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RAT GALA

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When I tell you I snorted!

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hunger

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yeag

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“In Death, Sacrifice”

*prints*

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My absolute favourite thing about Fenris romance in DA2 is that he walks away from it. 

It’s so unusual and unexpected. You don’t think an NPC would have this kind of agency, especially after you did all the right things and pressed all the right buttons and got into their pants. This is where romance storylines tend to end: they boned, and lived happily ever after.

But… no. Hawke does nothing wrong, as far as we know. The sex was, at the very least, ‘fine’. But Fenris doesn’t want to risk another flashback, or just too upset by the first one, or simply feels this is all too much and too soon, as he says. And he leaves. There’s no discussion. He apologises, he knows this will hurt Hawke, but he’s not letting Hawke talk him into anything. He doesn’t even explain all that much, and frankly he doesn’t need to. Of course he’s free to walk away from a relationship he doesn’t want, or isn’t ready to have. 

And that’s Hawke! Fenris’ first and, at the time, still only friend. The only person Fenris can count on to have his back if the hunters come for him again. (And this scene happens after A Bitter Pill, so hey they just did) By then Fenris is getting closer to Aveline, Varric and Isabela at least, but he probably knows that if they’re forced to pick a side they’ll choose Hawke. So Fenris risks severing all the connections he’s made in Kirkwall, if Hawke is hurt and offended enough to throw away their friendship.

Fenris really thinks that’s a possibility. He’s relieved and happy when Hawke takes him on a mission again, there’s a banter about that. But he still leaves, even if it’s the hardest thing he’s ever done, because that’s what’s right for him at the time. 

It’s just. So good. I’m so proud of him.

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this comic by raven lyn clemens.... Yeah

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Wheel of Fortune. Art by Jesse Lonergan, from The Unveiled Tarot.

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What if water didn't have surface tension and whenever you spilled some, the whole floor of your entire apartment was covered in a 2 micrometer deep puddle

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thinking about the emotional turmoil fenris must experience when varania tells him he opted for the lyrium brands. that he bested other warriors, other slaves for it. as a teenaged boy. experiencing the trauma of their creation, forgetting who he was, his sister, his mother. enduring danarius' abuse, hadriana's, feeling like a stranger in his own body, hating himself and everyone around him just to be told he asked for it.

realizing in the same split second that he did it for his family, and that he can be okay with that, only to have varania say that he wound up with the better bargain.

are you fuckign kidding me,

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jokes to make after failure that aren’t self-deprecating:

I’m the best to ever do it

Nobody saw that (best if said loudly)

No one’s ever done it like me

I could be President/they should make me President

Behold, a mere fraction of my power!

The public wants to be me soooooo bad

I’m an expert in (thing you just failed at)

How could this have happened to god’s favorite princess?

Nothing ibuprofen and a glass of water cant fix

I’m being sabotaged

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i rlly hope it gets easier soon bc i am fucking losing my mind