manedingold

[manedingold]

𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝑰 𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕,

𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒖𝒑 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏’ 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔

𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒔𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔?

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅?

𝑩𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅 𝒖𝒑 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 

𝑰 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒊𝒓

 𝑰𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒔 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏, 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝑰 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆

Panic Attack- Scotty Sire

Independant, Semi Selective, Personal Headcanon based blog for Ambrosius Goldenloin from Nimona

𝔸 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕕𝕪 𝕚𝕟: ᴄᴏɴꜰʟɪᴄᴛɪɴɢ ʟᴏʏᴀʟᴛʏ | 𝐹𝒶𝓁𝓈𝑒 𝒫𝑒𝓇𝓈𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓈 | 𝔅𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔏𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 | ʍ��ʀǟʟɨȶʏ | 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓑𝓸𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓸𝓯 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 |  ̷H̷i̷d̷i̷n̷g ̷Y̷o̷u̷r ̷T̷r̷u̷e ̷S̷e̷l̷f | 𝕿𝖍𝖊 ����𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖔𝖋 𝕽𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖌𝖎𝖔𝖚𝖘 𝕯𝖊𝖛𝖔𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 | 🅐🅝🅧🅘🅔🅣🅨 | 𝙃𝙚𝙧𝙤 𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙭𝙚𝙨 | and..

Ｐｒｏｔｅｃｔｉｎｇ  Ｔｈｏｓｅ  Ｗｈｏｍ  Ｗｅ  Ｌｏｖｅ

[manedingold]

STAYING THE NIGHT PROMPTS

❝  don’t be ridiculous,  there’s enough room on this bed for both of us. ❞ 

❝  please stay.  i don’t think i can be alone tonight.  ❞

❝  i’m staying,  okay?  you don’t have to be alone tonight. ❞

❝  you shouldn’t be alone right now.  i’ll take the couch,  it’ll be fine.  ❞

❝  will you sleep with me?  i know how that sounds i just mean—  i feel safe when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i’ll be here the whole night okay?  nothing will get to you while i’m here.  ❞

❝  wait— have you been here all night?  ❞

❝  i thought you went home after i went to bed.  you didn’t have to do that— you could’ve at least joined me in bed that couch is shit for sleeping on.  ❞

❝  can i stay with you tonight?  i don’t wanna go home yet.  ❞

❝  it’s late,  you might as well just stay here.  ❞

❝  can you just…stay here?  and hold me.  ❞

❝  i know this might sound weird but,  do you wanna stay over?  i guess ‘sleepover’ sounds kind of childish but.  i think it’d be nice.  ❞

❝  i’m not expecting anything,  i just,  thought it’d be nice to keep you company tonight. ❞

❝  i don’t have nightmares when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i get you’re doing the whole protective thing— and i appreciate it.  i do,  but there’s no reason for you to stay awake all night.  might as well come to bed.  ❞

❝  thank you for staying.  it just gets so lonely at night sometimes.  ❞

❝  i don’t want you to be alone tonight and honestly,  i don’t really wanna be alone either.  ❞

❝  do you wanna stay with me tonight?  ❞

❝  stay,  please.  ❞

❝  i’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  end of discussion.  you gotta learn to let people take care of you.  ❞

❝  i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❞

❝  i don’t wanna have to say goodnight.  ❞

❝  honestly i can’t sleep,  so if you wanna stay up with me?  ❞

❝  i don’t sleep a lot either these days.  we can be insomniacs together.  ❞

❝  well,  i can think of some ways to wear you out.  ❞

❝  if you can’t sleep,  there are other things we could do.  ❞

❝  i’d rather fuck than stare at the ceiling counting sheep to be honest.  ❞

❝  it doesn’t have to mean anything,  i just don’t wanna feel lonely tonight.  and i want to feel good for once.  ❞

❝  please don’t go—  i need.  i need someone—  i need you.  ❞

❝  the night doesn’t have to end here,  you know.  ❞

❝  i like it when you’re here.  so stay.  please?  ❞

❝  you’re just as lonely as i am.  might as well be lonely together.  ❞

❝  you can stay but i’m not letting you sleep on that couch.  ❞

❝  chivalry is overrated,  get in my bed.  ❞

❝  you’re clearly exhausted.  you can go in the morning.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to pretend to be fine,  if you need me to stay i will.  ❞

❝  when i said i wanted everyone to leave me alone i didn’t mean you.  i can’t handle everyone else right now but you…you’re different.  ❞

❝  you need someone right now.  and i’m the one that’s here.  let me be what you need.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ GUARDED ]  sender insists on staying the night to keep watch over receiver who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ GUARDING ]  receiver insists on staying the night to keep watch over sender who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ UNEXPECTED ]  one muse stays the night to keep an eye on the other after something traumatic and they end up having comfort sex.

