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“You know things are getting bad when you spend all day in bed again and don’t want to leave your room. Your room is slowly becoming a mess. Losing interest in everything that used to make you happy, or distract you. Only eating one meal a day seems normal. Ending it all starts crossing your mind once again.”

— falling back into old habits

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“I was 12 thinking about killing myself. I am 21, still thinking about killing myself.”

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To a dad I once knew

Little do you know the pain you put me through.

I've grown up to realize.. your life is nothing but 1000 lies.

You say that you love me more than I know

But if that were true then why doesn't it show?

I know you have her,

And you love her, I'm sure

But don't forget,

I'm in your blood too arnt I?

Obviously that doesn't mean anything to you.

I remember when I was the twinkle in my daddy's eyes..

Was i that easy to just forget about? Not worth fighting for?

A war zone is no place to call home..

Little did you know that little girl, she needed u most

Left To fend for herself

Against the monsters

Who were out to get her

As she roamed suffering from all the abuse

no child should ever have to.

she turned to alcohol & substances to cope.

Looking for her daddy in every stranger

You see that this little girl

Needed help

She looked up to him

As a father

And he failed her

So badly

He left her

In a nightmare. All alone.

She called him one night years later

Little did he know she was black and blue that night.

Needing her father...

But not much was said.

He's become a stranger to her now.

A girl who has battled all her demons alone.

Who's fallen so many times

Only to pick herself right back up again.

A mother who shes never known

a dad who would rather work his life away

Then to think

Of his own daughter

It's now been years,

Since you left her.

Oh how shes haunted inside from the things she'll never speak about.

Now..

She'd rather die

Than face the guy

Who left her behind.