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Datlrk Roast social is taking a field trip to Eden this Sunday to check out their BDSM night , should be fun, a lot of old familiar faces will be there.

I will keep you all updated! So check back here after the event!

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Recently received question: What is a munch ?

At this point in time, I suppose it has become an old term, at least in my part of the world.

The term as I understand it , became popular in the 80s in the UK , where it was called a burger munch , people would meet and eat and usually have an identifying table marker , like a specific jacket on a chair, or a hat on the table or stuffed animal. One of the groups I was part of had a triple monkey fist knot in gold rope and it would be on the table or hanging from a table umbrella if sitting outside.

Over time, it got shortened Munch and was still in use well in to the 2000s.

Now, meet up, kick back, and hang out to become more common descriptions for a casual social meeting of like-minded people.

#munch #bdsmhistory

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Dark roast scoal for June was great !

Good attendance, great topics ,new people, and old friends.

Some really great topics, negotiations, protocol, conditioning, scarification, fire, just to name a few of my favorites. I hope to see more of you in July

Didn't tie anyone up this month... don't be shy, come say hello !

#meetup #BDSM consentiskey

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Dark Roast Social meeting in San Antonio , 6/9/2024

6pm until people leave

Public venu, dress and act accordingly, most of us sit outside some people bring their own chairs for extra comfort.

Message for location! Let's have some fun !

18 and up

Currently at 30 R.S.VP.s

Ask nicely and I'll bring some rope and tie you up.

#meetup #socialtime #BDSM

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Q&A by request

1: Kitchen Counter, Couch, or on top of the dryer?

I’m fine with all of these, if we measure by done the most, couch

2: Your last sexual encounter: Good or Bad and why?

Good, it was in public but not overt or obvious, very fun.

3: A fictional person that you think would be good in bed?

Thor

4: Something that never fails to make you horny?

tears

5: Where is one place you would never have sex?

a childs bed

6: The most awkward moment during a sexual experience was when ?

being farted on while going down on someone.

7: Weirdest thing that ever made you horny?

tears

8: What is the best way to sexually bind someone: Handcuffs, Rope, or Other [if other please explain]?

i prefer rope for versatility.

9: What is the fastest way to make you horny?

be horny and tell me about how horny you are and what you want to do about it.

10: Top or bottom?

mostly top, but not opposed to bottom 

11: We were about to ____________ but then ______________ [example: we were about to have sex but then his mom walked in]

fuck, the bar opened

12: Is one orgasm enough? Are multiple orgasms necessary?

one is never enough but it is always appreciated, necessary ? no, but defiantly preferred. 

13: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find? 

panties that were cut off a play partner during a scene. 

14: Weirdest nickname a significant other has ever called you?

haven’t been called anything i consider weird.

15: Two things you like [or dislike] about oral sex?

Giving: like,the way they respond, dislike hair in my teeth.

Receiving : like the look in their eyes. dislike too much teeth.

16: Weirdest sexual act some has performed [or tried to perform] on/with you?

nothing i consider weird

17: Have you ever tasted yourself? 

yes, depending on my diet i can be sweet or spicy 

18: Is it ever okay to not use a condom?

yes, all things are negotiable.

19: Who was the sexiest teacher you ever had?

Laura B. ..shes still hot

20: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience?

strawberrys or whipped cream

21: How big is too big?

this is a little vague ...6 foot 6, double J ?

22: One sexual thing you would never do?

actual rape

23: Biggest turn on? 

eyes, certain looks 

24: Three spots that drive you insane?

here, there, everywhere.

25: Worst possible time to get horny?

job interview.

26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans?

love it when it’s genuine, hate it when it’s fake or sounds forced.

27: Worst sexual idea you ever had?

some positions don’t work in small cars.

28: How much fapping is too much fapping?

when you are late to appointments or miss important things to do it. all things in moderation.

29: Best sexual complement you ever got?

No one have ever made me cum like that before.

30: Bald, landing strip, Jumanji?

bald is preferred, landing strip can be fun.

31: Is it good sex if you don’t nut?

lt’s about the journey not the destination.