[ CONSOLE ]  sender asks receiver to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling.  

[ CONSOLED ]  receiver asks sender to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling. 

[ ACCIDENT ]  sender winds up staying at receiver’s house all night because receiver fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ UNPLANNED ]  receiver winds up staying at sender’s house all night because sender fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ STAY ]  sender is carrying receiver to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  receiver grabs their hand so sender joins them in bed. 

[ STAYING ]  receiver is carrying sender to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  sender grabs their hand so receiver joins them in bed. 

[ APPROACHED ]  sender is staying with receiver for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ APPROACH ]  receiver is staying with sender for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ SHARE ]  sender is unexpectedly staying with receiver overnight,  receiver insisted sender sleep on the bed while they take the floor but sender winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ SHARED ]  receiver is unexpectedly staying with sender overnight,  sender insisted receiver sleep on the bed while they take the floor but receiver winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ FOUND ]  sender is staying with receiver who had them take the bed while receiver takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  sender goes out to join receiver on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ FIND ]  receiver is staying with sender who had them take the bed while sender takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  receiver goes out to join sender on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ DISCOVERED ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender was watching over them. 

[ HAVEN ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender felt safer with them. 

[ WEARY ]  sender cries themselves to sleep in receiver’s arms. 

[ TIRED ]  receiver cries themselves to sleep in sender’s arms. 

[ PROPOSITION ]  one or both muse(s) are having trouble sleeping so they have sex to pass the time. 

[ PURPOSE ]  one muse can’t sleep so the other initiates sex to wear them out. 

[ TRAPPED ]  one muse ends up staying the night with the other due to a storm. 

[ KEEP ]  sender fell asleep on receiver and when receiver tries to get up,  sender whines so they stay put.  

[manedingold]

𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐝'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐨𝐧 — 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐂 𝐎 𝐋 𝐋 𝐀 𝐏 𝐒 𝐈 𝐍 𝐆 . 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐨𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐁 𝐀 𝐋 𝐀 𝐍 𝐂 𝐄 '𝐑𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐞 𝐠𝐨, 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐞 𝐠𝐨 . ♞ ⓒ

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[manedingold]

🌙 * ― 𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 ( a collection of various settings for drabbles or prompts, or both! )

001. a tattoo parlour, buzzing with machinery and walls lined with artwork . 002. a shopping mall, crowded and loud . 003. a cabin in the mountains, taking shelter from the snow storm. 004. an abandoned tea party, occupied with broken dolls . 005. the shooting range, empty casings clinking on the floor and sulphur in the air . 006. a music room, filled with melodies of an instrument . 007. an empty auto shop, hood of a car left open and quiet music coming through speakers . 008. a bright arcade, coins falling from machines and claws grabbing at soft toys . 009. the kennels, filled with barking dogs and excited companions . 010. a restaurant, where everyone is eerily quiet and staff are overly friendly . 011. a riding arena, with trained riders atop proud horses . 012. a mini golf course, sails of a windmill obscuring the path ahead . 013. a zoo, filled with an array of unique animals . 014. the docks of a bay, boats lining the decks . 015. a pond with ducks, seeking food . 016. a museum, displaying ancient bones and pottery of a history long ago . 017. a closed down prison, ghosts of violent history echoing in empty cells . 018. a quiet train station, lights overhead flickering and announcement board displaying errors . 019. the vast desert, scorching heat baring down at high noon . 020. the dark woods, filled with strange hanging symbols made of sticks . 021. a deep hole in the ground, covered by leaves and sticks . 022. a wishing fountain, base lined with copper coins of past wishes . 023. an abandoned picnic in an empty field, flask still warm with coffee . 024. a barn filled with hay and tools, old wood creaking in the wind . 025. a graveyard in the dead of night, wind howling through the trees . 026. a crumbling bridge above a raging river . 027. the refreshing waters of a lake, away from prying eyes . 028. the crossroads, in the middle of nowhere . 029. a cosy bonfire at summer camp, marshmallows roasting on the fire . 030. the top of a radio tower, with the perfect view of the surrounding area . 031. a lone phone box on a street corner . 032. a large elaborate temple dedicated to a deity, offerings still intact . 033. a drive-in movie theatre, cars empty and projector casting only light onto the screen . 034. a strange trail of breadcrumbs on a woodland path . 035. a haunted mansion, ancient paintings watching every footstep . 036. a decrepit mine located out in the hills, believed by locals to have a powerful curse cast upon it . 037. the edge of a cliff, overlooking the rough waves and distant sounds of approaching danger . 038. a road trip across country, music blaring through speakers . 039. a flower shop, filled with bouquets and a sweet aroma . 040. an airport in the early hours of the morning, deprived of sleep . 041. a train on its way to its destination, a sleeping passenger resting on a shoulder . 042. an abandoned shack filled with strange books of the occult and something mysterious bubbling on the stove . 043. an empty throne room, moonlight glimmering through tall windows . 044. an underwater tunnel in an aquarium, fish swimming overhead and sharks looming in the distance . 045. deep within unmarked cave located in the side of a mountain, lit only by a flare . 046. the dusty streets of a western town, watched by wary residents . 047. the back of a vast library, surrounded by books, when a black book falls from the highest shelf . 048. a room of an asylum, an abandoned camcorder left in the middle of the room . 049. the shores of an unknown beach, washed up from the ocean . 050. the deck of an unsteady ship, waves crashing against the haul and rain lashing down from dark clouds .

