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This is one of my lowest lows

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Charities/organisations to avoid:

PETA: They’d rather spend their money on publicity campaigns than on the animals in their care. PETA killed 73.8% of the animals in their care in 2015 (x)

FCKH8: Is a for-profit company that exploits oppressed groups for money. They’re also wildly uninformed, and spread misogyny, cissexism and bi/panphobia, as well as stealing their posts/designs (x)

Autism Speaks: They spend most of their money on researching a way to eliminate autism, heighten the stigma against autism and don’t have a single autistic person on their board (x)

Please support other, better charities, and feel free to add any others you can think of to this.

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Heads up to my tampon wearing friends in the US and Canada.

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RARE PICTURES OF EEYORE SMILING

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be proud of your progress :))

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Do I have any mutuals that are interested in new friendships and becoming pen pals?

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Nothing like a chat with someone while at work to basically make you feel bad about yourself for enjoying to eat foods sometimes that are bad for you

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Just when things start going well, they go wrong just as fast

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I’m sad and bored, ask me stuff

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…I almost killed myself

I put on my sunglasses, to hide my swollen eyes, over my tears. I cried all my makeup off. Went inside to have a milkshake. I don’t know why. I wanted something to drink as I figured out what I would do. I got a soda and a milkshake. Medium. The cashier looked at me and with a line around the corner of the counter he rushed away from the counter “Hold on “ he yelled to a coworker.

I filled my soda and went back and saw him looking all over. I go up and he gets close and says “I made it a large”.

That was seriously enough for me not to do it. His kindness. Someone went out of their way and as I went back in my car to cry I realized I could muster through a few other days. A few more weeks. Then I came down from that panicky high of anxiety, depression, and pain. I finished my shake. And it was enough time to let me feel better. I… I’m alive. I’ll make it through.

Try and be nice today. Tomorrow. Something as much as a smile. It helped so much.

Thank you man at McDonalds.

The milkshake saved my life

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being alive is very………..Not Easy

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I am not as strong as I thought I was

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Self-care update

Yesterday I took a big step in my mental health care. I resigned from a position that was an ideal job for me once. This was a very hard decision, I went back and forth a lot. In the end I determined that my mental health was most important as I have been struggling recently more than I have in long time.

Most of it stemmed from this job.

Working in mental health has been extremely difficult and it’s taken a severe toll on my mental health that I didn’t believe was worth it anymore. It’s hard for the other staff too, I’ve been told multiple times from people that I was a strong staff in this position. But in the end, I’m choosing to pursue other opportunities, ones where I can apply myself better and not have as large of a toll on my mental health as I have been fighting. I will work my last day on Nov 10th. Im still accepting a lot about this decision, as I have not received an official offer in another position yet, but have very strong potential. I do have a back up plan for this time as well.

This has been an incredibly hard decision. And if you’re still reading this, I not only applaud you but I also encourage you to make time for self-care today. Mental health is so important, it’s important to do what is best for you and to take time for care of yourself. My inbox is always open as a safe place for comfort and support if you need to reach out.

💜

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I didn’t ask…

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me: compulsively switches between the same 4 apps for 12 hours straight because i’m absolutely incapable of being left alone w my thoughts

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If you wake up in the morning sick to your stomach just from the thought of going into your job, it’s time to find a new one.

- me to myself