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2 years since i touched this website, slowly reminiscing the old times that I've slowly thrown away behind me.

As an old saying goes, "Let bygones be bygones"

To which i reply, "That i shall"

I'm proud of what I succeeded at this point of time. The clock kept tickin, while I kept holding on those same aspirations that once held me back.

There has been quite a ton of changes ever since then. But I only have such a little time to tell you those stories.

Perhaps, one day a drink of wine in a fine evening would be a perfect time for that?

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If i told you how this story ends

Would you change a step you take?

Or would you keep on moving

Even if the end awaits?

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I want to die..

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Questions

It has been a wild adventure, and my journey is about to end.

While a new horizon reveals itself.

What secrets may it reveal to me is still encrypted

I've gone too far

And dived too deep

You changed and so did i

But i dont know you anymore

Questions in my head

Pops

Saying, "Do you still care? "

Or " Have you forgotten and moved on"

Am I worth it? Or am I worthless?

Am I nothing? Or am I your everything?

Hard to believe, yet easy to understand.

What secrets are you holding

Time is running out

Water is rising

My head is ringing

Because pressure builds upon me

For I am

Drowning

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Archive # 1

(Technically.. This isnt archive 1 essentially its supposed to be no. 4 or so but hey.. )

Years passed

Time moved

Heavy feelings in my chest

That once pulled me up and raised me

Now are the ones weighing me down

Lying on the floor

In hopes, someone would give their hand

Am i waiting for something so surreal?

Am i waiting for something that isn't coming?

Or am i a hypocrite in doing these

The same mistakes, lingering behind me

Are the one's who came back to finish what they started

Floors of pearl turned red

Gloss replaced by a loss

You were shimmering

Now shivering

Looking at your remains

Drenched with the water of life

You're now looking at your dead body, reminiscing your old memories, and things you should and shouldn't have done, regret is what you wanted in the beginning, No? Then you are a fool for believing something so preverse

You are nothing but a canvas for your pencil..

Your body is a canvas , A knife a pencil

Now draw, and see yourself in beauty, while others shriek for you are troubled and messed

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I'm still surprised you stayed.. But maybe not the same as before..

Maybe my dream was right.

Then its just all lies, dunno why i believed.

I'm a fool.

Right?

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See you everyone...

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Need sleep

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Random Thoughts

So I don't really know what to say in these point of time where I just randomly think of stuff and it gets weird the longer it gets.

I've been an introvert for a long while and it bothers me that much now. Being "forsaken" all my life by the people around me even my own family. Learned how to still keep going by my own and not get affected by other means from the outside world. Learned to become anti-social leading me to not know what interaction really is.

But now they want me to change, they now know what i am really, well only some people know. I've become a...

Psychopath

Not the kind where they kill people, not that cliche type. I do self harm and I've been doing it for a long while. Recently, I've been affected by alot of means especialy by people who really know me. I've become worse, and I'm losing humanity even if theres just a little bit left.

I don't know why I exactly do it, and it just kills me everytime I think about it

I've been doing a fake persona I created and its been fooling people, saying hey I'm fine even though I'm not. They thought I'm this guy who's always happy and just accepts what the present gives. But deep inside, I'm lost..

I've always been alone.. and I think always will be. People may come but they go on with their own ways and leave. I'm continuing my journey from my dark path, no one to pull me back to the right path.

And i also think what my family said that I'm useless and why do they have to waste time on someone like me is... True

I just hurt people, but why.. Why are you still here? Why do you still keep me company? You've seen what I'm capable off. Why do you still try to help me? I'm helpless no matter how many times I change..

See how this bothers me?

I want to be saved, I want to be found, I want to be "Home"

Please..

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Just be happy!

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The Odd Generation Of Gold

This month, is the probably going to be the last time I’ll be with these odd bunch of people that I call family. I hope that I did justice to you guys, I’ll definitely remember all of you, and I hope you guys can remember who I am.