32: Fill in the blank: “If they ____________, we are fuckin” 

ask properly lol

33: What your favorite part of your body?

eyes

34: Favorite foreplay activities?

kissing and undressing the other person

35: Love 

not sure what the question is

36: What do you wear to bed?

usually boxers, occasionally nothing

37: When was the first time you masturbated?

ever? 5 or 6 

38: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself?

no, I delete them after.

39: Have you ever/when was the last time you had sex outside?

yes, I love it especially in the rain, its been some years.

40: Have/would you ever have sex outside?

Yes, see 39

41: Have/would you ever had a threesome?

yes, its been some years, i would consider it but the chemistry would have to be great between everyone involved.

42: What is one random object you’ve used to masturbate?

back massager

43: Have/would you ever masturbate at work/school?

yes

44: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane?

never have but have wanted to for a long time.

45: What is one song you’d like to have sex to?

The Kiss by Trevor Jones

46: What is something nonsexual that makes you horny?

stormy weather

47: Most attractive celebrity?

Christina Ricci

48: Do you watch gay/lesbian porn? why/why not?

lesbian occasionally

49: If a child was born on the occasion of the last time you had sex, how old would that child be right now?

two days

50: Has anyone ever posted nude pictures of you online?

not that i know of.

51: What is one thing that NEVER makes you horny?

bad smells

52: Do you have stretch marks? (How do you feel about them? Has anyone ever had a problem with them?)

yes, no one has mentioned them, i sometimes find them sexy on others.

53: Do you like giving head? (why/why not)

yes, its fun and i like the way they respond.

54: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in?

i love tattoos, lets get one together.

55: How would you feel about taking someones virginity?

It might be fun, i would want to know it if I did.

56: Is there any food you would NOT recommend using during a sexual encounter?

pizza

57: Is there anything you do on Tumblr that you would not like your significant other to see?

i don’t currently have an SO but i have no secrets.

58: Do you own any sex toys? (what is it? (how long have you had it?)

nipple suckers and nipple clamps, 4 years (depends if BDSM toys count)

59: Would you give your significant other unrestricted access to your Tumblr for a day?

sure, see 57

60: Would you be offended if your significant other suggested you get plastic surgery?

maybe, depends on what they suggest.

61: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute?

assuming money and safety are the same, prostitute.

62: Do you watch porn?

yes, not often

63: How small is too small?

for what ? 4 foot ? size 0 ?

64: Have you ever been called a freak? Why?

yes, getting turned on by tears.

65: Who gave you your last kiss? Did it mean anything?

Phoenix, it meant time to have fun.

66: Would you switch phones with your significant other for a day?

only if we had the same model phone

67: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”?

casually yes, don’t care for it at my current job.

68: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair?

i have before.

69: If you could give yourself head, would you?

at least once

70: Booty or Boobs?

boobs if i’m just looking, booty if i want to take them home.

71: If you had a penis, what would you name it?

i do and i have not.

72: Have you ever been on an official date?

yes, but not recently.

73: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?)

yes, they regularly accused me of cheating when i wasn't, eventually, i cheated because i was being accused anyway might as well do the crime since i was doing the time.

74: If you were a stripper, what would your name be?

Dr. Steel

75: Have you ever had sex in your parents bed? (Would you?)

No, yes as long as they weren’t home.

76: How would you react if you found out your parents had sex in your bed?

wouldn’t care as long as the sheets were clean when im ready for bed.

77: What was your reaction the first time you saw a penis/vagina

that looks interesting...how does it work?

78: If you had a penis/vagina for a day, what are five things you would do?

i have a penis , if i had a vagina .., touch it, put toys in it, find some one to fuck

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What’s happening now...

After a break from all things BDSM community related,we are back to hosting a group. No matter what happens I always come back, it may be a fool’s errand but I just can’t walk away completely. I crave community, I crave a feeling of home. I think that is my greatest weakness and a huge character flaw. 

I moved to a new city with my girl and we have started over. I had hoped to move to another state but for the moment that remains a dream that may never happen.

We moved to a town where the community had faded because everyone decided it was easier to drive to events in nearby cities than to build a community of their own. 

We started with a simple social at a local coffee house, a pretty common option for munches these days, in October of last year (2014). When we started we were the only active live meetup. Since that time three other groups have started meeting as well. so a community is starting to evolve which is very exciting to me. 

