINGS

i'm sorry, but i can't stop thinking about you.

after the time we spent together, you've been on my mind.

can we discuss what happened between us?

the last time i saw you, you were going to say something... and then you stopped.

did you mean it? any of it?

i wish we were still together.

would you go on another date with me?

it's hard to deny how you make me feel.

you've always had an effect on me.

i can't stop thinking about the way you look at me.

GENERIC "I'VE KNOWN YOU FOR A WHILE"

do you remember what you told me?

i can't believe this is happening to us again.

the last time this happened, we were better prepared.

i tried calling you a hundred times, but you never answered.

this was never supposed to end like this.

didn't you see my text?

i know you better than anyone else.

you can't lie to me. i can tell when you're lying.

you're making "the face" again.

you promised me you'd stop doing that.

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how much sad did you think I had in me?

how much tragedy?

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kanade + guilt. ( spoilers for the newest event under cut. )

kanade is always harboring some sort of guilt inside, whether she truly should or not. she often allows it to consume her, leading her to throw herself into composing, overworking herself to the point of collapsing in hopes of saving as many people as she can with her music. she is truly a remorseful soul, willing to sacrifice her own time and energy if it means that her music reaches others.

while most sources seem to indicate that her guilt started when her father fell into a coma, i feel like it started before that, when her mother fell ill. in the immiscible discord event, we see a flashback to kanade and her mother talking. it's noted that her mother puts her daughter's interests first, even when kanade wants to make her mom happy. i can definitely see that being a source of guilt whether or not she wants to admit it, especially as it's assumed that not long after that, her mother passed away due to her illness.

( not to get personal, but i too lost my mother due to an illness. i also felt an immense amount of guilt as a result of her passing, like i didn't do enough to "save her" even though i knew deep down that it was inevitable. i'm only bringing this up because it ties into why i feel like kanade's guilt started sooner than assumed. )

when her father overworked himself to the point of hospitalization, the stress jumbling his memories and giving him amnesia when he's not in a coma, the guilt only intensified in volume, nearly consuming the young girl. she threw herself into her music, determined to save as many people as possible, in order to "repent" for her inability to save her own family. but what she doesn't realize is that in order to save others, she has to save herself. and if it wasn't for her grandmother's insistence, as well as the existence of honami, kanade wouldn't be able to keep herself alive long enough to save anyone. she would have suffered the same fate as her own father.

kanade struggled with composing a song that would save mafuyu, and even when the latter runs away and starts living with her at the end of the most recent event, saying goodbye to my masked self, she still worries that she can't completely save her.

but the least she can do is give her a place to stay, right? after all, she can't exactly return home now. what else is she supposed to do in that situation?

edit: forgot to add this detail — during the new event, you can tell that kanade feels guilt towards the fact that she spoke to mafuyu's mother, that part of the reason mafumom is acting this way is because of her actions. she seems to tense up or even seem more saddened than usual in response to mafuyu's situation and definitely blames herself for all of it.

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REASONS TO CARRY SOMEONE. ( A PROMPT LIST! )

listen, i'm back home now, i'm thinking about things, and i saw the maxton hall gifset floating around and i was like. yk what. carrying people is elite content, and gdi y'all deserve elite content! as always, DO NOT ADD OR EDIT THIS LIST! and there's a lil spicy addition under the readmore, but i left it there just in case people prefer to have a not-so-spicy version.

[ SLUMBER ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver because they're so sound asleep that they won't easily wake up.

[ INTERCEPT ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver out of the room because they're angry and on the brink of engaging in a fight with someone.

[ ASSIST ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver away for medical attention because they've been injured and can't walk easily.

[ HELP ]: sender picks up and carries the badly wounded receiver as fast as possible to the nearest hospital or the nearest place to administer urgent first-aid.

[ ELATION ]: sender scoops up the receiver and carries them away after a mutual victory, or having just received very good news (or maybe they're both just very happy for some reason!)

[ HOME ]: sender picks up the receiver to carry them over the threshold of their new home.

[ AID ]: sender finds the receiver too weak to move, and scoops them up to carry them to get some help.

[ UP ]: sender finds the receiver and picks them up to carry them a distance after learning they're unable to get up.

[ BAREFOOT ]: the sender picks up the receiver and carries them inside because they're not wearing any shoes.

[ WEARY ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall asleep during a task, and picks them up to carry them to bed so that they can actually sleep properly for once.