Joshua Andal- Thank you for hanging out with me, you’re one of my closest friends that I can rely on and I can’t thank you enough for helping me with a lot of things.Thanks for teaching me on piano. Stay cool as always!

Cj Andrade- Hey dude, You need to chill sometimes? yeah? Anyway thanks for playing Vainglory with me even though we fail a lot and thanks for helping me with stuff and I really enjoyed your company

Andrew Antonio- A really intelligent person, A great role model to admire and dream of, well i can’t reach your level but you’re still an inspiration.

Kenneth Bacud- One of the people who made this family twice as better, giving of jokes and not worrying about too much. Stay as you are!

Ronnie Ballad- We will never forget your white hair welp some of its gone now so yeah. Stay as you are keep being nice!

Laurence Castillo- Pleas fix some of your traits, but either way you can be nice. The only thing we could possibly talk about is one punch man, just sayin

Freidrich Cusipag- I’ve known you for 7 years now, and i really admire your skill a lot and you also manage to do something in a short amount of time. Keep being you and stay happy always!

Karlos Dayrit- The silent boi as many people call him, but for us he’s different. The troll in a game but a good gamer as well, we have some similarities in our personalities. I wish you could express a lot more to other people. Keep being a great friend, Ill see you next time White Cat

Daryll Diaz-  One of the happiest members of this family, Plus go to school early dude, Thanks for being one of my friends. Still waiting till i can play League with you

Harvey Herbert- One of my friends since elementary, Its crazy how you changed a lot in a short amount of time, Keep being artistic and i hope i can collaborate with you sometimes

Ryan Maguddayo- The loud boi, an exact opposite of Karlos, Thanks for being my friend, and you are a great leader as well. You don’t really care about too much. Keep being happy and I hope we could meet again!

Emil Malana- You can be wacky a lot of times but when pressured you can get serious. A really great person you can rely on.

Jonard Mallillin- We have some similar taste on anime. I enjoyed your company and i hope I’ll see you next time

John Roe Matammu- The most wholesome person in the group, even if some people bully you, you’re okay with it, Take Care!

Whesley Pelagio- Control your Temper sometimes, Thanks for being a good friend and thanks for helping me with studies and we’ll see each other again

Felmar Portillo- One of the nicest people i talked to. I admire your skills. Keep being kind!

Timios Santias- A great leader, you lead your classmates with great responsibility and look at the better side of things. Keep rockin on dude!

Yran Villanueva- I hope you fix the way you preach about stuff, cause sometimes people might get hurt. But you can get nice. I enjoyed your company, and I hope things go the way you want them to.

Darylle Addatu- Keep being how you are now, I know you’ll reach great heights someday

Kryssha Andres- Keep dancing, I enjoy talking with you. Thank you for being one of my friends!

Judee Articulo- I don’t really talk to you much, but i really admire your piano skills, and i hope you can teach me one day.

Janae Bassig- I dont really talk to you much, but thanks for being a good friend, and keep being what you are

Buena Beños- Stay kind and I enjoy watching you sing! Stay awesome

Angelica Binarao-  Thank you for being one of my closest friends, your’e a person that i can rely on with studies and personal stuff, I really enjoyed your company and I hope we can collaborate on that perfect cover

Karen Bitanga- Thank you for being one of my closest friends, I really enjoyed your company with Angelica, keep on improving your drawing skills. Still waiting on the singing collaboration with Angelica.

Julia Calbario- Keep on growing, (literally), No I’m just joking around. Keep on dancing and never change. Keep being who you are right now.

Angelica Calvo- I will remember that infamous laugh of yours. Thanks for being nice to me and Stay being awesome!

Salve Cardenas- I don’t really know whats going on with you right now, but i do know that your’e under going some deep stuff, I hope you recover and be the person we once knew.

Christelle Castro- I admire your writing skills, I enjoyed your company. Keep being amazing cause I know you will achieve a lot

Kristel Doctolero- I enjoyed talking with you even if its just a minute or two. And uh, i heard from someone that you have a person in your mind right know. Hope that he likes you too.

