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The "cell phone with a shitty battery" metaphor for CFS really is one of the best/most complete metaphors for it. I've been thinking a lot about how people really don't understand the combination of "seems basically able bodied sometimes" and "uses a complex powerchair" and how to help them understand and once again the battery metaphor is coming in clutch.

I've owned many a shitty barely-hanging-on smartphone in my life due to being poor and also having a hard time with change. Technically, a phone that doesn't stay charged can do everything a normal phone can. Play games, make phone calls, play music, etc. But generally, if you have a phone like this you're not going to be playing games on it when you're out and about, especially if you need it in case you get lost or stranded. For the same reason, I don't do things like walk or run when I'm out and about. If my body's battery dies because I overdo it I have to lay on the ground/floor, which is uncomfortable and can be unsafe. I'm more comfortable doing energy-consuming tasks in my apartment for the same reason a person might feel comfortable watching youtube videos on their broken-battery phone at home. If the battery dies, you can easily and safely recharge. In general, you still avoid draining the battery to the point of failure, though, because if it's completely drained it will need a bit of time to recharge before you can use it again.

Getting my permobil chair was like getting the option to turn on power saver mode. When I tilt my chair back it turns off a lot of my body's background programs like "use core to keep body upright" and "hold head up". I'm still using power, but it's greatly reduced, which means I can be away from my charger (bed or couch) for much longer. My battery isn't fixed and it isn't being charged, so it's still possible for me to power down, but less so. I'm also less anxious and more able to have fun because my battery isn't in the red the second I get outside my house.

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i have a friend who has kinda bad eczema on their right hand but their left hand is fine and thats because acidity makes eczema worse and that includes vaginal acidity and my friend is both a lesbian and a slut so they finger a lot of people and that fucks up the hand they use (their right hand). Anyways do you think BBC sherlock would deduce that by looking at my friend’s hands

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I ONLY read kink fics when they have an EXPLICIT negotiation BEFORE the scene (reading the ao3 tags✅), a checkin DURING the scene (I didn’t tab away and continued to read👍🏼) and aftercare AFTER the scene (leaving kudos ❤️and a lil comment💬)

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boop! forgot to post this here

also a lil bonus if you wanna connect it to my other post :3

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so in an attempt to actually use positive thinking, anytime i fuck up and my brain reacts as if ive cause a minor apocalyptic event, i compare my fuck up to the 4 minute fuck up committed by the crew of the uss william d porter.

and only today, as i was having to explain what happened to my mom when i was explaining the whole comparison thing, did i realise that most people dont know about it and ive decided that needs to change because its objectively hilarious.

...which is a weird thing to say about an event that occured on a warship in 1943, specifically november 14th.

see the uss william d porter was a fletcher-class destroyer but you dont need to know what that means, just that she had guns that went bang bang and that she was escorting another ship, the uss iowa, to cairo.

while they were on their way there, they performed some gun trials like testing the anti-aircraft guns or the torpedos. and while they were running a torpedo drill, the crew of the porter managed to fire a live torpedo straight at the iowa which you know, in terms of a list of things to do while escorting a ship, shooting a torpedo at them is not on that list.

especially if the president of the united states is on board.

yeah so fdr was on board and the gun trials were actually his idea, and part of the trials was that they were conducted under radio silence.

and that means the crew of the porter couldnt just call the iowa to be like "move out the way, we accidentally shot a torpedo at you."

but they did have signal lamps and you know, the signalman on board was trained to signal this exact kind of message.

...and uh never mind, the signalman did manage to successfully tell the iowa that a torpedo was coming toward them but wasnt as successful when it came to the direction the torpedo was coming from.

not all hope is lost though because the signalman could still use the signal lamp to correct his previous mistake and-, never mind, he announced that the porter was reversing, which she wasnt.

yeah so at catastrophic mistake number 3, they broke radio silence to warn the iowa and she managed to turn out of the way just in time which meant no one got hurt. and even though the inquiry into the incident led to chief torpedoman (fantastic job title btw) lawton dawson being sentences to hard labour, fdr intervened and waved away his sentence, saying it was all an accident.

but yeah, so thats my new measure for "how much did i really fuck up?" and when i compared accidentally picking up a pencil case without a tag on it in wilko, turns out it was a very minor fuck-up. yes, the cashier had to ask another worker to grab a duplicate so they could scan the barcode, but i didnt nearly kill the president during wartime via accidental friendly fire

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selkie studies for a warmdown

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Transfem Armand is my favorite Armand and she is the only Armand in my head.

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Kaoru Yamada

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a heem heem………………………………sshasagjkrhf………… ouhg……..

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"I wish we met sooner" is such a gentle sentiment. I love you so much I not only want you in my future, but in my past too. I want to have known you when we were small stupid kids, have held hands together as we played outside. I want to have stressed out over exams together, nudging a mug of still steaming hot chocolate against your elbow to get you to focus. I want to have told you I love you before I did anyone else. I want to have held you in my arms when all those sad memories you describe to me were still fresh wounds. I want my past to have been full of you, and full of meaningful memories with you. I want my past lives to have been spent with you, whether as two lovers, or two housecats cuddling by the fireplace on a snowy day, or two flowers that just happened to bloom on the same day, next to each other. I want to have consumed your existence and intertwined it with my own since my birth, never to be separated from you for a moment. I want to have loved you throughout it all, for all time.

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mr mystery wear !

Day 1 of Stan Dress Up Week

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just made it!

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created this for my mom ❤️ by kizzbaerriess