[manedingold]

“ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ”  (hehe hi bestie 💛)

Her words startle him a little - embarrassingly, he'd forgotten she was here. Staring out the window of their little coffee spot, he'd gotten lost in...somewhere beyond here. Someone beyond here...

A soft shake of his head attempts to dislodge the thought, though dark hair and doe eyes were never far from the surface of his mind. The action brings his attention to the small spoon in his hand...which has been stirring nothing into his tea for several minutes, probably, since the miniature pitcher of milk sits full and untouched next to his cup.

"...Nothing. Sorry, what were you saying?"

[manedingold]

⋆ ⁺ ₊ ⋆ ☀︎ showing affection.

add [ reverse ] to change sender and receiver's roles.

[ arm ] sender links arms with receiver.

[ back ] sender pats receiver on the back.

[ blanket ] sender wraps a blanket around receiver.

[ cheek ] sender kisses receiver's cheek.

[ chore ] sender does a chore they know receiver hates doing.

[ cook ] sender cooks for receiver.

[ feed ] sender feeds receiver a bite of their food.

[ flowers ] sender gives receiver some flowers.

[ forehead ] sender kisses receiver's forehead.

[ gift ] sender gives receiver a gift. specify what.

[ hair ] sender brushes receiver's hair.

[ hand ] sender kisses the back of receiver's hand.

[ picnic ] sender takes receiver out for a picnic.

[ ruffle ] sender ruffles receiver's hair.

[ take ] sender takes receiver's hand.

[ takeout ] sender shows up to receiver's place with dinner.

[ tea ] sender makes receiver a hot drink.

[manedingold]

[ MEND ]  for one muse to treat the other’s wounds they got from protecting them.  ( from Bal )

"I told you, Bal, it doesn't matter what he said--" The words are grumbled through a bloodied mouth, lower lip split and painting his chin with a line of crimson. The same crimson speckles his knuckles as long fingers flex in his lap, the memory of bones cracking as his fist made contact with that sneering, freckled face still stark in his mind.

"I warned him that if he opened his mouth one more time, he'd regret it. And he did."

Punishment from higher up be damned, Ambrosius would do it again. Even despite the long, jagged laceration down his forearm. Pulling a dagger in a fistfight was just unsportsmanlike, but looking back, he shouldn't have put it past Todd. Apparently, fighting with honor was beneath him.

[manedingold]

JEALOUS, FIERCLY PROTECTIVE & TERRITORIAL PROMPTS

feel free to edit pronouns as needed! content warning for some strong language,  threats and implied violence.

to each other:

❝  you’re mine. only mine.  ❞

❝  i’m all yours.  ❞

❝  mine.  ❞

❝  yours.  ❞

❝  we belong to each other.   ❞

❝  you belong to me.  ❞

❝  i belong to you.  only ever you.  ❞

❝  i just didn’t like the way they were looking at you.  like you weren’t mine.  ❞

❝  you know i’m yours,  right?  i only have eyes for you.  ❞

❝  no one else is ever gonna have a chance with me.  you’re it.  you’re all i want.  ❞