Samantha Durian- I don’t really know what to say, cause I don’t really talk to you much, but I do know that your’e a great friend to our classmates. Keep being yourself!

Naiza Gañac- Keep being one of the child-like people I know. Take care and keep being yourself!

Jeannelle Genoveza- Keep being yourself. I really like how you study a lot and being unselfish when it comes to giving out answers on a test.

Grace Guzman- One of the loud people here in this family, even if i haven’t talked to you yet. Thanks for being nice to others

Editha Guiyab- You kinda have that sassy side of things but as we talk more I can say that your’e a really nice person. I hope everything will go your way.

Micah Maggay- I don’t really talk to you that much but keep being a good friend to others. Stay being pretty and happy!

Nina Matammu- You... We kinda had a misunderstanding last year. but its all cool now. Probably one of the funniest people in the group. Keep being you i  enjoyed your company and all the laughs.

Karissa Manalo- One of the funniest people in the group, keep being you. Stay kind I hope that macaroons business you got going on get bigger.

ABCD Narag- I admire your skill in English. I like hoe you express your emotions in a simple manner of writing. Keep on going cause i know you will achieve something great.

Kathrina Raralio- I don’t really talk to you that much, But from that past blog I kinda already said some stuff so yeah, I recommend you read that instead of this one. Anyway keep being awesome!

Shany Salva- Thank you for being my mom ( even if its only on the roleplay side of things), Thanks for being my closest friend s as well. I enjoy playing games with you and sometimes just chillin out. You’ve been one of the greatest help for me and Thank you for that.Team XZS forever!

Kezia Tan- I admire your skill in piano as well, I hope we can collaborate on it. Take care and always be yourself!

Ayra Tamaray- I enjoyed your company even if its just a short amount of time, Keep being straightforward and ill see you next time

Precious Tabbu- Please fix some of your traits. But i know that you can be a great friend. I hope we can get an understanding sometimes.

Jemarie Tapiru- You really great at memorizing. I wish that I can achieve that same skill you have. Take care!

Katreena Tattao- Thanks for being one of my friends. I hope you enjoyed the piano cover i sent you. I can’t do your next request at the moment but I’ll be sure to do it when I have time. Take care and always be happy!

Joanna Tuliao- Just like katreena, Thanks for being one of my friends, I enjoyed your company and i hope everything is go your way. I hope we can meet up again, Take care!

Okay I’m tired now. Time to go back reviewing.

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The Person I Least Expected

In Grade 7, the start of everything, I would not approach you, and when I’m in close proximity I get really nervous. So many people would think why I get nervous and why I wouldn’t approach you and I have my reason for that. I am scared of you. That didn’t change till this school year.

This is were I started my study, yes I studied you. I learned a lot of things about you. I regret everything that I thought of what you might be. Your’e really intelligent, all of us know this already and that’s something to be really impressed of. 

In the daily side of things, you seem really fun to hang out with. I can see it in the faces of your friends. They enjoy having you around and you never fail to make them laugh. Your’e really supportive as well, and having that alone makes you as one of the greatest people in the world. At least that’s what I think anyway.

When your friends are down your’e the first person they approach, your’e always there for your friends. You comfort them and make them feel really happy. You try your best to keep them happy to the point that you’ll give up your own happiness. I don’t even know what to say anymore.

One last message,

Thank you for always caring and helping your friends, I appreciate everything you’ve done. I hope more people like you exist in this world cause you’re a great role model. 

Thank you, 🙵♋︎⧫︎♒︎❒︎♓︎■︎♋︎ ❒︎♋︎❒︎♋︎●︎♓︎□︎

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Page

“The pages have turned once again, A new story being written, A new bringer of HOPE has been born”

My journey being recorded in this so called memories, being treasured in my mind

Carrying it till my final page has turned and the story ends.

A wise man that i knew once told me, “ The flame I passed onto you is still small, but in the future, it’ll be exposed to wind,rain and grow even bigger. And then, I will slowly become weak and disappear, and I will finish my job” 

His face, thinking’s, words, are engraved inside my head, giving me the will to live. And here I am today, continuing my story till i can meet someone to continue me and that mans memories, legacies, hopes and dreams, and pass the fire to that person like what that man did.

