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why is garlic so good at sticking to you. i barely touched you, stop being on my hands forever.

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A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

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Fun story from my mom just now.

She lives alone with her dog Ash. And as one does when just living with a pet, she has a lot of made-up nonsense she just says to him, including a lot of made-up vaguely German sounding words.

And the German isn't completely random. Some of it is hold-over actual German from when she (temporarily) lived in Switzerland 32 years ago.

She told me, "Most days I'll say to Ash, 'Was ist heute? (What is today?) Heute ist (Today is)'" followed by the day of the week. She also said she was having the damnedest time remembering the German word for 'Thursday.'

Like she could get through "Heute ist Sonntag," "Heute ist Montag," "Heute ist Dienstag"... and blank out at Thursday. Until finally she decided, screw it, googling it! (Thursday is Donnerstag, btw.)

"Except," she told me, "I googled it, and it went Sonntag, Montag, Dienstag, Mittwoch, and I went 'Mittwoch? What the hell is Mittwoch?'"

Mittwoch is in fact Wednesday. But that's not the day of the week my mom was tripping on. She knew (thought she knew) Wednesday. So my mom was left going "Okay then what the hell have I been saying?" and she said, "Chrissy I've been saying Sonntag, Montag, Dienstag, Geburtstag. I've been saying Heute ist Geburstag to Ash every Wednesday."

Geburtstag is in fact the German word for Birthday.

Anyway happy every single Wednesday is my mom's birthday Wednesday.

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Teenagers, am I right?

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Faerun's strongest lap.

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could you please do a tutorial on how you do your risograph style drawings? they look so cool 😭😭

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Commission done for Kai!🧛 With a close up on a pose I really like how it turned out but got mostly cut on the final result 😩

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commission done for Anodyne!! 💪❤️

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To go with the latest Bhaalist DU drow art 😇

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Mermay 1-10 by Christophe Young

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COMMISSION

(commissions open?)

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Yakuza fiance lockscreens ‎ع˖⁺ ⋆ ୭

pls like or reblog if you save it !

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Been awhile

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Got a design today so obligatory headshot. One of these days I'll manage more than a headshot.

She's Mo, a Suit for the Knight Company and has a tendency to beat men to death with her bare fist. Not ideal for interrogations, supervisors have been warned.