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[man-in-the-mirror]

A Secret Love

Rebecca and Nicki were best friends. They met during their freshmen year when they both made it on the college cheerleading team at University of Austin Texas. Rebecca being the taller more built of the two was always a base and Nicki being tiny and light one, was a flier; so they paired up perfectly. Rebecca was always the quieter one of the duo, more academically oriented than Nicki. Nicki on the other hand was the Yin to Rebecca’s Yang. Nicki was outgoing and loved to party. Nicki always had a boyfriend or fling at the ready all the way through college and on. As boyfriends came and went, Nicki and Rebecca were inseparable through and through. Rebecca was never really into dating and was more focused on her studies and getting a great career. It has now been 3 years since they graduated from university and despite the fact that they both pursued different careers, they hang out regularly. They would get lunch several times a week, go out bar hopping, and work out together at the gym in their neighborhood. Nicki recently having broken up with one of her boyfriends was now back to being single and hopefully finding the man that would finally be her better half. Rebecca never really liked any of Nicki’s boyfriends because she knew Nicki was always too good for them. Nicki however, now had her eye on a new guy. His name was Evan Cavaretta. 

Evan was new to Texas and everyone there knew it. For starters, the accent was quite obvious that he was an outsider. He came from the United Kingdom just a few months prior, to escape the dreary winters and seek a fresh start since he divorced his now ex-wife Carly. Evan, by the grace of great providence from family wealth did not need to work, so he had the luxury of focusing on his personal passions, and moving away from home with no consequence. Evan loved working out and making sure he looked good. He modeled sporadically in his spare time in addition to traveling the world and exploring what it had to offer. However, he was seeking a little more “me-time” to reflect and recover from his very rocky divorce away from his family and everyone he knew. On the outside, he was a quiet, brooding handsome god of a man who appeared to have it all. Inside, he was broken and just a shell of his former self. So Evan would just go to the gym almost everyday and focus on getting enough endorphins to make him feel alive again. Despite being a newcomer to Austin, Evan didn’t feel compelled to branch out and make new friends. He wasn’t interested in dating again. He just wanted to get by, quietly. At the gym, there was this petite dark-haired girl that would always stare at him and try to start conversation with him. She would come in several days a week with whom Evan could only assume was her best friend. Evan wasn’t the slightest bit interested in either of them, so he kept his interactions with them brief and no more than small talk. He would just work out and take mirror selfies to document his progress as he always has.

Rebecca was growing tired of watching Nicki try and throw herself at this guy at the gym in the most non-obvious, yet obvious way. Rebecca was in love with Nicki. This was a secret she kept locked up inside since the night they drunkenly kissed after Cheer Nationals in Daytona during freshmen year. Rebecca knew Nicki would never be into her, considering how boy-crazy she was. So she decided this was a secret she would just have to keep and take to her grave. Besides, she was more focused on getting perfect grades in college than pursuing any type of legitimate romantic endeavor. Plus, being friends with Nicki seemed like it would be enough. As the years passed, gradually it began to seem like friendship wouldn’t be enough for Rebecca. The summer after college graduation, Rebecca went on a three-week solo trip through South America to give herself space from Nicki and to try and reground herself. While passing through the Amazon, Rebecca eventually confided in her guide, an Amazonian local named Paz, about her crush on Nicki. After all, who on earth would Paz tell. Paz understood Rebecca’s pain and empathized with her. One night, Paz told Rebecca of a solution she think might help. She told Rebecca to keep an open mind, but it might sound crazy. Paz explained to Rebecca she was a witch, of some sort, seventh generation in her family. She gave Rebecca a totem necklace and a potion for a very macabre ritual. "This potion is very dangerous because it can only be used once,” said Paz “and once you drink this potion you must complete the ritual. If you don’t complete the ritual, you will be doomed to wander the earth as a lost spirit stuck in purgatory.” Rebecca didn’t really understand what Paz meant by that. “This potion will free you from the shackles of being mortal. You will become a spirit and your physical body will no longer exist.” Paz explained further. “So basically it turns me into a ghost?” asked Rebecca. “Yes, but once you do it, your body will be gone forever, you will have to complete the rest of the ritual.” answered Paz, “You will need to keep this necklace on you and then in your spirit form, you can enter the body of a man that captures your beloved friend’s infatuation.” Rebecca could not believe what she was hearing. Complete and utter bullshit she thought to herself. But out of respect for Paz, Rebecca took the gifts and held on to them, never to be used.