2017 has ended, with happiness overcoming my memories even though I suffered a lot. But I kept crawling till I can stand up and run and break the wall holding my limits.

I regret a lot of the things I did last year and its still bothering me. But you can’t go back and change the past, so look on the future and don’t make the same mistake twice. This year will be my final time to be with the friends I grew up, and shared memories with, we will be parting ways on these crossroad and take our own path, but I know that one day we will meet each other again and still be a one big family.

This year I’m not expecting much, I know that there are a lot of challenges waiting for me and I’m expecting the worst. But I just want one last memory, The happiest moment to happen with me and my friends as a temporary goodbye to them before we part ways.

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Thats about it...

Well here's the person. Happy new year to you reader.

What?

You think I'm going to write a long explanation for that? I'm not gonna waste my time for that.

Okay fine you win. (Geez, why take all of my time..)

Enough of that. Okay first of all he is my brother, Why my brother you say? Well. He always scolds me even if I'm not doing anything or even when I did something that didn't go in his favor. (He always wants everything in his favor like decisions, food, appliances, everything else).

I sometimes dont like going out with him. Because when I want to buy something, he judges me, then puts me to a lot of different choices, plus I can't buy the thing I really wanted. (And I dont like that. Well who doesn't right? Wait thats fine with you? Uhh okay..)

Yes were brothers but that doesn't mean that we go along with each other. We are like two Emperors fighting over about ruling an empire. (What? You don't get it? Uhh)

In the end I can't talk back to him because I'm NICE and I'm not that kind of a person. (Yes I'm NICE! Stop judging me!)

But I never said that I hate him.

I do not hate you, my dearest brother, nor will I ever. You get mad at me because you want me to change, You give me a lot of options because you want what's best for me. You go out with me because you want to know me better.

Yes I know all of it brother. I just needed to see the bigger picture.

I will never hate you brother and don't you ever forget that. In the end we will cooperate with each other.

(Oh look at that plot twist! Damn I'm so good!! Don't hate me reader)

Well

Happy new year to you brother.

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The Endless War

Long ago, generations of courageous man and women first laid the foundation of our country. During the rise of civilization, there is always a great leader who lead us to our path to were peace reigns over everything. This leader sent his or her hopes and dreams far into the future, trusting it to their descendants who also lived with their connection and faith. This leader was granted the power to edit his country for the good of it. Any leader thinks of that as their main goal.

Today our leader or should we call president has his main goal and it is to eradicate the use of drugs. From his mouth, this words came to be, ‘My god I hate drugs, I have to kill people those who use it because I hate drugs”, that is a really weird thing for a president to say. He declared war on the drugs and with the help of his police force they killed drug users without giving them a chance to reason themselves.

This war, according to the government, has included over 57,500 anti-drug operations since July 2016, resulting in the deaths of 2,949 alleged sellers or users of drugs. Over 3,5000 additional deaths have been brought about by ‘vigilante killings’, which may well have involved the police. The people saw what drugs can do and what could it lead if you are a user and that is execution.

This war here in our country has left the whole society to just kneel and shed tears as they hold their beloved son, daughter, father, or mother. They all got executed not knowing if their really drug users or just a normal person that got in the situation. Our great president even disobeyed the rules human rights in order to pursue his goal.

As for myself Iv’e been wondering, what if he is abusing the power of our police force. Maybe they are falsely planting evidence on victims, and claiming those victims fought back even when the direction of bullet wounds proves otherwise. And that’s a very big claim for me to say. Its only a theory, a political theory that is.

People of the Philippines, please listen to me. If you want to end this, Now is your chance. Stop the use of drugs if you don’t want to meet your demise, change yourself. This not what God wanted, he wanted us to be happy and live without problems.

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What Concerns Me

This generation, people have a lot of things concerning them, to the point were they suicide because they don’t know how to deal with it. Well lets start.

