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i miss you. i know i will never see you again and i try to be ok with that but its hard... i miss you momma :( so many people are so nice to me now... even nicer than you were to me. but i still miss you... you were all i had and then you were gone forever.. im trying to be big and i promise to make you proud and be strong. its just hard somedays.. i love you so much momma. i hope you would be happy seeing me with papas family..

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Arguments with your mom can never just be about one thing it always has to be about your entire life and her parents and your siblings n shit under the guise of like, somebody needing to do the dishes

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My problem is I’m going to let it eat at me and rip me to shreds until I can’t take it anymore

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tired of being stuck in this weird bordering melancholic state lately where nothing feels. good enough. tangible enough to me. always just a little off and leaving me feel so... empty. i feel like a vessel meant to carry something i haven’t found yet- or maybe that i lost? things are okay when there’s people around me, or i’m heavily distracted (usually). but otherwise i feel like i’m crumbling. ough.

basically: critical damage from chronic depression. summer i hate you i blame you. your fault

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I've proven myself, haven't I?

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Natalie Díaz, from “Wolf OR-7”, Postcolonial Love Poem

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sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

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YOU don’t have to be perfect to be loved. but I do

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sorry for being weird and evasive. i was raised to believe that having wants and needs was a moral failing

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cant wait for when i become a real person

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i need to get laid or alternatively be put down like a rabid dog but i seriously cannot keep acting like this

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something is rotten inside of me