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escapes for when you feel anxious

exploring a flowery town with cute villagers

drinking a milkshake in an empty diner at 3am

real life that feels dreamlike

cute sunflower field dates

in love with the universe

softest love songs

living inside an 80s tv show

drinking tea on a cozy raining morning

you’re an angsty teen in a coming-of-age film

summer road trip in the west coast

vacation in san francisco

living in an old French film

stargazing and contemplating the meaning of life

late night drives in a 90’s movie

watching a beautiful sunset over the beach with someone you love

feeling dazed and drifting off under dreamlike sunlight

going to the beach in a camper van in 1960′s california

collecting whimsical music-boxes and taking pictures of clouds in paris

falling asleep on the moon

city lights at midnight

half dreaming,half awake in faded 60s sunlight

remembering someone else’s memories like they’re your own

being the guardian of a snowy forest who befriends wolves and takes care of baby fawns

being in a vintage fairytale

wandering the avenues of vintage New York City

living in a cinematic landscape and watching over a magnificent scenery

exploring an art museum

eating fruit in a small italian seaside town

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being in your early twenties is like [grocery shopping alone] [having instant noodles for dinner] [remembering random details about that one friend you haven't spoken to in five years] [feeling overwhelming guilt for every purchase that isn't strictly "necessary"] [having midday naps] [finding out through facebook that the girl who was mean to you in high school has a husband and a baby] [falling a little in love with every stranger on public transport] [pretending you're not afraid of being alone] [wondering when you'll feel like a fully realized person] [listening to bands you liked in middle school] [blinking and it's suddenly december] [failing to imagine yourself ten years from now] [feeling like you're running out of time]

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I’m ok. I’m gonna be ok. I’m gonna live a beautiful life and I’ll get to know beautiful people. I will create things of beauty and be surrounded by flowers. And I’ll love myself, and I’ll be soft, I’ll be kind. And I’ll be ok.

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Listen. Do it for the aesthetic. If you want to fill an entire 20 dollar sketchbook with anatomy drawings fucling do it. If you wanna get lost in the woods and come stumbling home with a bag of dried mushrooms and bones you go goblin dude. You aren't alive to go to work and hurt!! You're alive because bumblebees bump into little flowers and dandelions only open up in the sun! You're alive because cats purr when you pet them and coffee keeps you up all night!! Do everything for the aesthetic!!

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If you ever "fail" just laugh at it like if you tripped and keep walking

(actually a note for myself the next time I feel like a whole failure I should just laugh at it and grab a book like "yeah whatever i'm actually living my one and only life right now so I've got no time for you sorry not sorry madam")

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Morgan Nikola-Wren

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i don't need a driver's license i'm a city girl i go on the bus and pretend everyone is a little in love with me and then thank the driver while getting off like i'm a lady and it's my carriage. vroom vroom <3

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Gilmore girls appreciation post

just realized Rory is a libra like me, Lorelai is a taurus like my mother

and Emily is an @ss like my grand-mother

no wonder why I love this show

(& Logan was born in february now I know why i hate him, he’s probably an aquarius)

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“I’ve been a massage therapist for many years, now. I know what people look like. People have been undressing for me for a long time. I know what you look like: a glance at you, and I can picture pretty well what you’d look like on my table. Let’s start here with what nobody looks like: nobody looks like the people in magazines or movies. Not even models. Nobody. Lean people have a kind of rawboned, unfinished look about them that is very appealing. But they don’t have plump round breasts and plump round asses. You have plump round breasts and a plump round ass, you have a plump round belly and plump round thighs as well. That’s how it works. And that’s very appealing too. Woman have cellulite. All of them. It’s dimply and cute. It’s not a defect. It’s not a health problem. It’s the natural consequence of not consisting of photoshopped pixels, and not having emerged from an airbrush. Men have silly buttocks. Well, if most of your clients are women, anyway. You come to male buttocks and you say – what, this is it? They’re kind of scrawny and the tissue is jumpy because it’s unpadded; you have to dial back the pressure, or they’ll yelp. Adults sag. It doesn’t matter how fit they are. Every decade, an adult sags a little more. All of the tissue hangs a little looser. They wrinkle, too. I don’t know who put about the rumor that just old people wrinkle. You start wrinkling when you start sagging, as soon as you’re all grown up, and the process goes its merry way as long as you live. Which is hopefully a long, long time, right? Everybody on a massage table is beautiful. There are really no exceptions to this rule. At that first long sigh, at that first thought that “I can stop hanging on now, I’m safe” – a luminosity, a glow, begins. Within a few minutes the whole body is radiant with it. It suffuses the room: it suffuses the massage therapist too. People talk about massage therapists being caretakers, and I suppose we are: we like to look after people, and we’re easily moved to tenderness. But to let you in on a secret: I’m in it for the glow. I’ll tell you what people look like, really: they look like flames. Or like the stars, on a clear night in the wilderness.”

— What People Really Look Like

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i needed to read this

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How low I've come to trust myself when I'm afraid to adopt a cat because I may not be able to keep it alive ?

My roommate was shooked and said I just have to feed it which is wrong you also have to give them love.

So, I'm not feeling emotionally available enough for a cat and I'm longing for a gf ?

Am I insane ?

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I have litteraly no idea about what I am doing right now.

I'm about to start my second and last year of my master degree in gender studies x history research but I already know this is completely useless.

I had to move to a different (and more expensive city) with the financial help of my parents just to discover that I cannot live far from my loved ones and that I'm not gonna be a researcher.

I even know that next year I'm gonna come back home and do a professional training to be a librarian that DOES NOT REQUIRE A MASTER DEGREE AT ALL.

So, I'm just here, being overly anxious about the very big research paper I'm supposed to present next June. My research director thinks I'm lazy and dumb because I'm not use to ask for help and I'm doing everything on my own. She uses really tough words and doesn't sugar coats her thoughts which makes me feel like the worst student ever.

The anxiety created by the possibility of me failing this degree, graciously offered by my parents, plus the fact that I'm not even enjoying myself is fvcking me up.

And I am so lonely what the hell... The covid situation, online classes and my social anxiety which makes me think anyone talking to me does it out of pity = absolutely zero friends in one year.

I feel like I'm wasting a year of my life and I don't know how to feel better...

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Thinking about all the life paths I gave up because I'm not hard working/brave/strong enough..

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Having a body is so annoying today

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relationships with ur parents are so weird, arent they? like... i hate you for what you did, i love you because you bring me soup when im sick. i want to get away from you. i feel safe with you. i want to run away from you. i want your hugs. i wish you understood me. i wish i understood you.

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I saw an article called “Make Peace With Your Unlived Life” and it really made me stop and think. So much of our lives is mourning for what we didn’t become. It’s a waste. We didn’t waste any opportunities. What came and went was not meant for us.

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thinking about how good friendship is…..like two people just like each other….and choose over and over to spend time with each other……quite special how diverse human relationships are..every friendship is special and u cant be close friends with everybody…..for some unknown reason certain people just enjoy each other..and i think we take for granted how fantastic that is