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cookie run au idea

i guess this is an au idea now but it's mine GRRR

okay so likeeee i'm gonna explain:

after the beasts became sealed in the tree but before they were freed, something went terribly, terribly wrong. you see, half a soul is not enough to sustain one person.

dark enchantress cookie was the first to succumb to illness, followed closely by her followers. she began to rot, mold sprouting and contorting her body in agonizing pain.

the body of white lily decomposed not much longer after that.

the beasts arrived late to the scene and unaware of what was happening.

mystic flour was the first to go, one of the... metamorphosed creatures shattering her soul jam. she was traveling with eternal sugar and silent salt at the time, both of whom soon perished after.

burning spice was the fourth beast to die. golden cheese cookie ended up finding him half-dead after being ruthlessly attacked by the creatures, she took his soul jam for her own, yada yada.

anyways so we're left with shadow milk in his spire, black sapphire slowly succumbing to the illness, and a whole bunch of other drama.

obviously i need to flesh this out more (like a lot more) but should i? dunno if anyone will like this concept lol.

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*crawls out from the depths of the underwater* I'M ALIVE!

sooooo i've been gone for a while and will never be fully back BUT i have acquired new obsessions/hyperfixations so we chillin-

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here's my fursona as an apology for never posting ig :3 im more active on bluesky!

my bsky's @ glitchy-bitchy, so come find me or smh idk

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welcome in and let us start up the show! ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦ ❝the nights are far too long for me, for i sleep too little and think far, far too much.❞ ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦

aromantic/asexual/agender triple aaa battery he/they/it/zey/xem/star/void/(irdc as long as it's not she/her)

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"i must be a murderer, soon, everyday, i dream of killing my own self."

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"if angels do exist, they must be much too tired to go back to heaven"

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"that boy is a monster!"

yelled the woman, pointing at the child.

the child glared back, teeth bared like a wild animal.

"and so are you, miss. everyone is, in the end."

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"you set my wings ablaze with your torch to keep me tethered, yet the warmth of the flame propelled me far higher."

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"it is with my deepest condolences that i must apologize for you ever meeting a monster such as i."

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"from the frying pan into the fire"

i am far past the frying pan. you have been chasing my shadow, and unbeknownst to you, i had already burned my wings from the tips of the sun. your fire will harm me no more.

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"if you cannot accept yourself, child, accept others and spite the society that made them out to be abnormal"

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"this has to stop!"

"why now? because you've been broken? hurt?"

"w-well, i-"

"violence is violence for the rule of beasts, and i assure you, i am one of those beasts. an eye for an eye until the world is blind, am i right?"

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"i will never take an eye. i will take your hands, so no eye will have to fear you again."

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"how can you not feel?" "i do feel." said the monster. "but i am not like you. monsters are not allowed to feel. we are supposed to be the killers, lurking in the shadows, taking children from families and committing atrocities without any sense of being or emotion."

"but everyone feels! it's human nature!" "they may claim that until you are not human."

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"doesn't it make you feel wrong, how they treat you?!" the young girl asked, grabbing the knife from the boy. "you're not a monster, no matter what they say. you live, just as we do."

the boy sighed, patting the child's head. "i do feel wrong, little one. but i can do nothing about it. a star is born and goes through no change."

"but it's human to change!" pleaded the girl, trying to convince them to stay.

"and i am no human." said the starboy, already drifting to the heavens.

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part one of talking abt random sad shit (DYSPHORIA/DYSMORPHIA)

(feel free to correct me if anything's wrong)

The word dysphoria comes from the Greek word dusphoros, which means "hard to bear", and being dysphoric or having dysphoria means that one is in a state of "unhappiness", "unsatisfied" or "uneasy", all to a much greater scale than what is typical.

Dysphoria became a more commonly used term from the 1950's-1970's or so and just rose in popularity after, one of the most common terms being gender dysphoria, or body dysmorphia.

Both of which I would like to clear up some common assumptions and stigma about.

>>>||gender dysphoria ≠ body dysmorphia||<<<

Being dysphoric about one's gender can mean lots of things. Ex; being unhappy with one's body because they were assigned a gender at birth that doesn't fit or doesn't completely fit, being mentally confused or overwhelmed by unhappiness and a sense of longing to fit into a different gender, feeling as though one's been "stuck in the wrong body".

Being dysmorphic about one's body can also mean lots of things. Ex; being unhappy with one's body type, shape, or size, feeling extreme concern about one's appearance, avoiding mirrors or constantly checking themselves in them, feeling ugly or distorted.

While there are similarities to both, they are NOT the same thing.

Also, just so my trans/enby/genderqueer/any other gender than cis friends know,

Trans people with minor/no dysphoria are still trans. You don't necessarily need dysphoria to be trans. Some people are aware they don't fit into their assigned gender and are fine with it, get gender-affirming care and/or surgery and live peacefully, for a multitude of reasons, some being due to lack of social stigma, growing up as your preferred gender from a younger age, and many other things.

Also, in case there was any confusion, this mainly is for me to explain things and give tips and advice? Sorry if that wasn't clear. Exiting the therapy corner~ 

*trombones give an off pitched squeaky whine in the background instead of a nice outro or something*

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i wanna die(?)

ya'll ever like get that feeling? like where you just wanna stop existing? i'm not necessarily suicidal and i don't want to kill myself, but if someone tried to i wouldn't stop them. it's more like i don't give a fuck whether or not i'm existing on this planet.