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[luyenthuyen]

Be naked to someone physically seems not too hard

but be naked mentally it is hardly easy

I am full of apprecitation, whenever I have burstout moments without fear, and naked feeling without doubts...

[luyenthuyen]

The worst thing is not because we are apart, or because the city will be so strange without you. Of course those feeling of missing or strange will fade away after a while.

But there is one will never fade away - ‘us in this lifetime’. That is a fact, not a feeling to be faded. We might forget that, we might not care about that anymore. Yet whenever we have a moment to recall those memory, during that year of 2019 - 2020, when we were 24 and 26, when we were here in this city, in this country, and saw each other... 

That would be a moment of smile, and a void of nostalgia about ‘the good old days’. I realise, sometimes, old days are not always good. But we always feel ‘good old days’ when a memory comes to us. It only stays alive in our mind, it is already gone in real. 

People keeps changing. Yesterday keeps being further and further. The day you move out of the city, we might think about it as a near future when I am writing these words. Or you will think about it as ‘tomorrow’ on the day before the flight. Or just ‘yesterday’ when you landed India... 

However, it is that moment we are done with the ‘why’ we meet each other in this lifetime.

We are ‘done’! 

We might continue be friends, or not when our life are too different. We might see each other in a rare occasion in the future somewhere, or not. We might, also, never see each other again... in this life or any other life. Wow, thinking about ‘last’ this and ‘last’ that is fucked, but dammmm true. 

In this moment, I just feel things keeps going so fast, so vague, and I am scared of those last days we are together, cook together, walk together, laugh together, and be here together....Just after this point of time, we are not as we are now....we step out of others’ life...

we will have different thing to care about

we are different 

we forget

we ...

you and me

wow...do you get what i am thinking about? 

[luyenthuyen]

Your goodbye left me with eyes that cry haiz haiz haiz 

it’s so torturing to count days and nights that you will leave...

[luyenthuyen]

I found an old pic that reminds me...

of us

on our first date

That was on 28 Dec 2019, because the photo was taken on that date. :D 

Wow I would never thought we will make it until today. Ah, and today is 28 March =)) which means it has been already three months now. 

Continue to see how it will be for both of us, because the ‘us' tmr, might be different...

[luyenthuyen]

by Lumi Tuomi

[luyenthuyen]

Ah today is in the middle of the quarantine. and there are some moredays til i can meet my pretty juicy boy. Hope that he will not forget me.

But even if he forgets me, I am full prepared for that because I see thorough that he has his own life, I have my own life. I will choose to stay next to people who wants me and who I can feel safe around mentally and physically.

For now I think I bet this on Juicy. but for tomorrow, who knows...people change and it is a normal thing

I just keep in mind that: to be together is difficult, is a challenge that I wanna figure out. To separate, it is always an easier option to choose ;) so I’ll try everyday to make me better, for me. Hope you also try for yourself. When we see we are both better versions and motivation for eachother, that’s a reason why we are still here together. of course there are many more reasons but at least, I simplify that ;))

p/s: I think i start to miss you abit. But it is ok, acceptable haha

[luyenthuyen]

The whole day today I feel so strange, I really don’t know what is that so I write it down here. When time goes by I can look back and understand what were happening at this time that I don’t know.

The sense of mine, I treasure it, but sometimes it is a bit troublemaker because it made me feel worried for nothing at all hahaa

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(via https://open.spotify.com/artist/00FQb4jTyendYWaN8pK0wa?si=mJ74XxNyRq6uQvruFZhQ1w)

Những ngày này cái buồn đã tự biết thân biết phận mà lánh đi, cho não làm việc, rồi mỗi lần mở mắt ra buổi sáng, có đúng 5 phút để trí nhớ ùa về và nhận ra là cái gì đã xảy ra cũng đã xảy ra. Giống 1 vết thương mà mỗi sáng dậy sẽ lại thêm đau nhức, những xấu xí cũng sẽ tới sau khi vết thương lành miệng, rồi sẽ đóng vảy, và bong ra lúc nào chẳng hay.... 

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It seems that the last time I am writing tumblr is last year, at this time, it is vague in my mind what I wrote. But I think it is smthing about my grandma, it comes so fast. 

I am listening to Bet On Me of Suboi, a sister that I love so much. 

2019 is another blessing year

And 2020 will be awesome as it is. 

I have some plans and I will do it no matter what. 

Trying to be more patient, and to look deeper, feel deeper, think more before saying, and be more kind to every creatures. 

It feels blessed that the firework just made me startled, but I still feel blessed. 

There will be hundreds of challenges outside, all I do is to keep calm as much as I can, and get over it! 

Hope things will be fine, and will be great! 

