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— Oscar Wilde 

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I don’t want a job I want a cottage in the woods and paint, read and eat berries

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Maybe the only way to end this loneliness is to die?

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Balenciaga F/W 1998

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June 23rd 1pm-8pm

435 Newark Avenue Jersey City NJ

Featuring: Brain Fever Artwork 

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Traditional Love spell that I tailored to my personal needs.

(Blurred for privacy as I was a picky bitch ;p)

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Something I wish someone had told me when I started practicing

You have to find a balance between research and practice.

When I started, all I wanted to do was practice. I was in middle school and hadn’t really learned anything beyond “people post spells online and I know someone who’s Wiccan.” I didn’t know what was possible and what wasn’t, what led to genuine results and what didn’t, and (being only thirteen) I didn’t really want to put time into understanding that. This meant that I wasn’t really practicing, I was just googling spells and doing them for the hell of it, and nothing was happening because I had no idea what I was doing.

It took a little bit to grow out of that phase, which I forgive myself for because I was a kid and a particularly immature one. This led to my research phase.

My research phase was an important step in my practice. It’s when I recognized that in order to develop my path I had to sit down and read things, track down folklore and historical texts, and spend time understanding the environment of my region. The problem is that I never did anything with this information. I kept feeling like I wasn’t ready to do anything with the things I was reading about, and that I needed to prepare more.

Obviously research is a really important part of witchcraft, because jumping into something with no idea what you’re doing is ineffective at best and dangerous at worst. However, there’s also a certain point where you have to learn from practice. Read about the land, and then let the land teach you more. Read about a spirit, and then listen to the spirit to learn what the books couldn’t tell you. The balance between the two is going to be different depending on who you are as an individual and the path you follow, but finding what that balance is is important to applying both research and practice to your craft effectively.

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Due to personal reasons,

It is now Halloween

🦇🕸🦂🕷🍁🍂🔪🎃🔮🎱🌚🌙🕯🗡⚰

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Derek Castro, Witches’ Dance, 2016.

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When your boyfriend says he’s out with the guys but Polliwog says otherwise.

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It’s not that I miss being with you,I miss the feeling of you.

You’re breath on my cheek. You’re heartbeat.

I miss seeing the future together so vividly, that the red flags and the toxicity was blurred. Like a soft halo effect on the reality around us.

I miss your hand on my cheek, you holding me, but this is where it always leads.

I give too much of me.

Too much love, too much soul, too much of my body to someone who never deserves it.

Too much time, too much power and too much glory, to the one who thinks he owns me.

A fault that I don’t know how to fix, as a witch.

I scour the well worn pages of every book and every grimoire hoping to find my magic stitch.

But nothing can fix the heartbroken & lonely.

Maybe I’ll love your ghost forever. Or maybe one day you’ll leave. Maybe I’ll forget you. You’ll cease to ever exist.

-forget a lover.

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Étoile (1989) | dir. Peter Del Monte

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Someone: How’s life going?

Me: it’s ‘k.

A hawk with an arrow pierced through its body.

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Your power comes from you first.

No one else.

No other beings. No herbs or crystals or tools. It comes from you.

You are the pinnacle of your power, everything else is just something to channel it.

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love + vulnerability:

1. "I don't want your love unless you know I am repulsive, and love me even as you know it." (georges bataille, from 'my mother')

2. "Finally, in a low whisper, he said, "I think I might be a terrible person." For a split second I believe him - I thought he was about to confess to a crime, maybe murder. Then I realized that we all think we might be terrible people. But we only reveal this before asking someone to love us. It is a kind of undressing." (miranda july, from 'the first bad man')

3. "I also learned the word dendrochronology—analyzing the patterns of tree rings to know everything that has ever happened to a tree. This is how I love you. I am peeling back my skin, layer by layer, so you will finally know everything inside me." (roxanne gay, from 'strange gods')

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Art by Lea Yunk