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please don’t forget about me

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i cant wait for it to get warm, im gonna dye my hair all pretty and cute and then start to wear dresses!!

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id peel ur orange for u

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do u ever struggle bc u wanna talk and bother to ur mutual more but u don’t wanna be to excited about anything but you miss them and you wanna talk a lot but your shy and scared BUT YOU WANNA LOVE ON THEM HUT I DONT WANNA BE ANOYYING AND

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oh !

i think my fear of reaching out is one of my biggest struggles bc i am so paranoid that if i am too hyper and energetic towards my mutuals they might think i am annoying :((

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i think a crucial part of any online friendship or connection is understanding that we all have lives outside of this space, and it isn't possible to always be present, to always be at the disposal of your online connections. that doesn't mean these people are any less important in your life. they're simply a piece of a much larger picture. a snapshot from your daily experiences. sometimes all we have time for is a hello, how are you, I love you.

sometimes, we can chat at length and type paragraph upon paragraph. sometimes, we talk on the phone, or we send letters or gifts through the mail.

sometimes, we don't talk at all for a few days. or a few weeks. and I think this ought to be the norm, you know? you still mean something to me. I still enjoy your friendship, as little as we speak. we are busy people. we are human. we have hardship. we are busy. we need to eat and rest and go for walks and laugh with our mothers and mow the lawn and see good shows. we cannot possibly do that when there's an unspoken expectation of always being available. it's not healthy for anyone involved, and it will almost always certainly lead to feelings of resentment when one or both parties doesn't feel as if they're being heard or understood.

(i say all of this for no reason in particular, aside from the fact that I was thinking this morning about a couple of previous online friendships where I felt as if I had a responsibility to be there for another person even more than I was present for my family or myself. I think i was as much to blame as the other person when it came to lack of boundaries and unspoken expectations, but I'm so thankful that I've been able to see those situations for what they were and move ahead and finally learn something from some life experiences. I always learn lessons the hard way- multiple times in multiple iterations- but I always feel as if I come away with a profound, renewed sense of self and an understanding of the human condition, deeper than i ever have before.)

tl;dr I am grateful for whatever capacity you can maintain our friendship in. thank you. I love you.

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i am going to be something ! i will be something ! i will find the energy in my heart to fulfill that desire to create ! i will be something!

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i think my fear of reaching out is one of my biggest struggles bc i am so paranoid that if i am too hyper and energetic towards my mutuals they might think i am annoying :((

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i am working towards the life i have always wanted to live

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i be like “me and who” knowing damn well i’m unloveable

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i promise all the love you've put into this world hasn't gone to waste. it will find its way back to you. trust me.

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