Hello everyone TheOddOne here and here is what concerns me the most. I am really socially awkward even for myself. During my elementary days I had trouble finding friends. I was too shy, and when I try to talk to people they have difficulty understanding me. But one really understood me and that is my best friend. We done everything together. But I thought to myself  I need to overcome this, this would really be hard for me when I grow up.

I feel nervous in social settings. I don’t feel comfortable around too many people. I lack the flow of conversation, when I chat with people there is always a sudden pause or silence then ends abruptly. Sometimes I get avoided by others because they often look at me as the wierd or odd one hence the name, fortunatelytheoddone.

Currently I have few friends, and when they’re excused from class, I don’t have someone to talk to. I lack conversation skills resulting to the lack of meaningful connections with others. I mostly spend my time alone because I don’t worry too much about talking to other people.

Being alone in life is really hard, The thought of you sitting in a chair in a dark room without someone to interact with. But someone told me...

“Those who fly solo have the strongest wings”

This gave me the inspiration to still pursue in life. I will keep flying high in the sky to the point were I can’t fly anymore. Don’t worry I still have a lot to go, My journey has just started...

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Movie review: Final Fantasy VII, Advent Children Complete

Square Enix is well known for their RPG series, Final Fantasy. In the game there are a lot of cutscenes that looks so good for their CG animation. So why not make a movie about their story, well they did. And here I am making a review about the by far the best movie of their series.

For those people who haven’t played the game it would be really hard for you to follow the story so before you watch this, play the game first (don’t worry the game is amazing). 

It continues the story of Final Fantasy VII, Advent Children treated fans to a gorgeous, albeit nonsensical, film filled with over-the-top action sequences. Geostigma, the mysterious disease that plagues the citizens of this world, is humanized by newly added scenes surrounding Denzel, a child whose role becomes fleshed out in this director's cut. Through the eyes of Denzel, we can better understand the chilling effects of the disease, and the desperation of those that are infected with a seemingly incurable and lethal disease. The film's villains, Kadaj and company, stood out as two-dimensional leather-wearing freaks. The Complete cut makes their intentions, plans and outfits all the more obvious.

The two hour run time for the FFVII Advent Children Complete gives the director Tetsuya Nomura a better opportunity to explain the Geostigma, and he succeeds in humanizing Cloud, the main character of the story. The blonde hair hero which is just as emo as ever. In the movie we can see some footage from the crisis core series reminding the viewer how much trouble Cloud has gone through.

This movie meant a lot to me, Because the story is so relatable. I learned alot of things. No one lives in the slums because they want to, its like this train, It only goes where the tracks take it. I really liked the final battle between Sephiroth and Cloud,it showed a lot of sad and memory triggering parts during those scene.

The fight reminded me of me  and my friend. We weren’t blood related but we still look at ourselves as brothers just like Zach and Cloud look at each other.

My favorite character is Cloud Strife. Well its not because he’s the protagonist, Its because he’s a somber character, tormented by guilt over what he perceives as his past failings to save those he cares about. during the fight with Sephiroth, Cloud said to him that, “ I pity you. You just don't get it at all... there's not a thing I don't cherish! “.

I also want to talk to Sephiroth, he was once a hero but as the time went became cold hearted person. I want to talk about what does he want to attain Godhood.

Although Complete is a largely improved film, it still suffers from many of the same problems that plagued the original. Tetsuya Nomura still has trouble pacing and sequencing these scenes, creating an unnecessary (and perhaps unintentional) ephemeral effect that makes the story difficult to follow. But if you’re really a fan of the series this problem doesn’t  matter.  Much of the supporting cast falls victim to Nomura's "style over substance" mantra, with many characters relegated to being mere caricatures.

The quality of the CG is really good compared to the last movie. The newly rendered scenes look just as polished, if not more so; the additional blood and dirt added to characters during fights does make for a more visually compelling look.

Overall this a good movie considering Square Enix is not a film maker company but a game company.