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Society is a joke

When I first started doing calisthenics I lost almost 11KG of weight. To my surprise I was 54KG from 65KG within 6months of doing HIIT. I didn't had enough muscles. But I made a promise to myself never to look back.

I didn't wish a physique like an athlete. I wanted and I was willing to work for it. The whole society made fun of me including my own family. But to me it didn't matter. I just kept going on. Learning new techniques progressing slowly and packing muscles slowly.

After almost 18months I turned from 54KG to 63KG. It is not a huge transformation. But Now I am seeing serious gains. Because in the beginning you don't do enough heavy exercises but as you progress you will see big results.

In first 6months I gained 3KG weight. Next 6months No gain or maybe 1KG. And final 6 months 5KG gain. Its been 3months since my last weigh in. So I don't know my exact weight at the moment.

But this post is about society not my muscle gain🤣. I kept working on maintainence calories. Keeping my body fat under 10% for almost 18months. And Now everyone was like you have abs seriously? And I was like I don't know I just have these boxes on my stomach are these abs? 🤣

So, This post is about society. If you will do something different people will hate you in the beginning and then they will start praising you and find relation with you once you achieve something.

I don't workout because I need a beautiful women or something. The idea for working out and keeping my fat under 10% is to build a body that has both endurance and power. So, I don't fail to survive in this glamorous world of thieves.

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I Suck at Everything

I am a man and therefore I am mad, crazy, stupid, weak and everything. I say things and then fail to achieve anything in my life. For years I have been struggling with my habits.

I read somewhere a man is just an habit animal who can control habits. But I have been struggling to cure my bad habits for years. No success here as well. I make excuses for everything.

I tell myself I am great and I will achieve something worthwhile but in the end deep down I know I will end up dead. The only choice that I have every time I wake up is to improve or stay as is. I have a dream. A dream I want more than all the human pleasures.

But I can't have it unless I can control myself. I need to change. It is necessary. The universe gave me opportunities once again and this time I am not gonna dishonor the gift universe gave me. Time management, Mindfulness, Discipline, Exercise, and lastly achieving daily goals will be my focus from this day.

I know I can do whatever I say all it take is a simple decision of not surrendering to your desire to rest but standing up and hustling till the end. Become what you want to be, follow the path you built for yourself.

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I'm a delusional man

For the first time in my life I had a Clear goal. The story begins when I started programming in Java. I wanted to be a software engineer. A person who makes Computing faster, better, smarter everyday.

I was just a kid back then so I did some digging on the internet and to my understanding I need to pursue B.Tech in Computer Science. So, I decided to do so. I learnt C in 12th standard. My biggest problem was I was not good at remembering things that I don't like. Take example of organic chemistry 😅.

I was ready to sit in IIT exam. For the first time someone in my whole family was trying to crack IIT. So, Everyone praised and prayed for me. My elder brother took me to the exam center. I sat in the exam room and tried questions one by one. I took a risk of ticking 40 or more answers I don't remember the correct figure.

When I came out I knew I'm not going to IIT. But the problem was I didn't fill any other exam form. When my brother asked me how was your exam? I couldn't tell him the truth. A person who sat under sun for almost 3hrs because of me doesn't deserve to feel that it was for nothing. At least for today. So, I lied that I will get selected.

Finally the result came I scored 40 marks🤣. People called me a joke. My relatives made fun of me. I felt dishearted. But it's fine my father said and asked me to search some descent college. Finally, I selected MIET. But my father didn't had enough cash at the moment to get into that college. So, I joined their other branch the MIT, not MIT California 🎓.

First day of my college. I was excited as hell. I was eager to learn how to build softwares. But to my surprise they taught us Physics, Chemistry, maths, and other shit subjects. Nothing related to Computer.

One subject the C language related to Computer science. I thought they will teach me something in this. But they taught me nothing in first-year of my B. Tech which I didn't already knew. Believe me I felt cheated. They took 1,20000 fee from me for making fool out of me. Since then I never showed any interest in my college.

I learnt everything from the Internet. Today I am a Full Stack Developer and can built any website I want. But how much credit goes to College 0% no -100% because College slowed my learning with their exams and other shit. 💯 Credit to Internet and Jio for giving me a medium to self study.

I wanted to drop out in 1st year but to my surprise no software engineer will get a job without B. Tech. I wanted to drop out in second year same restrictions till this date. Now I am in final year and feel like I am caged. Soon, I Will be free. I might not be the greatest software developer alive. But I am not gonna be the worst that is a promise I made to myself.