It had been several years since Rebecca received those gifts from the witch in the Amazon, and she had always been skeptical, yet apprehensive to use them. Being stuck as a doomed spirit to wander the Earth sounded terrifying, but possessing one of the bodies of the losers that Nicki had dated the past three years seemed somehow equally as worse. However things were different now. Rebecca liked the mystery this Evan guy exuded. She liked his accent and would practice it when she was in the comfort of her apartment all alone. She studied his workouts at the gym and would contemplate whether that was a life she wanted to live. He drove a couple nice cars; a Lamborghini SUV and a Bentley convertible. She only knew this because she truly had to study him to see if he was finally worth the risk. Rebecca longed for Nicki to look at her the same way she would eat Evan up with her eyes. The time was now and after three long years Rebecca decided it was time to do the ritual because she could no longer go on feeling the wanton for Nicki like she did, even if it meant she would have to risk being a ghost doomed to a bleak eternity just roaming Earth. “I’m moving to Peru.” Rebecca told Nicki while jogging on the treadmill at the gym. “I’m sorry, what?! You’re joking, right?” Nicki replied, completely flabbergasted at the shocking information Rebecca shared. “Nope, the company offered me a great promotion at their office in Peru, they liked that I’m familiar with the area and the language and offered me a huge raise to relocate.” Rebecca elaborated, “there was no way I could turn the opportunity down.” Nicki went on to lament to Rebecca about how upset she was that she was moving away, while also expressing happiness for her success. Rebecca, knew it was a lie, in fact she quit her job just that morning. But that’s the way she would open the doors for her disappearing forever without anyone wondering what happened to her. Rebecca was an only child, her mom died when she was nine years old, and she hasn’t spoken to her father much since she up and left for college. No one would wonder she went. Several days had passed and Rebecca packed up her apartment and put all her belongings into a storage unit. A storage unit that hopefully a new Evan would be able to access to visit a former life. Rebecca said goodbye to Nicki and began the ritual once the sun went down. She recited some words scrawled on a paper wrapped around the potion bottle, placed the totem necklace around her head and took the liquid down quickly like a shot of tequila, only tequila tasted better. This particular mini-beverage tasted like burnt-sage infused into a citrus bleach. Rebecca nearly vomited it out, but it was as if her body wouldn’t let her. In fact, in a few short seconds she couldn’t feel the hot acidity in her throat anymore. She couldn’t taste anything. She felt nothing. Rebecca looked at her hands and noticed them fading, but yet glowing in this effervescent, ethereal-like way. She stood up only to realize she was simply floating, effortlessly. She thought of Evan and what he might be doing at that moment and like a haze the surroundings of her empty apartment faded until she was just surrounded in gray opaque nothingness. As quickly as it came, the haze faded, only Rebecca was now somewhere else. The haze turned into some type of steam. That was when Rebecca realized she was in a bathroom. The bathroom was glorious, practically the size of the bedroom in her apartment. She heard a humming behind her and turned around. It was Evan. He was in the shower and Rebecca was able to see his entire naked body. For a moment, she could really understand why Nicki was so attracted to him. He was so sexy and that body of his is insane. Rebecca in her ghostly form became excited because she knew this ritual was working, and seeing Evan in his godly form just feet from her heightened her anticipation of knowing in just moments, that will be her body, forever. So she took a floating couple of steps towards Evan and felt herself merge with his body.