[ TWIRL ]: sender catches the receiver in their arms and spins them in a neat twirl just because they want to.

[ HERO ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall from a height, and manages to intervene just in time, catching them before they get hurt.

[ FLASH ]: the sender and receiver are part of a photoshoot, and in order to finish the last of the photos, the sender scoops up the receiver in their arms for the final pose.

[ TRAIN ]: during a training session (for a fight or a performance, dealer's choice!) the sender ends up holding the receiver in their arms during their session together.

[ URGENCY ]: sender carries the receiver away from danger after the receiver is revealed to be unable to move, either due to panic or injury.

[ OUT ]: sender grabs the receiver and lifts them into their arms after noticing them swaying and beginning to lose consciousness.

[ SCREAM ]: sender spots the receiver in a terrified or considerably panicked state, and picks them up to carry them to a less terrifying place to calm down.

[ LAZY ]: sender concedes to receiver's requests for a piggy-back ride home because they don't want to walk anymore, and carries them the rest of the distance home.

[ CAREFUL ]: sender gently lifts the receiver out of their seat and carries them carefully to bed after noticing they fell asleep and not wanting to waken them.

[ HASTE ]: in urgent need of getting to safety as fast as possible, the sender scoops up the receiver and starts running because it's quicker and easier to just carry them than expect them to keep pace.

[ FURTHER ]: sender, during an increasingly passionate make-out session with the receiver, suddenly takes them in their arms and carries them towards the bedroom to continue their evening in private.

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she's been worried about mizuki lately. kanade knows that whatever's going on, things will be fine, but she can't help but worry about her. thus, after she finishes up the draft of her latest composition, she opens up nightcord.

<K:> hey, amia.

<K:> do you have a moment?

<K:> i was wondering .... if you wanted to stop by that park again.

<K:> the one where we saw those carnations.

kanade just hopes she isn't pushing too hard. // @1amsong

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𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐋'𝐒 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 (a collection of prompts from the 2004 movie Howl's Moving Castle. Feel free to adjust phrasing and gendered terms as necessary.)

"You're beautiful!"

"It's hideous!"

"Give it to me."

"What a dump."

"Now I'm repulsive."

"I can't live like this."

"You saved me, (name)."

"I missed you too, (name)."

"A heart's a heavy burden."

"You really want it that badly?"

"I don't care if you're a monster."

"What difference does it make?"

"It's a present for you. Come see."

"I've never felt so peaceful before."

"I was looking everywhere for you."

"You didn't have to come back, (name)."

"There you are, sweetheart, sorry I'm late."

"Don't be alarmed, but I'm being followed."

"You are by far the tackiest thing here."

"Please, (name). I know I can be of help to you"

"I feel terrible, like there's a weight on my chest."

"Seems everyone in this family's got problems."

"Now I’ve got something I want to protect. It’s you."

"I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't torment my friend."

"Here’s another curse for you — may all your bacon burn."

"You sound ghastly, like some 90-year-old woman."

"I give up. I see not point in living if I can’t be beautiful."

"I'm so sorry but that would be confidential information."

"He's calling the spirits of darkness… I saw him do this once before when a girl dumped him!"

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🐝  *  ―  𝑺𝑯𝑰𝑷𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑯𝑬𝑬𝑻.

send 🚢 or ( 'SHIP' ) if you ever considered shipping our characters romantically and want me to fill out the following form for our muses. bold all that definitely applies, italicize what could potentially apply. feel free to add more if you think certain options are missing or you just want to add more.

do i ship our characters together?: yes | no | not yet but maybe soon

would i like to ship with you?: yes | maybe, i'm willing to try | no

type of relationship i could see: childhood or high school sweethearts | exes | engaged | married | long-term relationship | crushes | unrequited love | fling | long distance | online relationship | just dating | new relationship | toxic lovers | friends with benefits

tropes i'd enjoy writing for them: friends to lovers | enemies to lovers | exes to lovers | fake relationship / dating | forbidden love | grumpy and sunshine | star-crossed lovers | surprise pregnancy | second chance | soulmates | amnesia / mistaken identity | forced proximity | secret relationship | slow burn relationship

would i rather plot first or jump right in and see where it goes?: develop their relationship first | jump right in | something in between ( what specifically? )

what now?: let's plot something | send me shippy memes | i'll send you shippy memes | write me a random starter | i'll write you a random starter

anything else i want you to know about me / my character / my shipping habits: ( put whatever you want here )

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General Sentences, Vol. 19

(Assorted original sentences. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"Is this some kind of interrogation?"