❝  i chose you.  and i need you to trust that my decision is final.  trust me.  ❞

❝  wait are you jealous?  ❞

❝  aw,  baby.  it’s cute when you’re jealous.  ❞

❝  i don’t like the way they keep staring at you.   ❞

❝  i don’t like how they keep staring at me.   ❞

❝  are they making you uncomfortable?  i can do something about it.  ❞

❝  no one should even get to look at you unless you want them to.  ❞

❝  stop—  it’s okay.  they’re not worth your anger.  just kiss me.  ❞

❝  stop saying i’m jealous.  i’m not—  i just.  i don’t like having to share. ❞

❝  i’m not jealous,  who said i’m jealous?  ❞

❝  well if i’m all yours then kiss me like it.  ❞

❝  show everyone who i belong to.  ❞

❝  i’m gonna remind them you’re mine.  ❞

❝  i want everyone here to see that you’re mine.  ❞

❝  i want everyone here to see that i’m yours.  ❞

❝  hey—  look at me.  why are you all upset?  ❞

❝  you can’t keep getting your feathers all ruffled when anyone else gives me attention.  ❞

❝  they don’t deserve you—  i don’t deserve you.  but at least i’m aware of it.  ❞

❝  i promise there’s no one else.  you have my heart completely.  ❞

❝  hey,  is this asshole bothering you?  ❞

❝  tell me you’re mine.  ❞

to a third party:

❝  get the fuck away from them!  ❞

❝  look at them like that again and you’ll won’t be seeing anything.  ❞

❝  don’t you dare touch them.  ❞

❝  yeah it’s time to walk the fuck away.  ❞

❝  you’re gonna lose a finger if you don’t get outta my sight right now.  ❞

❝  you heard them,  get lost.  ❞

❝  lucky for you,  i don’t wanna ruin their night.  but i see you sniffing around here again you might not be so fortunate.  ❞

❝  you wanna lose a limb?  beat it,  fucker.  ❞

❝  see,  i woulda left it alone.  but you made them fucking cry.  so now you’re gonna lose your eyes.  ❞

❝  hey,  they said ‘no.’  ❞

❝  hey asshole,  shut the fuck up or i’ll make you shut up.  ❞

❝  what did you just say to them,  you little shit?  ❞

❝  oh yeah.  now you’re all quiet.  not so bold when you’re not the toughest guy in the room,  huh?  ❞

❝  get lost.  ❞

❝  go.  ❞

❝  leave.  before my patience runs out.  ❞

❝  get the fuck outta their face.  ❞

❝  hey,  that’s enough.  ❞

actions:

[ CLAIM ]  for one muse to possessively place their hands on their shoulders or hips. 

[ HOLD ]  for one muse to slide their arm around the other in a possessive way. 

[ SHELTER ]  for one muse to lean into the other’s side or hug them to seek comfort from a crowd or individual while in public. 

[ STAKE ]  for one muse to protectively and/or possessively stand behind the other to intimidate a third party. 

[ RESCUE ]  for one muse to intervene upon seeing a third party making the other one uncomfortable. 

[ CHASE ]  for one muse to interrupt and make a third party leave the other alone out of jealousy/possessiveness. 

[ TENSION ]  for one muse to get in a fight on behalf of the other. 

[ STOP ]  for one muse to break up a fight which started because of them. 

[ MEND ]  for one muse to treat the other’s wounds they got from protecting them. 

[ SCOLD ]  for one muse to treat the other’s wounds they got from fighting over them. 

[ CARESS ]  for one muse to possessively kiss the other in public.

[ TAKE ]  for one muse to passionately kiss the other,  fueled by jealousy. 

[ TAUNT ]  for one muse to flirt with a third party to try and get the other to act possessively. 

[ REMIND ]  for our muses to have passionate sex meant to remind one party who they belong to. 

[ EMBRACE ]  for one muse to dominate the other due to possessiveness/jealousy. 

[ LINKED ]  for one muse to hold the other’s hand in public to stake claim. 

[ INTERTWINE ]  for one muse to hold the other’s hand in public in a comforting manner. 