At a recent state wide event we shared an old tradition of birthday spankings, I was surprised at how few had heard of the tradition. The way it was done and a dungeon that we used to frequent, that has long been closed at this point , is as follows, the birthday person has their age put on their bottom with a marker, then those that want to give spankings get in line, each person gets the number of swats written on the bottom. no devices ,bare hands only. That night the spankings went on for almost two hours. Everyone got to have a great time and we hope the tradition continues.

We have been going to spanking parties for a couple years now, and have really come to love the spanko community fir its honesty , integrity and openness, the same traits that originally drew me to the BDSM community, traits that the community I recently left has tossed aside in the interest of popularity and local politics.

This weekend is the first annual lone star spanking party, we are so excited to be able to attend the kick off event for what we hope will become a regular event on our annual calendar. I will definitely be posting about it once we get back. 

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Begin at the begining

It's a simple concept , and the title of a book I read when I was 8 or 9. Following that concept has helped me in some situations and hurt me in others. As far as what I write here , what should I consider the begining? The first time I every got in a fight , just to see how it felt? The first time I let some one tie me up just to see if I could escape ? The first time I pushed a hat pin through my hand just to prove that I could? I remember things in bits and pieces as early as the age of 3. But with my father dead and my mother mentally unstable and disconnected from reality , I can't really say how accurate some of my memories really are. According to tests my memory is above average in accuracy and longevity , I still don't trust my own memories at this point in my life. At this point I don't know how to trust anyone, even myself , that's jumping a head a little. My parents got married because of me, my father was already divorced with two children his ex didn't let him have contact with and we moved around a lot because my father drank, his drinking was the reason he was divorced and not allowed to see his children. By 8 I had become something of a chameleon , being able to quickly join and then leave different social sub groups and quickly get forgotten. I believe It's my ability to "dissapear" or be forgotten combined with my ability to answer almost any random question that has created my long standing link to the demon Asmoday I think moving so much was the first thing that contributed to feeling like I didn't belong anywhere and didn't have a home. I know everyone feels that way from time to time but I have felt that way more than I haven't . To this day I feel very isolated even in groups of people that profess to be my friends or in some cases even call me brother. Even though my mother didn't have a faith of her own and wasn't what one would call a true believer , for some reason ,I still don't know to this day, she wanted me raised in church. My father was a sales man to the bone, so we went to what ever church my mother picked , and my parents quickly became popular. My father was a gifted musician and vocalist and my mother had a martyr complex. We always ended up in smaller churches 300 attendance or less. I guess that made it easier to become known , with out having to be deeply involved. When I was 6 my parents separate for a year and a half, during that time my dad moved 9 hours away and my mother got her own apartment , I lived with my grandparents. One day my mom decided to take my dad back because in her opinion I needed a father, and according to her my father was always a good father but a bad husband. So that's my beginning ...

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Starting over ... again

As life changes ,friends become enemies and the reasons I once cared about things has faded, to a point that I no longer remember why I even started certain projects. I am changing the direction of this blog. Going forward this will be a journal of my life. Something I can look at to remind me that there are good times, even though they maybe short and infrequent. As I rapidly approach 40 , (the age of mastery in some cultures) I feel that I have not mastered anything. As the new guy at work I am one of the oldest people in the department , I am 8 to 12 years older than most of the supervisors and managers. My second marriage fell apart at the end of 2013 and I have reached a point where all I do is work at a job I can't stand because I can't find a better job. I have moments of peace and happiness but they are small and infrequent. I feel myself becoming a burden and a stress to the few people left in my life that care about me and actually know me. It is my hope that putting things here where they are out of my mind, to be revisited later may help me change how I think and there by change my life. As always feel free to ask questions , I am always happy to answer. ~A

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Birth of a community

It's been a few months since I have posted here,

A lot has been going on both in my personal life, and in the greater kink community in the city where I live. For all the growing pains that go with a true community forming, people feeling unrelated comments are veiled attacks and, drama being caused for the sake of attention and, people forming new groups just for the ego boost of being a group leader, there are good things happening too, regular educational presentations, round table discussions and group leaders working together, as well as people starting to feel acceptance with their kink.