Rebecca felt her vision go dark. Then she suddenly felt the pattering of hot water hitting her shoulders. The warm dampness of the steam filled her lungs and hugged her whole body. She opened her eyes. His eyes. Their eyes. Rebecca was now in Evan’s body. She felt the tightness of the muscles in her arms and chest as she opened and closed her large wet hands. “Oh wow, these are-” she stopped herself as she realized the deep voice that just spoke was not the one she was used to. The rumble of the bass in her voice shocked her into a brief silence. She cleared her throat and as she practiced before, in an accented voice said “ahem, erm, my name is Evan, you’re Nicki, right?” She chuckled to herself. This is really happening, Rebecca is now Evan. She began to feel her tight, muscular, athletic body. She reached down and felt her newest anatomical acquaintance: a penis. She could feel the blood flowing into it as it grew rapidly until it stood at full mast. The passionate wave of excitement and horniness that flooded her body was something she never felt before. As if by instinct, she wrapped her newly acquired man-hand around it’s shaft and began pumping. “Pretty self-explanatory, huh?” she grumbled to herself in her new bass timbred voice. The sensation of jerking-off was one she had once before trivialized as overexaggerated, but in the moment it now all made sense to her. Each stroke pumped a massive wave of pleasure that coursed through her newly manly physique in a way she never could have imagined. It wasn’t long before that wave of pleasure came bursting out the tip of her gorgeous large dick and splattered all over the tiled shower wall. He screamed almost as if in agony, but with absolute toe-curling pleasure. Rebecca felt light-headed for a moment. He turned off the shower and stepped out. The new Evan walked over to the bathroom sink to catch a look at himself in the mirror.

“Oh my God, I am so fucking sexy!” Rebecca growled at the reflection of Evan staring back at her. Rebecca was excited to go out into the world as Evan and take her chance at being Nicki’s next boyfriend, maybe even someday husband. She had forever waiting for her, but right now, it was time for her to get to know himself a little bit more. Rebecca was able to dial into Evan’s psyche like a rolodex in his head. His last name was Cavaretta, he grew up in Scotland. His parents are venture capitalists that live in Hong Kong. Evan is allergic to pine nuts. “I guess no more pesto for me, huh?” Rebecca said into his reflection in the mirror. Date of birth: October 31st 1988. “Halloween baby, that’s fun,” she mumbled to herself while inspecting the facial hair on his face in the mirror. “but not as fun as having this much hair on my face.” Rebecca ran his fingers through his short hair having never experienced anything shorter than a bob before. Rebecca caressed his hands all over his body, feeling the new sensation of every nook and cranny presented by the angular landscape of his incredibly muscular body. Now it was time to go get dressed. “I wonder what kind of stuff this guy has to wear!” boomed Rebecca proudly flaunting her new deep manly voice.

“So this is where I sleep, huh?” Rebecca asked aloud as if someone else would answer. Rebecca inspected the lackadaisically made bed. “Men...” he muttered to himself as he went on to properly tighten up the sloppy bed the previous occupant of this body left behind. Rebecca couldn’t help but catch a glance over his shoulder of Evan’s ass in the mirror on the wall. “This guy is really built like a statue carved by the gods” Rebecca mumbled while staring at that perfect specimen of an ass. “Lucky me” he shrugged arrogantly. Rebecca enjoyed the large mirror next to the bed because the show was absolutely jaw-dropping. That’s when Rebecca caught a glance at the clock and realized it’s almost that time when Nicki would be heading to the gym. “I should really get dressed” Rebecca told himself much to the chagrin of the mirror on the wall.

Rebecca rummaged through Evan’s large closet and found tons of clothes. A sexy pair of red underwear were one of the first to catch Rebecca’s eye. He put them on and was astonished at how amazing they felt, squeezing his tight ass like a warm hug and holding his perfect cock like a bird in the hand...a large bird, at that. Rebecca spotted a pale pink button down and put it on, “Not exactly gym attire, but nice to just check out how I fit into these clothes, mmm” he grumbled to himself. Rebecca continued to play dress up with the myriad of contents from Evan’s closet...well, her closet now. 