[manedingold]

𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

“ am i not good enough? ”  

“ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ”  

“ why did you help me? ”  

“ who do you fight for? ”  

“ why do you hate me? ”  

“ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ”  

“ you’re not dating anyone, are you? ”  

“ i’ve got your back, okay? ”  

“ where do you think you’re going? ”  

“ how long have i been asleep? ”  

“ are you going to kill me? ”  

“ why can’t i come with you? ”  

“ we all have secrets, don’t we? ”  

“ did you want to be alone? ”  

“ why should i trust you? ”  

“ wait. did you hear that? ”  

“ promise me? ”  

“ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ”  

“ do you remember anything at all? ”  

“ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ”  

“ you wanna know what your problem is? ”  

“ may i have this dance? ”  

“ can i ask… what happened? ”  

“ how many people have you killed? how many? ”  

“ do you ever hear yourself? ”  

“ would you run away with me? ”  

“ could you be happy here with me? ”  

“ you can’t or you won’t? ”  

“ you slept with them, didn’t you? ”  

“ well, how do i look? ”  

“ after all you’ve done how can i possibly trust you? ”  

“ why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of? ”  

“ what did they do to you? ”  

“ so why’s it so important anyway? ”  

“ where have you been? ”  

“ why are you looking at me like that? ”  

“ why did you come? ”  

“ what are you doing out here by yourself? ”  

“ is… that my shirt you’re wearing? ”  

“ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ”  

“ why does it always have to be a fight with you? ”

“ why can’t you look me in the eye? ”  

“ can you forgive me? ”  

“ what if i never see you again? ”  

“ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ”  

“ how about a little midnight snack? ”  

“ are you… smelling me? ”  

“ how did you get this scar? ”  

“ what do you want in exchange for it? ”  

“ what did you want to tell me? ”  

[manedingold]

random sentence starters from the walking dead (part 2)

did you mean what you said last night? that you’d go with me?

why did you come for me?

there’s nothing wrong with me. 

i’m gonna die, so there’s nothing wrong with me anymore.

you can look away now, and someone else dies.

give them what they want, and we live in peace.

now’s not the time.

this is not our life.

there’s nothing left in this world that isn’t hidden. you just have to find it.

if you’re still standing, it’s always on somebody else’s back.

sickos, headed this way!

how do you sleep at night?

this sounds like a suicide mission.

this was our world, apart from everyone else, in every way.

you did this. this is because of you.

what happened here?

how the hell are we supposed to do this? are we supposed to just stop fighting?

to get to our future, it’s going to take more than just fighting.

there’s got to be something after the fighting.

all i’ve done are things i’ve never done.

there are people coming right now to hurt this place, and i’m standing here waiting to help.

stop asking me what i’ve done and start telling me what to do.

growing up is making yourself and the people you love safe.

things happen. they happened before, too.

i want to make you feel safe.

i want you to feel like i felt when you held my hand. 

you’re selfish, and you’re a coward, and you’re a traitor. 

you turned your back on the only friends you ever had.

you’ll get what you want, you’ll live, but we’re gonna force you to do something useful with your pathetic life.

let’s draw strength from each other and do what we need to do.

think about everything they’ve done to you.

the way out is working together.

start over. you still can.

winning is about killing every last one of them. 

it was dangerous, i didn’t think about that. i should have.

all that’s left of the people we lose, what was theirs… are their ideas.

to justify everything we’ve lost, we must risk losing everything.

we’re not losing shit.

you can be here, but you’re not with us.

we are worse than we were, me and you.

we lost everything good. 

we haven’t lost everything. not yet.

there’s got to be something after.

we are life. that is death, and it’s coming for us.

me? i’m a piece of shit.

you go. you keep going. don’t you ever come back here again.

you still have time to make it right.

i’ll make sure they’re protected.

a horde’s coming. bug out, now!

we gotta get the hell out of here. 

you got something for the pain?

i don’t regret what i did. 

some people can be redeemed, but others can’t.

you think i’m picking a fight, think i’m being unreasonable?

there’s a new enemy out there.

we all set out with the best intentions.

i don’t regret the time i spent out there with you. i don’t.

now we know what’s out there, and we can’t pretend otherwise.

there is a group dressed as the dead trying to kill us.

by the time you see them, you’re already dead. 

what the hell was that?

you choose self preservation over revenge, and you think that earns you my trust?

that is god telling us to turn around.

you have to do whatever it takes to protect what you love, even from themselves.

i thought a spear might be easier for you.

why are you doing this? helping me?

you didn’t want to go back, did you?

there’s no reason for you to risk your life for me.

you live with it by staying who you are and not letting the bad things change you.

i don’t ever want to let go of you.

i’m gonna be okay. so will you, okay?

the world is just shit sometimes, and you live with it. sometimes that’s all you can do.

i did what i had to do today. we all did.