The kink community in this town has been a closeted and separated community. Until recently (the last two calendar years) the groups, and meet and greets have been their own tiny communities with a select few people wondering through all the groups. The play parties were private invite only affairs with only one or two large events a year, it stayed that way for many years with improvements and activities increasing very slowly. Then a big change came in February of 2011 when one man with a vision opened a lifestyle community center. Roughly eighteen months later we can see the evidence of a real city wide community forming. The small groups still operate but now, for the most part they talk to each other and work together. It has been very exciting to watch, and worth dealing with the issues that come with growth. Some people are stepping up and becoming leaders and teachers, while some sit in a corner and cry about not being listened to. In some ways it's an exciting time to be where I am. Watching this community form has taught me a lot and, given me much to think and write about. Some things have reinforced things I believe and some things have brought me to re evaluate how I present things. A healthy forest needs a little fire now and then to burn out the dead brush and over growth.

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Does sensual play count as BDSM?

This topic was requested by my wife who predominately does sensual play. Webster’s primary definition of sensual is; relating to or consisting of the gratification of the senses or the indulgence of fleshly appetites. There are people in our local community that offer classes in sensual sadism and the use of sensual techniques as: an enhancement to scenes, a way to give the bottom a rest period, or to transition the flow, pace, or type of play in a scene. When my wife or I have discussed completely sensual scenes, we have heard comments that an all sensual scene is not “real” or is not “BDSM”. My counter to those that feel this way, in the context of power exchange, is that just as much control can be exercised over the sub or bottom using sensual techniques as is achieved with impact or edge play. Just like any type of play, how effective it is will be determined by how well the scene is executed and if the play fits the bottom psychologically. When my wife or I do an all sensual scene some of the things we utilize include: temperature control by using ice and/or fans, sensory deprivation, and light bondage. In my scenes I may use incense, or massage oils. It’s all about feeling and sensation, and both my wife and I have put bottoms in sub space with an all sensual scene. With sensual play one-way control is achieved is through stoking the fires of  passion by sensation, and then denying gratification of those passions. Another advantage to sensual play is that it is much more inviting and interesting to people new to the life style. My wife is often one of the first people someone new approaches to scene with because of the fact that she does all sensual scenes. I think the reason for this is that there is a psychological safety net that comes with the concept of sensual play. Also, many new people fear the pain of a flogger, whip or paddle. People that do a lot of edge play and impact play also really enjoy sensual scenes because of the difference in sensations compared to their normal play. Variety is the spice of life. Tools in a sensual players scene may include: gloves, (I like leather for the feel and smell, my wife likes soft and fluffy) feathers, hand fans, silks and satins (a 12 in square of silk makes a good blindfold or wrist binding), micro fiber or wool dusters (I have come to prefer micro fiber because it’s machine washable), ice, lotion or oil, incense or anything fragrant, claws or skewers. The only limit is your imagination and creativity (and your bottoms hard limits). Some important factors in a sensual scene: lots of touching (obviously). The important thing to remember is in addition to touching for the scene itself, while you are touching, caressing and rubbing, use this time to monitor skin temperature. The most common issue in a sensual scene is overheating. If my wife or I call a sensual scene early it is most often because of overheating. Chills are less common, but do occur (in the case of chills you can use your own body heat but having a blanket or throw available is a good idea). The time to be most mindful of drastic and sudden temperature shifts is during the drop into sub space. In my personal experience sensual play often, but not always, causes a “cuddly” sub space, whether playing males or females. If I use bondage I keep it light and minimal, something the bottom can pull against and feel safe with, yet be able to free themselves if they feel panic. If you choose to use lotion, massage oils,  incense, or any fragrance, be sure to check for allergies during negations for your scene. I make it a habit to ask about allergies every time I  negotiate. Have fun, enjoy the world of sensation and feel free to contact me if you would like more details on any of the techniques mentioned. A

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Why Can't a Dom Bottom?

