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Do people still use tumblr?

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Okay hear me out. I need help finding a post for a fic. It’s about using a sub as a board game. Anyone know this post?

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Some highlights from my New Years trip to Orlando. Absolute best way to end 2019 and start 2020! Three days at Disney World, a full day exploring the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios, a night at Medieval Times, and three different fireworks shows! https://www.instagram.com/p/B7FTu-lAk67ageCm9L8XVkCtoAA29zP4foIhmI0/?igshid=hcsvhz8e4uaq

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Are you coming back? Any updates? Hope you're okay

Life has been extremely busy but also extremely good! My boyfriend moved across the country to be closer to me and I half live with him. Things couldn’t be better there! He’s so incredibly sweet and I love him so much more than I thought I was capable of. He treats me like a prince and he always puts my comfort above everything else. Also he’s a massive nerd so we’re constantly trying to get each other to join each other’s fandoms.

Family life is up and down. Things with my sister are still bad but my dad is super supportive of me now. I’ve been on Testosterone for almost 16 months! It’s going so great and I’m finally getting facial hair everywhere instead of just a few places.

Therapy is great! I’m actually about to start a couple new things, mainly EMDR, just to see if anything will help me more. But overall I’m doing really good. My mental health is stable, my physical health is slowly improving. I’m happy and safe and loved and I’m myself.

As for when I’ll be back, I don’t know. I never really think to check any of my social media anymore because I’m either enjoying quality time with my boyfriend or on my own. I don’t think I’ll ever fully leave but I probably won’t be going back to a regular posting schedule.

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Find who is calling to you… into the unknown. — Frozen 2 (2019)

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domestic arguments

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so I’ve been in a relationship for 5 years now. And I see a lot of posts about how people think relationships mean having butterflies forever, your heart beating faster when they walk into a room, about cuddling together every night, legs intertwined, that you’d be so happy to live together you’d sleep on a double bed with each other every night.

And its not really like that, at least not to me.

You stop getting the butterflies when you live together. Your heart no longer speeds up when you see them, but instead, everything calms down. When youre in the room with them, you feel calm, and secure. When you cuddle them you feel your heart beat slow, and the sound of their breathing carry you towards comfort. It doesnt feel like a roller coaster anymore, it feels like home.

You don’t sleep curled up with each other every night, legs twisted between theirs so tight its hard to tell where yours begin and theirs end.

Instead, you sleep comfortably, side by side, sometimes facing different directions. But every night, you find yourself scooting backwards on the bed so you bump into them. You snuggle against their arm, or stroke their hair as they fall asleep. There are nights when my boyfriend, in his sleep, reaches around me and pulls me to him, like a child with his teddybear, like I am his comfort.

 In the wee hours of the morning before the dawn breaks, when the world is blue and you see through cracked eyes, you curl into their chest and inhale their scent before drifting back to sleep. 

Kisses aren’t always romantic and firey anymore. But there are so much more of them now. There are cold kisses when you’re eating ice cream in the summer, and sticky kisses over breakfast pancakes. There’s “im leaving now” kisses, and “one more kiss before you go” kisses. There’s sleepy morning kisses before work, when you don’t remember the alarm going off but instead the press of their lips against yours is what brings you into the day.

There’s kisses before sleep, and, you are so sweet with the things you do kisses. There’s kisses because you treat animals so tenderly, and I’m so glad i’m with you and not someone else kisses. There’s quick kisses in the aisles of the grocery store, when its loud and you gravitate together, when instead of having your own personal space and their own personal space, its both of yours together, and you step into their chest to take up less area together. 

You don’t always text each other with confessions of love and care like you used to, because that’s a given now, and you’ve moved on to quirky inside jokes about the life youve built together. You share looks of exasperation and amusement in public, your own little world against the outside one. 

Relationships aren’t always a fairy tale. They’re not always fireworks and sparks, at least, after the start.

But they are a quiet rhythm and hum of love and care. It’s not a fire in your soul, but one in your hearth, keeping you warm and comfortable, comforting you as you drowsily drift into sleep.

And I love that.

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I’m still obsessed with this stupid thing.

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tight shirt

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domestic arguments

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welcome to DanAndPhilGOOSE *honk*

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a gloriously ghostly dark angel

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Credits

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technicallY this is just chronicling phil’s slow decent to deatH but goddamn he really does just get prettier has the years go by  

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flirting

2016 → 2017

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