these people, they won’t stop. 

i couldn’t live with it.

you said i had choices. you have them, too.

it could be 30 years for us here. that’s still too short.

if you have a roof over your head, you have food, you have walls, then you have choices.

i thought that i couldn’t ask you to risk your life. but i can, ‘cause i know what you’d be risking it for.

i get that you’re afraid.

you don’t have to do it. you don’t have to be alone again.

i wanted you here because you’re alone, probably for the first time in your life. 

don’t kill any more of them than you have to.

wait - thank you.

i hate this. i hate this. 

your world is already dead. 

i’ll handle it, okay?

you already screwed up once. i’m not gonna let you get us all killed.

you trust me, don’t you? how about trusting a few other people who made a change?

all this loss will maybe add up to something.

i’ll try to find a way to make everyone feel safe.

words are a lot easier to live with than actions, alright?

i’m not letting go of this baby.

[manedingold]

You are not always going to have the inspiration to write. And that’s okay.

      You are not always going to have the energy to write. And that’s okay. 

          You are not always going to have the time to write. And that’s okay. 

Real life and health are more important than RP. Remember to take care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. And, please, never push yourself for the sake of this hobby.  Real life and health are more important than RP.

[manedingold]

|| You. Yes, you. If I followed you, it's because I want to interact with you! Please be understanding; I have severe social anxiety and if I don't reach out first, it's because I'm terrified to. But just know - my IMs are open. My asks are open. Do NOT hesitate to reach out! Okay, on to the real promo:

The Loins of Gold are present!

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18+ muns ONLY, no minors

Find my past blogs here to get a feel for my writing: - Killian Jones (kind of going through a revival) - Kanda Yuu (inactive) - Animated Disney Multimuse (inactive)

You can also use those blogs to see my About and Rules while I get this blog up and running.

[manedingold]

This man...

What Ambrosius wouldn't give to have half of whatever made Ballister...well, Ballister. The determination to see through anything and everything he set his mind to. The bold, brazen attitude he had to have in order to put himself on the same playing field as those born more noble (whatever that's supposed to mean). The absolute heart it took to keep going day after day, with everyone looking down on him and telling him he can't, just to stand up and look them in the eye and say "Yes I can--"

This man...

Was about to be down for the count for several days because he didn't know when to fucking quit. And if Ambrosius didn't think it would make the raven-haired man lose consciousness, he'd shake Ballister by the shoulders and ask him what the hell he was thinking.

But he doesn't need to. The blonde knows what's going on in that rugged, troubled brain of his. And more than anything, he wants to wrap the man in a cushioned shield and protect him from the judgmental, hateful faces of the world. Tell him he's wonderful, and not let the voices of anyone else cloud that sentiment.

His mouth creases as his lips press tightly together and curve south in a scowl, gaze venomously boring holes in the door at the end of the corridor. His grip grows tighter where he holds the waist of his companion, so lost in thought that he very nearly misses Ballister's words. All at once his features relax, eyes blinking rapidly to attempt returning to the here and now as he forces a tight smile at the other man. Without noticing, his feet had turned toward the dorms, and now he has to figure out how to make it sound intentional...

"The dorms, unless you fight me on it. Give me too much trouble, and I'll hand you over to the nurses."

He would never. They both know it.

*Send   “ You don’t look so good, ”   for my muse to sway on their feet. Send “ I don’t feel so good … ” for the reverse. 📨 ➤   @manedingold  [ ; ] "You don’t look so good..." || Concerned boyfriend? Concerned boyfriend! Also, uh, hi? ^^;

𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐄𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑, 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐍𝐄𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄. Still he continues to go through the practice drills, old learned routines with a stubborn clench of his jaw. He knows he's starting to get sick, but he can't afford to miss on anything. He can ignore it, pull through if he focuses hard enough. He has to stay on top of his studies & practices or he'll fall behind . . . He can't afford to fail, not with so much hinging on his success.

His thoughts begin to spiral, a hazy swirl of drain circling motions, ideas that blur into one another like watercolour droplets. It's hard to focus on much else over the thankfully repetitive motion of each downwards swing, the bit of strength expended into each forceful jab forth. His footwork is sloppy, the frustrated fumble he does in trying to catch himself when he does inevitably find himself slipping one that only makes it worse. He yelps, nearly making intimate friends with the floor below, before he's thankfully stopped mid flail.