"It is nobody's business how old I am!"

"You can't save everyone."

"The situation is under control. Don't worry about it."

"You look different on TV!"

"I know who you are!"

"He talks about you all the time!"

"I don't believe we've been formally introduced?"

"Why didn't you say anything about this before?"

"I don't need any favours from you!"

"How about a cup of tea for the shock?"

"I will always be there for you when you need me."

"What if I'm not who you think I am?"

"You're making this a lot harder than it needs to be."

"My dad doesn't even like me."

"Well, if you've got a better idea, I'd like to hear it!"

"Wow! Is this yours?"

"Have dinner with me? Just the two of us?"

"Turn around so I can tie you up."

"Look me in the eye and tell me it meant nothing."

"Don't ask a question you don't want to know the answer to."

"You know this doesn't make us friends, right?"

"That's exactly the type of humiliation I'm trying to avoid!"

"Why did you marry me?"

"Don't you ever listen to me?"

"How do I know you're not bluffing?"

"Have you thought about what you're going to do when you retire?"

"Don't you dare!"

"When's your birthday?"

"Do as I say, not as I do."

"Please, just give me a chance?"

"You look handsome today!"

"I'm not the man you think I am."

"You look like you could use some company?"

"You know, I used to have a huge crush on you."

"Don't be so grumpy!"

"That's classified."

"I just wanted to thank you for all the hard work you do."

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PROMPTS FOR ORDINARY THINGS THAT FEEL INTIMATE *  inspired by this post. these don't have to be romantic - you can specify romantic or not when you send them. in essence, these are simply intimate, affectionate moments to share with someone you love and care about. adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of the prompt

[ lean ] sender rests their head on receiver's shoulder

[ shop ] sender and receiver go to the grocery store together

[ brush ] sender brushes receiver's hair

[ tie ] sender helps receiver with their tie, either by putting it on or adjusting it

[ necklace ] sender helps receiver with the clasp of their necklace from behind

[ zip up ] sender assists receiver with zipping up a piece of clothing

[ unzip ] sender assists receiver with unzipping a piece of clothing

[ shoelaces ] sender bends down to tie receiver's shoelaces

[ swipe ] sender notices a smudge of something on receiver's face and gently wipes it off

[ braid ] sender braids receiver's hair

[ jacket ] sender takes their jacket off and hangs it on receiver's shoulders

[ puddle ] sender hurries to stop receiver from stepping into a puddle

[ drinks ] sender brings receiver a drink from a bar/their kitchen

[ feed ] sender feeds receiver's pet/s for them

[ cook ] sender and receiver cook a meal together

[ feed ] sender allows receiver to try a bite of their dish, holding their fork out for receiver to taste

[ teach ] sender, an expert at something, takes time to teach receiver how it works and how they can get better at it, too

[ readjust ] sender comes up behind receiver and readjusts their stance (maybe holding a gun, holding a golf club, aiming for something, etc.) to help them

[ makeup ] sender fixes receiver's makeup for them

[ bathroom ] sender and receiver go to a public restroom together and have a normal conversation in between the stalls

[ aloud ] sender reads aloud to receiver

[ refill ] sender refills receiver's glass without asking

[ massage ] sender notices receiver looks tense, steps up behind them, and massages their shoulders

[ listen ] sender listens to receiver explain something they're passionate about

[ silence ] sender and receiver comfortably exist in silence together, both of them working or reading or focusing on something different

[ food ] sender brings food over to receiver's house

[ hum ] sender hums along to a song receiver is singing

[ see ] sender sees something that reminds them of receiver and texts them a picture of it

[ admire ] sender stares at receiver across a room, silently admiring and appreciating them from afar

[ win ] sender lets receiver beat them in a game

[ puzzle ] sender helps receiver solve/put together a puzzle

[ carry ] after receiver falls asleep in an inconvenient place, sender carries them to a bed and tucks them in

[ kneel ] sender finds receiver sick in the bathroom ("tossing their cookies"), and kneels beside them, holding their hair back and cleaning their face

[ clean ] sender helps bathe receiver

[ wash ] sender helps receiver wash their hair

[ patch ] sender carefully patches one of receiver's wounds