This topic was requested by a friend in my local community who has been in the lifestyle for a couple of years now. I have experienced this myself; when others in the community look down on a Top or Dom as being weak or flawed or not “real,” if they bottom in a scene. One of the female Doms in my area counters this by being the bottom in a teaching or demo context. So she is on the bottom, but only for instructional purposes, thereby remaining in control in a teaching capacity and providing tips on technique throughout the scene. This seems to be a common coping mechanism, as I have heard of many people do this. In conversations with people from different states (both Doms and subs, Tops and bottoms) it’s an issue all over the US. (I was unable to speak with people internationally on this subject) This is a very interesting issue for me because of my experiences in martial arts. You are hit or thrown many times before you do the hitting or throwing. In my case I know exactly how the toy I am using feels because I have felt it. Part of true mastery is knowing all sides of a tool, technique or skill, and knowing beyond theory. There is always more to learn. Why look down on someone seeking the greatest teacher there is: experience? I believe part of the issue is that psychologically, humans have the need to label things. Human beings are multi-faceted and complex, far too complex to put simple labels on and be accurate about what they are. I once did a scene with someone new to the Dom/Top side of the life, so when they first started down the Dom road they looked for anyone willing to play. (For background I will say I do not like pain, but I have a high pain tolerance, that being said we go back to our story.) I agreed to get on the cross for them and during negotiations gave the “ok” on all the toys they had available and for the scene to go the way they wanted. Over the years I have done this many times for “new tops.” I do this because if someone is good I enjoy it and it is not very likely that I will be seriously injured because of my martial arts training. So I got on the cross, and they proceeded to work their way through all the negotiated toys. At the end of the scene they were worn out and starting to dehydrate. I got my self off the cross. I didn’t need any after care (it’s a good thing because there was no one to give it). Because I took every toy in their bag at the time, and left them worn out, They started telling people I was a pain slut...I am not even close to being a pain slut and the result was that I had to completely stop bottoming in public scenes and have a lot of conversations to remove that label. I feel a Dom/Top can and should take the bottom role in a scene at least occasionally, and definitely when learning a new type of play. If for no reason other than expanding their experience base and to achieve a more than merely theoretical or psychological understanding of the sub/bottom experience. Doing this will improve the quality of your play on every level and in every part of your scene. In the end do what makes you happy, but be ready for those that will look down on you or move you to the “fake” category. In the end your improved scene quality will show what you are. Be open and communicate. Take opportunities to learn and participate. One of the best ways to get someone to play is being confident and having the ability to explain the sensations they will feel. If you hear incorrect information about another person send them to the source. And always have fun. A

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Trust

I received a request to write about trust and knowing when to give it. This request came from an old friend that is an active participant in their BDSM community. Whenever I write or speak on subjects like this, I like to start with a definition to get everyone on the same page. That being said, here is the Webster’s Dictionary definition of trust;

1. a : assured reliance on the character, ability, or strength, of someone or something                                

   b : one in which confidence is placed

         2. a : dependence on something future or contingent : hope          b : reliance on future payment for property(as merchandise)delivered: credit          3. a : a property interest held by one person for the benefit of another          b : a combination of firms or corporations formed by a legal agreement To have a wider perspective on this topic I discussed it with my wife and also with my sub. For my wife to consider trusting someone, she wants to see character traits like actions matching what the person says, being even tempered, and courteous. This is an excellent starting point. A person that does what they say and keeps commitments are key factors for me personally as well. I am slow to trust because anyone can appear trustworthy the first few times you meet them. I call this the “interview face.” People act differently when they know they are being watched (most people dress a little nicer than normal on a first date). Most people coming into a community, whether it’s because they are new to the lifestyle or just new to the area are on their best behavior for a few weeks or months. That is not to say you should not do a scene or consider playing someone new. I just like to proceed with caution when it comes to things that can have a deep emotional effect like most forms of edge play and entering Dom/sub space because for some people these are deeply moving experiences.                                                       In the case of my sub, she will go to people she trusts in the community and ask about the persons reputation, if she is considering playing with someone that is part of the community but she has not met them before. If it’s someone completely new she will wait to see how reliable they are, if they respect protocols and safe words and are polite.       Some things I watch for include how heavily they drink, do they play when they drink? Do they gossip? Do they have too much ego? Meaning anything you have done, they have done it more and better. Everyone has ego and there is nothing wrong with taking pride in a skill or technique you have worked to build and perfect, but you should be cautious of people that claim more skill than they really have. I am not saying anyone that drinks or brags is to be avoided but I personally don’t want to play with someone that’s drunk. I have a lot of respect for the people that don’t drink until after they play; it shows respect and concern for safety. There is no perfect recipe or formula for finding a trustworthy person or play partner. Trust is a key foundational element in any type of relationship. I also place high value on honesty if someone has a habit of lying, that’s a hard limit for me. A guide line to help you; think about people that have earned your respect or have helped you in life, or that you admire. Consider the attributes of their character maybe even make a list, then look for people that have as much of that list as possible. According to Meat Loaf “two out of three ain’t bad.” Some Buddhists believe that relationships have a divinely intended scope and time frame, if you try to keep someone in your life longer than they should be, or make them move on too soon, you end up short changing yourself and hurting everyone involved.     I hope this helps. A                                                 