❝ Ambrosius? ❞

Familiar hands help right him back up again, staying firm on his upper arms, giving a worried squeeze before one leaves to feel along his forehead. Sweat beads beneath the few stray bangs that escape his ponytail, no doubt only adding to his foolishly feverish appearance. He braces for what'd come next, scolding from well-meaning intent or the scoffed huff that he was stubborn. In his current state, he forgets who it is he's dealing with, when Ambrosius instead moves to gently pry his fingers from the training sword handle still clutched in his hand, turning back to shoot him a twitchy but attempted reassuring smile.

Ballister let's it go with a huff, reaching up to rub at his eyes where the light from above starts to give him a headache. Too bright, it's irritating, only furthering that thunder like drum deep in his head.

A shoulder lightly bumps against his, but there's a hand already reaching around to steady him as he's guided by the other step by step to the training rooms edge. Ambrosius doesn't ask, not right away, & for that, Ballister is thankful. It gives him some time to think it over, to try composing his own reasoning. But even to himself, now it just sounds . . . childish. Petulant, stupid. Leaning more into the blonde's side, Ballister sighs again, but shoots his companion a thankful smile from the corner of his eye.

❝ Are we heading to the infirmary or dorms? I think it's the start of a cold . . . I just figured it wasn't too bad. ❞

[manedingold]

a gentle reminder for those who may be struggling...

you being here and having fun writing with others is enough to be in the rpc. you are enough just by virtue of being present. you are loved, you will find your crowd, and you have so many stories to write. don't compare yourself with others - instead focus on doing what brings you happiness and fulfillment.

i'm so glad you're here. i'm so glad you're alive. 💕

[manedingold]

romance & relationship headcanons!

i know this topic is a bit overdone, but i wanted to make a more sfw romance & relationship headcanon meme! most if not all of these questions are related to romance and topics that may arise within romantic relationships, but without explicit nsfw topics!

1. what is your muse's sexual/romantic orientation? 2. has your muse been mainly attracted to masculinity, femininity, androgyny, or an even split (between two, many, or all of the options specified)? 3. has your muse been mainly attracted to men, women, non-binary people, another identity not specified, or an even split (between two, many, or all of the options specified)? 4. does your muse find any specific features particularly attractive? 5. what is your muse's ideal first date? 6. would your muse kiss on the first date? 7. where is your muse most sensitive? 8. is your muse a good kisser? are they experienced or inexperienced? 9. is your muse monogamous or polyamorous? would they be interested in a polyamorous relationship? 10. has your muse ever been cheated on? would they ever cheat on their partner(s)? 11. how comfortable is your muse with their appearance and their body? 12. does your muse get flustered easily? how would they typically react to compliments from someone they are interested in/dating? 13. what traits does your muse value in a romantic partner? 14. what traits does your muse want to avoid when it comes to choosing a romantic partner? 15. how does your muse feel about valentine's day? 16. what is/are your muse's love language(s)? 17. what are some of the signs that your muse shows their care/love without saying they love/care about their partner? 18. how does your muse feel about marriage? would they ever want to get married? 19. how many serious relationships has your muse been in? are they experienced or inexperienced when it comes to dating? 20. how does your muse feel about public displays of affection? would they engage in them? 21. is your muse more flirtatious or shy, or does it depend on the context? 22. does your muse tend to take on a more dominant or submissive role in the relationship, or does it vary based on circumstance? 23. would your muse be good at recognizing their partner's needs right away, or would it take some time? 24. is your muse proactive in communication with their partner(s), or is this something they need to work on? 25. does love and romance mean a lot to your muse? do they seek it constantly or let it come when it does? 26. is your muse more likely to be loud and proud about being in a relationship, or are they more quiet about it at first and open up about it over time? 27. is your muse more confident or shy when it comes to approaching someone they like? 28. would it bother your muse if they had differing interests from their partner(s), or would they delight in it? 29. how important is having (a) physically attractive partner(s) to your muse? 30. would your muse ever be in an open/non-exclusive relationship? would it make them insecure, or would they be open to trying it? 31. does your muse develop crushes easily? would they be open about it to a friend or keep it to themselves? 32. does your muse have an ideal "type"?

