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Back in March I was surrounded by family, they brought you up again all weekend. How in one day you were brought up 8 times. 🤦🏽‍♀️

Someone pointed it out, actually yelled it out, how could you be brought up so many times when we haven’t been friends in years. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I don’t know, old memories die hard. I never made another best friend after you. . .

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Isn’t it crazy how it’s going to be seven years without being friends and somehow you still keep getting brought up in conversations this week!

Do they know it makes me upset when I hear your name. Do you know how sad it was to hear that he missed you too because you were my best friend, not even that y’all were friends, but because you were my friend.

How’s your old man boyfriend?! If you’re still together. I understand now … 😅

You’d tell me I’m a fucking idiot lol

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dear july, please bring me some peace of mind

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It’s been awhile. I thought about you today and I cried for maybe a minute. It’s been seven years since we last spoke, but I still talk about you sometimes.

I wonder if your mom still asks about me or if she graduated. I wonder if you’re still with your old man boyfriend. I wonder if your dad still a piece of shit who left the family. Do you drive by my house? I wonder.

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People still bring you up sometimes.. I don't think about you much anymore. I hope you're okay, I know we could never be friends again and that's okay.

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28 July 2018

Happy birthday, my dear.

I hope you have a great day with yourself, and whoever you choose to spend it with. I hope you have great conversations. I hope you are inspired. I hope you keep looking forward and striving for a better you; a better path. I wish you the greatest life. Make some good, unforgettable memories. Remember to love yourself.

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We haven't been friends for a few years now... I still have the note. :/

We wrote notes to our selves tonight so we would always remeber each other; in 3 months, a year, or till forever.

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I wish you knew how bad it fucked me up.

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I missed you in a small way. Tiny enough to fold up and put in my pocket, and carry that loneliness with me everywhere I went. I’d forget all about you, until my hand accidentally brushed against that slip of memory.

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It is going to be 2 fuckin years this month since we last spoke. And here I am thinking about you, like the loser that I am.... You probably don't think about me...People still ask me about you, but it doesn't hurt anymore. You we're my ride or die. Looks like I've been replaced though. I don't need you to be my friend again, I just want to know if you're okay and happy and if you miss me. :/

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I cried today knowing that were not friends anymore. It hurts. I feel stupid for caring, for posting. So here's a quiet Happy Birthday to you...

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When my birthday passed and you didn't call....

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Maybe, I was wrong. I miss my friend..... She has a boyfriend now. Does he know about me? Do you talk about me? .... I guess he's more important.... I'm happy for you friend. Even if you don't see it that way.

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My ride or die. No one understands our friendship. They think you are just another friend. But you are not. You are my family, as I am yours. I will not be able to be at your graduation and it breaks my heart. I have moved away and I can not wait till you come visit. We are moving into different parts of life but I know we will always be strong.