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“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.”

— Steve Maraboli

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A Court of Shattered Visions

Sometimes I want to cry when I flinch at kindness. It’s heartbreaking how often tenderness still catches me off guard. When I read about Cassian and Nesta, or Rhysand helping Feyre through her PTSD, it stirs something fractured in me.

Part of my heart warms at the thought that maybe, one day, someone might understand… but another part breaks a little more with the memories of having to pick myself up. No one was there for my darkest nights, and I’m not sure anyone will be there for the ones still ahead, but I’ll keep trying to hold onto hope.

Maybe, one day, somebody will show up.

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“I still get very high and very low in life. Daily. but I’ve finally accepted the fact that sensitive is just how I was made, that I don’t have to hide it, and I don’t have to fix it. I’m not broken.”

— Unknown

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[in an argument]

Feyre: Fuck you.

Rhys: Later, now listen here...

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I'm currently enjoying the healing between Cassian and Nesta in A Court of Silver Flames. There's something so powerful about being seen when all you want is to disappear, and Cassian sees her. He sees every part of her, and he loves her because of it.

I’ve read some takes that call his behavior abusive (i.e: the hike), but I don’t see it that way. She threw fire at him, and because he could throw it back, she felt safe enough to let herself fall apart around him. That kind of strength built trust.

I do think couples need to be somewhat evenly matched. When one partner’s down to 20%, the other needs to carry the remaining 80%. That balance matters. I loved the blend of strength and softness in both Rhysand and Cassian. They understood that give and take.

I would argue that, out of so many beautiful aspects of Rhysand and Feyre’s love, the most important is this: they made each other want to live again.

At a time when they were both so shattered that simply existing felt impossible, they found in each other the strength to keep going. Feyre, who had planned to drive the third dagger into her own heart, and Rhysand, who was resigned to die in his desperate attempt to kill Amarantha. They had both reached the end of hope. They didn’t believe life was worth it anymore.

Yet, through their love, they rediscovered what it meant to live. They taught each other that they were more than their scars, more than their mistakes, more than the burdens they thought they had to atone for. They saw the good beneath the hardened exteriors, the light within the darkness. Together, they reminded each other that even in the bleakest moments, there was still a place to turn to. A home, a future, a reason to keep breathing.

That kind of love is rare. People who make you feel that way, who remind you why life is worth living, find them. They are important.

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"He couldn't stomach it, to know she'd hurt this much, for so long." - Cassian, A Court of Silver Flames, Sarah J. Maas

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“I’ll be with you every step of the way. Just don’t lock me out.” - Cassian, A Court of Silver Flames, Sarah J. Maas

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bf with morning wood 🤝 gf who takes care of it

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I don't even know how to explain it. It's like, I'm not heartbroken in a loud way anymore. I'm not crying every night. I'm just empty. It's like someone turned off the light inside me and now I'm just sitting in the dark, pretending it's fine.

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🎨 Lovemerches

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Cassian : It’s dark as fuck in here, anyone got a flashlight ?

Rhys : Yeah, hang on

Rhys : *picks up Feyre, kisses her cheek *

Feyre :

Feyre : *starts to glow*

Cassian : 𝒲𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒻𝓊𝒸𝓀

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I want someone who can break down my walls, see all of me, and still choose to pull me closer and stay.

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