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Reputation

I have recently read several posts on reputation; specifically cases where a bad reputation gets caused by lies. I have also seen this exact situation play out within my local community. This situation happens a lot no matter what purpose has brought the community together, be it BDSM, Religion (all religions), or Motorcycle clubs. Any time people are together in a group, this situation will happen to some degree. It is human nature.   The situation put forth in all of the posts I have read, as well as what I have witnessed, is as follows… A Dom/Top gets a bad reputation because sub/bottom lies about how they play or the quality of their safety and or cleanliness standards. In the cases I am aware of it has been to get back at them for some personal reason; punishments the sub/bottom feels are too harsh, or not being given enough play time or attention, especially in cases where there is more than one sub or scene partner. The Dom/Top goes through a time of not being able to play very often because the sub/bottom that started the rumor will stop playing with them, and then solely due to the rumors there will be a period where new play partners are very cautious. Those close to the Dom/Top tell them it will work out and in the end it does because eventually the source and reason for the lies comes out and the trouble maker leaves, or is asked to leave, depending on the severity of the situation and their place in the community. All of the posts I have read from different people in different parts of the country take the same position. The Dom/Top should do nothing because if it’s lies they will fade and “nothing” will become of it. One post recommended that the Dom/Top having the issue should play publicly as much as possible to show the level of safety and their style of play. The reality of the issue is that doing nothing is most often the only mature choice to make for the person with an unjust bad reputation. They may go through weeks or months of limited play time, if they can get anyone at all to play. As far as playing as much as possible if they have a bad rep, I have no idea how are they to make that recommendation happen. In my opinion, being open and honest in everything you do is always important. Be up front about known rumors that surround you during negotiations especially if its with someone that you think may have heard the rumors, but has not played with you yet. if you have the chance, try to play in open settings where others can watch from time to time. This can be hard for some people. I have found from personal experience that doing scenes that are open to be watched has stopped rumors about me as well as lead to some really great conversations and has started a couple of good friendships. As always, play safe have fun and ask questions. A

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Starting over

The things I post here will be focused on one specific part of my multi-faceted life. The part of my life I have chosen to document and display here is my involvement with, and experiences in, the BDSM lifestyle and community.

I have done similar journaling projects before, one of which I consider successful but unfortunately as part of an overreaction to some relationship issues I was having at the time I deleted all the posts and the account they were attached to. I have grown up a bit since then and I still have occasion to regret that hasty action but I did learn from it. The time has come for me to start again, a little older a little wiser and with a bit more clarity on what I want and expect from doing this.

My exposure to elements of the lifestyle began as early as the age of five, when an interest in Harry Houdini and neighborhood games of cops and robbers lead to my first bondage experiences. I would often allow myself to be captured just so I could practice my escape skills, something I became good enough at that it was not long before I was not even chased because everyone playing knew I would not be held long.

Later in life, martial arts would lead to exposure to advanced bondage techniques as well as a socially and parentally acceptable outlet for sadomasochism. Although not viewed that way at the time, I have only recently come to recognize and acknowledge how much preparation for the lifestyle martial arts provided for me both physically and psychologically.

I am doing this first and foremost for myself to aid in the process of ordering my thoughts and understanding my emotions. Secondly, for those around me and close to me that may want to know me better. If someone reading what is posted here is helped to find peace with in themselves or just doesn’t feel quite as alone knowing there is someone “like them” out there that would be a very pleasant bonus.

Although everything I post will be true events, it will be from my perspective, and shaded by my thoughts and emotions. Names and locations will be changed or omitted out of respect to those involved.

If you ask questions or would like to know my thoughts and experiences on a specific topic I will respond as quickly as possible, answers and responses will be posted to this blog unless otherwise requested, please feel free to comment and share your thoughts and opinions.

Thank you for reading,

A