Happy new year and Happy an updated version of mine ;) 

[luyenthuyen]

Another year... of upcoming 24 Linh

I have just realized on the way to my grandparents' house, that this kind of waiting for new year eve have become so familiar to me that I think I do not need to hang out with friends or even with my parents, as grandpa needs me more.

Then I think, how many times do I have to do this kind of my way to wait for an Eve with my grandparents? I hope much, yet I know can't be forever... 

The more we grow up, you see, the more we love to be with a peace. A peace is just some where and someone that we feel secure to be with, even spending the whole life seeking for adventures and challenges or not, eventually, we still spend quality times with a peace.... 

This would be the year kind of worth, as I wished for, and desired, and tried hard, and enjoys every moment. And it is coming to an end of the year... At the age of 23, still young, but still feel not much to do a thing again n again - New year Eve... 

If not for...

My small and big family! for no reason and for every reasons... 10 years from the day I live far from home, but all people just trust me, love me, respect me, quarrel me (because of love for me)...and see how I grow up. 

My beautiful working place, colleagues, and bosses. I treasure all for making my journey so meaningful and help me shape my mind, my path, and my ways to enjoy this life

My old friends - close friends - best friends, who always stay besides me (mentally haha) though they are now everywhere, near or far, they are still my friends for life. With this troublesome life, it would be suck without you crazy guys.. I thought I was crazy, but you guys did confirm that, because we all join a fucking mad squad =)) 

My ex (es), my passing-by lover, friends with (no) benefits, and all kinds of mentally and body and like and attraction and love relationships, of course I just have once at a time but all of these guys did make me grow up =)) after bunch of happy time, crazy time, sad time, desperate time, peace time... you may stay or not as my friend after all, but we did share a good time together. So I appreciate that! 

All creatures I met during my lifetime, as you bring the serendipity for the journey to keep going on in a very surprising way! I would keep trusting and doing my best to live in a pleasant, enjoyable, peaceful, compassionate way with you all along. 

Is it enough general sharing before new year eve?? =)) 

[luyenthuyen]

A Sunday of solitude 

[luyenthuyen]

Is it too early to talk about this?

Summer 18 - Mid year fling fling =)) 

Recently, I know a new guy who is sincerely interested about me at some first time he met me. 

Sorry to him but I am still in the mood for my ex. 

But you know, after I hate myself a lot, and take so much time to live...happily to ask my soul to forgive me to do some not-so-right things to my ex. Then I think I would never break anyone's heart again. 

And then I tried just to ...smile when my friends talk about how you react when talking about meh, your excitement about me, blabla... Idk if it's real or almost real or how many percentage that I can trust , because it may be just a kidding! 

But you know, uhm when I bring that bias to talk to you. I want to keep you away from me. As I dont want you to continue get interested in me. May you like me, and ... 

When I talk to you in a way not-so-polite, I, again, think...why I become this kind of personality? 

aizzz! ‘Linh!!!! what happened? no need to close the door just to protect others from your craziness, as today is today and today you need to enjoy it to the fullest, to make others also happy, with you.’ Ok. I think, so let give him a chance! 

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After some short talks, I think I can feel how strong his mind toward me, as it is some kind of feeling/vibe/vibration that turns to language/words that he told me in some situations he cannot keep it inside anymore. Such as this sentence: “you made me deeply interested excited curious about you"... 

I know now he has a feeling of crushing. Hope it will go soon, and turn to something more peaceful and more stable... but it's a good start. 

And what I feel from him? 

I just feel it naturally comes to me that he made me feel calm, and I feel that I can forgive myself, I feel it again... And after a time, may this life send this guy to me to challenge me once more, that do not break this guy's heart, let care about him, get to know him, and see what could do next... 

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I will go as the flow :)) 

[luyenthuyen]

be a child again. flirt. giggle. dip your cookies in your milk. take a nap. say you’re sorry if you hurt someone. chase a butterfly. love. be a child again.

http://twitter.com/oyerooh/status/1033414497195712512 (via wizdomly)

Our soul learn all the time. As we are always a child... 

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Chiều chủ nhật,

22/9/18

Trời Sài Gòn hôm nay như cuối thu Hà Nội, hoặc đầu Xuân... 

Cảm giác trong lòng vẫn rộng rãi, nhưng k phải vui rộng rãi, mà là trống quá không biết có cảm giác gì nên wandering mãi trong lòng mà chưa biết mình phải viết ra thế nào, cái điều mình đang cảm thấy lúc này 

‘Sao em lại sinh ra, như cơ duyên biết trước?’

Nhưng không có sao, mình đang buồn một nỗi buồn thật đẹp, mà nếu không tận hưởng cho thoả, thì chỉ vài giờ nữa, nhắm mắt ngủ, ngày mai lại một cảm xúc khác rồi... 

[luyenthuyen]

A little french sound to heal my soul <3