He admired the way the clothes fit his muscular body. He loved the way his giant pecs looked dying to escape and pop out of the very fabric that kept them bound. He loved unwrapping each outfit like it was gift-wrap hiding a wildly amazing present. Rebecca made silly faces in the mirror which gave him some insight as to how he could convey Evan’s personality. Smile. Scowl. Angry-face. Shock. Sad. The many faces of Evan yet to be mastered. Rebecca continued to try on different outfits, but one thing he realized was pants were a little different than expected. The tree trunk legs he had were about as difficult to squeeze into pants as he recalled squeezing into his very tight prom dress.

Rebecca had to manage, it was now time to go meet Nicki at the gym. Rebecca squeezed into a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and grabbed his gym duffel bag to head on over to Equinox to have his first planned casual run-in with Nicki as the official new Evan. Rebecca explored the sprawling mansion that Evan lived in as he attempted to figure where his phone, wallet and car keys were. Rebecca found his phone and wallet then grabbed this key with an Italian flag logo on it by the front door and went outside. He clicked a button on the key and the Lamborghini Urus SUV flashed and the doors clicked unlocked. Rebecca got in the car and it took him a moment to figure out how exactly it worked; it was definitely different than anything he had driven in his past life. The car roared to life and Rebecca took off the gym, “Holy shit, this thing is fast!” he exclaimed as the car sped off like rocket out of the driveway. In a few short minutes Rebecca arrived at the gym, with Nicki nowhere in sight. So while Rebecca waited for Nicki, he went in the locker room and changed into his gym clothes to begin his workout that he had studied from a distance in his previous female body. Rebecca kept track of Evan’s reps, sets, weights and preferred equipment. Now was the time to put the work into action. That was until Rebecca caught a glance of himself in the gym mirror and decided maybe a few gym mirror selfies before he started getting sweaty.

Nicki arrived. Thank god Rebecca had started working out this new body, because the sweat from nervousness was just shrouded in the glaze of a very hard workout that thankfully Nicki would more so appreciate. Rebecca looked at himself in the mirror one more time and reminded himself this is the moment he had been waiting for. “Nicki wants to fuck the shit out of you, you’re in control of this situation” Rebecca pep-talked himself in his head. Rebecca casually walked over to the water fountain in an effort to cross paths with Nicki, and noticed Nicki staring at him like she usually did. Only this time it was different, Rebecca wasn’t watching her stare at Evan, he was watching Nicki stare at himself, and boy did Rebecca like that. “What ‘appened to your mate?” Rebecca asked remembering he has an accent to perform. “Me?” Nicki shyly asked, looking around as if expecting him to be talking to someone else. Rebecca nodded. “She moved to Peru, she got an amazing job promotion, so now it’s just lonely workouts for me” Nicki shrugged. Rebecca thought seeing Nicki from this perspective was adorable. He had never seen her so bashful and delicate the way she was being just now. “If you’d like, you’re welcome to get a lift in with me.” Rebecca offered. Nicki happily accepted and they both spent the next two hours working out together. Nicki shared stories with Rebecca that he had already known about, but had to act curious and inquisitive as if trying to get to know her all over again. Rebecca shared stories from Evan’s brain rolodex about growing up at boarding school, traveling the world and his recent divorce from his ex-wife. This was a moment that Rebecca actually got to get to know the real Evan a lot, while sharing that information with Nicki. After their workout Rebecca asked Nicki if she wanted to hang a little more and come over to his house. She accepted the invitation. “Do you mind if I take a selfie of us to add to my Instagram story before we go?” Rebecca asked. And that’s when Rebecca snapped the photo that would be first of many.