[manedingold]

THE TINIEST DETAILS: CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT QUESTIONS

do they drive? if so, do they enjoy driving or do they hate it? or somewhere in between?

if they drive, where is their favorite location to drive to?

if they drive, do they own a vehicle? if so, what make and model?

what bumper stickers do they have on their car?

what paintings and/or posters are on their walls?

what is a song they listen to with the windows rolled down, turned all the way up, on the highway?

is there an artform they've always wanted to try (glassblowing, woodworking, painting, ect) but never have? if so, what about that artform speaks to them?

what time of day do they usually start getting sleepy?

do they catch a second wind? if so, what is their method for catching it (napping, drinking coffee, exercising, ect)?

are they a nap person? if so, how long are their naps? do they set a 20 minute timer and wake up before it? or set no timer and wake up in the middle of the night?

what is the most obscure book they've read?

what is a book that interested them so much they took it with them to the bathroom?

what did the air smell like during their childhood?

what is a core memory from their childhood that they look back on fondly and for comfort?

when was the last time they were held, and truly held, for several minutes? who was it with?

do they meditate? if not, have they ever tried? how did it go?

how many pennies and quarters do they have in their couch?

how dusty is their home? spotless, lived-in, dust bunny haven?

what is their favorite chocolate bar?

do they like their brownies fudgy or cakey? or not at all, and only want the crusts?

whats that one weird food combination that everyone else thinks is gross but they think is delicious?

where do they put their shoes when they come home from a long day?

after a vacation, do they immediately unpack or slowly retrieve items from their suitcase until its empty?

how often do they do self-reflection?

are they more afraid of being alone with themselves or with others?

have they ever had a near death experience? if so, what was it?

out of all the subjects in school, which was their favorite? which one did they excel at?

how many alarms do they have set on their phone? what is their alarm ringtone?

do they fart in front of other people? or do they hide their farts?

do they have to see any specialist doctors? if so, do they have a strong bond with their doctor or do they dislike them?

what is their favorite seasoning?

what is their favorite sauce?

how spicy is spicy for them? (pepper, jalepeno, ghost pepper, ect)

how long do they let the dishes go unwashed?

how much laundry do they accumulate before doing it?

what shampoo, conditioner, cologne/perfume and deodorant do they use?

[manedingold]

🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑪𝑲𝑻𝑨𝑰𝑳 𝑸𝑼𝑰𝒁. ( send one or multiple of these to learn a little more about my muse(s). )

[ mai tai ]  if they could have any superpower in the world, what would they choose? [ white russian ]  what would they do if they won the lottery? [ grasshopper ]  what / who would they dress up as for halloween? [ tequila sunrise ]  how would they spend their perfect day? [ californication ]  what do they think is their greatest achievement in life? [ caipirinha ]  if they could change one thing about themself, what would it be? [ painkiller ]  what is their greatest regret? [ moscow mule ]  if they could travel through time, where would they go? [ dry martini ]  what is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to them? [ tom collins ]  which living person would they most want to meet? [ greyhound ]  if they could have a dinner with just one person ( dead or alive ) who would they choose? [ planter's punch ]  how long does it take to befriend them? [ sangria ]  do they have any special routines they follow every single day? if yes, which? [ whiskey sour ]  what is the biggest lie they ever told someone? [ zombie ] do they believe in life after death? [ margarita ]  what are their biggest pet peeves? [ mojito ]  what is one goal they are working towards? [ appletini ]  who do they consider the most important person in their life? why? [ cosmopolitan ]  what is their happiest memory ever? [ gin tonic ]  who influenced them the most? [ bloody mary ]  what would they do if they only had one week left to live? [ manhattan ]  where would they like to travel the most? [ old fashioned ]  what would their adult self tell their kid self if they could go back in time? [ blue lagoon ]  how do they typically react when faced with something they fear? [ sidecar ]  what type of person are they most likely drawn to? [ negroni ]  what is one piece of advice they would give others? [ hurricane ]  which song describes them the most? why? [ sex on the beach ]  what do they consider red flags in a relationship? [ mimosa ]  which incident shaped them the most? [ long island iced tea ]  if they had the chance to redo their life, what would they do differently the second time around? [ mint julep ]  which was their dream job as a kid? [ singapore sling ]  how do they react to disappointments? [ alexander ]  what would they do with one million dollars / euros / pounds / whatever currency they use? [ screwdriver ]  which habit do they wish they could get rid of? [ gin fizz ]  do they consider a glass half-full or half-empty? [ aperol spritz ]  which is one thing they still think about a lot? [ piña colada ]  how do they show affection? [ swimming pool ]  what is the most important lesson they've learned in recent years? [ b52 ]  how would they describe themselves in as few words as possible? [ daiquiri ]  do they believe in true love? why or why not?