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so real

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Woke up with a terrible hangover so I'm going to take it easy, avoid food (upset stomach reasons), and make a plan of what I need to achieve in the next two months.

It kinda scares me that there's a potential possibility that I might be going on a sun holiday with a bunch of my boyfriends friends (other girlfriends are being invited too). I now have a reason to get in shape; to explore the fuck out of a new place to not get tired, to be able to play sports games on the beach, and to feel my best physically and mentally to be able to drink alcohol without getting sick and weepy

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11 minutes to consume 3000+ calories. what a binge, ladies and gentlemen, what a fucking binge

drunk as hell and about to binge on pizza and chips with the hopes of being hella skinny by end of August when I go on my first sum holiday lolololol

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drunk as hell and about to binge on pizza and chips with the hopes of being hella skinny by end of August when I go on my first sum holiday lolololol

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it's currently 4am and I'm drinking cold water trying to convince myself that everything is going to be okay but it doesn't feel that way at all and that sucks

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"birthday calories count" "weekend calories count" yeah i guess they do but you also need to live your life a little or you're not gonna last very long lol

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can someone please be proud of me like fuck I’m trying

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Before and after lol. It's a terrible rollie compared to what I've seen my boyfriend make but not too bad for a first (and probably last time). The lighter I stole was broken and I can't find another one so I definitely won't be smoking this. I'll probably dump the container ngl and pretend it never happened. I'm glad I came and sat out the back through, the rain is peaceful

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Took a little bit of my boyfriends tobacco and snuck it into a cleaned-out compact foundation case. Probably won't smoke but I think I'll sit out the back and make a rollie anyway

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tapping my foot trying to come to terms with the shitty situation I'm going through and for the first time in my life I really want to smoke a cigarette while sitting on the back porch staring out into the rain.

I doubt I'll do it, I told myself I would never smoke cigarettes. However I did steal one rolling paper and a filter from my boyfriend because he's asleep. He would be so disappointed in me if if caught me smoking (even though I'm a 24 year old adult lol, but I get it, I'd be disappointed in me if I lit up one too)

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Went through a mental breakdown yesterday.

Charging up my switch today to restart my animal crossing island and learn to be happy again

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Losing weight for men❌️

Losing weight for women❌️

Losing weight for clothes✔️

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I'm built different. like incorrectly i think

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i have so much potential. i will not ruin it this time