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they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

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the grandmaster

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Sometimes I forget how much of an impact jwqs has had on my life. I found my favorite artist because of a jwqs edit on tiktok to the fruits by paris paloma. There’s something so beautiful about having found an artist that means so much to me through the baihe novel that equally means so much to me. And I can never separate the two.

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i should be able to curl up and fall asleep without it giving me back or neck problems

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IDGAF if the women in my fiction are empowering or aspirational, I'm an adult, I don't need role models, I want the women in my fiction to be interesting, and if that involves being pathetic, hypocritical, amoral, or trapped in a delightfully dysfunctional relationship so be it

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just so you know i know this dynamic is toxic and i'm not romanticizing it :/ i'm actually sexualizing it

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when two musicians sing into the same microphone and lean in very close to each other… like omg are you guys gonna kiss now to relieve the homoerotic tension?😳

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Anxiety has won. I have deleted the post and will (maybe) repost it when I can (over)think clearer in the morning.

Today is one of those days that I’m actively testing my anxiety as if that ever ends up in good outcomes (I have terrible impulse decision judgement).

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Today is one of those days that I’m actively testing my anxiety as if that ever ends up in good outcomes (I have terrible impulse decision judgement).

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Today is one of those days that I’m actively testing my anxiety as if that ever ends up in good outcomes (I have terrible impulse decision judgement).

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I love the old timey phrase "you forget yourself". bro that was so impolite like do you even know who you are rn

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saw captive prince discourse on twitter in the year 2025 and someone posted this review from i assume goodreads?

reading comprehension truly is a lost skill goddamn god forbid a character unlearn his ideas of tradition = good

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i made paris paloma labour stickers for bst hyde park

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my two favorite british people are Paris Paloma and Ruby Granger in no particular order

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On the subject about parents needing to control their child's reading and invade their privacy in order to "protect" them from "inappropriate material:

Until I was in....college? At least? The vast, vast majority of the books I read were either a) assigned by my school or b) (the vast majority of my reading) provided to me by my mother.

My mom is a librarian. She filled our rooms with books, picked especially for us. She pointed out books on the shelves in our home library (separate from our bedroom shelves) that she thought we would like. She bought us books for birthdays, Christmas, and just stacks of recommendations. She once paid me $10 to read one of the Cirque Du Freak books because she said I needed "to be exposed to bad literature."

She respected my privacy in room, didn't go through my belongings. She explicitly pointed out to us that she wouldn't know if we took a particular book of the shelf, as long as we returned it, if we didn't want her to know we were reading it. She purposely brought us books that she didn't care for herself, because she thought we might find them valuable or enjoyable.

And if we wanted to read something she thought might upset or disturb us, she would explain why. She wouldn't stop us from reading it - just ask us to check in with her, to talk through it.

And so when I read something that upset or disturbed me, I would go to her. She would listen and talk through it with me.

If she said she didn't think I would like something, or that a book might disturb me, or that she thought I should wait until I was older, I listened to her.

She didn't need restrictions or control to protect me. Because she proved I could trust her.

Controlling kids is never about "protecting" them. It's just about control.

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