Rebecca and Nicki get back to Evan’s house and Rebecca is now more nervous than before. Rebecca has no idea how to even operate as a guy trying to mack on a female. Maybe a little alcohol would help. Rebecca goes into the kitchen and finds a large wine cellar besides the pantry and pulls out a bottle of Tempranillo, Nicki’s favorite. “Oh my god! Tempranillo is my fave!” Nicki squealed as Rebecca returns to the living room with the bottle and two wine glasses balanced in his giant manly hands. Rebecca goes to open the wine bottle, with shocking ease as his new pythons could uncork the wine bottle like it was nothing. The two get to talking and drinking wine. Nicki continues to share stories from college that Rebecca already knows, and before they know it they’re polishing off their third bottle. Rebecca no longer nervous decides to cuddle up Nicki. Nicki cuddles her head up to Rebecca’s strong chest, resting her head on his pec. Rebecca is amazed by this new perspective. He realizes how much smaller Nicki is compared to his newly acquired large frame. Rebecca wraps his arm around Nicki’s shoulders and pulls her closer. She feels small, tight and toned, something Rebecca never truly got to feel in his past life as a woman. ”I’ve had the biggest crush on you for a little bit now,” Nicki admits, “probably since you first walked in the gym a couple months ago when you moved here.” Rebecca leans in and kisses Nicki right on lips. Lingering. “Yeah, I’ve been too bloody shy to talk you too babes” Rebecca replies, “and I’ve been really wanting to do this.” Rebecca kisses Nicki deeply and massages her tongue with his. He picks Nicki up and has her straddle him on his lap. Rebecca makes his way down Nicki’s neck feeling his beard hairs scratching her neck. Rebecca didn’t imagine how sexy it would feel until now. Soft gentle kisses down her cleavage as he grabbed her ass pulled her closer. He could feel his cock getting hard and slowly rub up on Nicki’s upper inner thigh. Nicki ripped off Rebecca’s shirt as Rebecca peeled away Nicki’s top and gently licked and kissed her nipples; Nicki moaned. “Let’s go to my room” Rebecca suggested. He picked Nicki up as she slipped her hand down his pants and grabbed onto his Adonis-like ass, and carried her through the house up the stairs to the bedroom.

They entered the room and Rebecca threw Nicki onto the bed. “Well, that was fun” he thought to himself as he flexed his giant arms in amazement at his own strength. Rebecca tore off his pants and then went on to unbutton Nicki’s. He brought his bearded face down to her crotch and started kissing her waist as he pulled the zipper of her pants down. The pants slid off, and so did Rebecca’s face right down to Nicki’s wet pussy. Nicki was so wet, Rebecca had no idea a female could even get that wet, at least not in his experience when he was a woman. He licked her pussy and drank that juice like spring water. Rebecca reached around and behind and fingered Nicki in the pussy while massaging her clit with his tongue. She squirt on Rebecca’s mouth. Rebecca’s dick was throbbing and he knew only one way to make it better. He moved up Nicki gently kissing her up her chest, across her breasts to her neck until they were passionately tongue-tied again. Rebecca could feel the tip of his cock gently stroke along the opening of Nicki’s pussy. Nicki cooed gently. Rebecca could feel the wet, inviting warmth of the lips between Nicki’s legs and he gently decided to bob his cock into her pussy. He could feel the walls of her pussy hug his cock as he pushed it in deeper and deeper. This was way better than the hand in the shower Rebecca thought to himself. Rebecca started to pound Nicki with more passion and rhythm, and Nicki started moaning. The percussion of their two bodies colliding felt like a supernova exploding throughout Rebecca’s body. Nicki screamed and dug her nails into Rebecca’s muscular back. Her titties bounced with effortless joy as Rebecca railed her like the pornstar he felt like. Then it came. Explosion. Rebecca could feel the hot cum shooting out of his dick into Nicki’s tight pussy. The wetness of her pussy with his cum gave Rebecca a sensation of pleasure beyond what he ever could expected. He pulled out his throbbing cock to see his white glistening cum dripping off the lips of Nicki’s pussy lips. As if by instinct, Rebecca took his hand and massaged Nicki’s pussy lips with the dripping cum and continued to penetrate her with his index and middle finger. Feeling her warm, wet clit, massaging his seed all up inside her. Then she screamed and moaned in a way Rebecca was not familiar. An orgasm. Nicki’s body shook and her toes curled. She dug her nails so hard in Rebecca’s back it broke some skin, but to Rebecca it felt good. Rebecca loved being Evan. Rebecca loved having sex with Nicki in Evan’s body. Rebecca loved being a man. Nicki and Rebecca laid together in bed, and as Nicki fell asleep, Rebecca thought of Paz back in the Amazon and how happy he was to do that ritual and start this new fulfilling life for himself.