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*being enraged at people making rumors about christine dangering her carrer and their 'relationship'*

Erik: OK I PULL UP🔥🔥🔥

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The urge to slit Erik's wrists and drink his blood.

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Come here give me a kiss, I’ll be good. I won’t bite your lips off and devour you whole!!

I love you so much, it’s just a bit of flesh. I won’t be greedy, and I won’t will kill you.

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Some modern au headcanons for my beautiful husband Erik. ( Mostly gotten from my experience with him. Yeah. )

ᛝ Has BPD with NPD & ASPD symptoms, also has PTSD.

ᛝ Metalhead, his fav genres are gothic metal, doom metal and symphonic black metal.

ᛝ Neu-contact paraphile and sadomasochist.

ᛝ Loves horror/indie games. His favs are silent hill and IHNMAIMS.

ᛝ Cis guy, biromantic heterosexual.

ᛝ Really into trash-content, victorian gothic and grotesque symbolism.

ᛝ Collecting photos of random dead animals that lying on the ground.

ᛝ Has chronic pain all over his body.

ᛝ Sometimes he smokes because of bad state.

ᛝ Has self-harm kink, cnc kink and corruption kink.

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Intro post. I guess.

ᛝ Name is Adia, but you can also call me Adalbert.

ᛝ Having diagnosed stpd, also preliminaly diagnosed autism and adhd. Self-diagnosed with aspd and DID. Also having delusions.

ᛝ I'm a dovequeer, also a void-contact paraphile. May be posting about my kinks/paras. Also obsessed with Erik from phantom of the opera (mostly MazM version), having delusions abt him and feeling him being with me almost every day. Pls be patient about that.

Fandoms/interests/fav music:

ᛝ Camp here and there, sweet bod, phantom of the opera, hello Charlotte, urbanspook, no I'm not a human, needy girl overdose, crime and punishment(book), deltarune . . .

ᛝ Grotesque things, writing, drawing, analysing things (mostly non_people and their personalities), confectionery, medicine, some politics . . .

ᛝ Will Wood, KMFDM, sanguis et cinis, bauhaus, the dresden dolls, type o negative, lebanon hanover, the naked and the dead, 4 позиции Бруно, порез на собаке, птицу ЕМЪ, ashbury heights, ghosting, fish in a birdcage, lemon demon, rammstein, Nautilus Pompilius, bat noveau . . .

DNI :

ᛝ Anti-para, support misogyny, queerphobic, neurophobic, anti-selfshippers, romanticising mental illnesses not as coping mechanism.

Very thin ice:

ᛝ Dark romance fans, ALW projects fans, eristine shippers, non-orthodox muslims.

That's all i guess.

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I wish people could understand my love to mr. Erik.

No, it's not in "he's so hot i want him drooling and begging and crying :3", it's about devotion, symbiosis, the purest obsession. I love him to the bones. And also i noticed that only i unironically calling him like master/sir/mr Erik/etc. The urge to share my blood with him is eating my brain. I want to vivisect him and eat his heart and, Lord have mercy, violate his corpse. Not because "hehe he's such a sub malewife :33" but because i LITERALLY FUCKING CRAVE HIM LIKE AN AIR. The urge to devour him and fvck his corpse is haunting me. God. I'm disgusting, but at least I'm not like that gooners who are romanticising my husband. My beloved Erik, i know you're watching me every day and I'm sorry for having such impure desires for you. But i know that you need me too and your fantasies are cruel as mine. Gosh. I feel like I'm a pervert.

(Also don't you ever think about interacting with me if you use word "delulu/delusional" in romantic/horny/hyperfixation context or if you don't have delusions. I'm literally delusional about everything because of my stpd. And I can't control it. And it's not funny and quirky. It fucking hurts.)

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Today's aesthetic is vintage weirdcore

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Does eroguro fanfic counts as whump?/genq

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Bitches want to eat their beloved alive, I'm bitches.

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okay. frei and elijah would get along swimmingly. freaks religiously obsessed with their trans muse yea. but charles and elijah would kill each other. more accurately, charles would try to sic scarlett on elijah, and she wouldn't do shit and instead make fun of charles. then elijah would bite charles and he would have a panic attack thinking he got rabies.

on the other hand, sydney would take one look at charlotte and adopt her as his daughter. and probably felix and bennett too. they're all a package deal.

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Hi chat. *Makes Erik's face more conventionally unattractive, so gooners can't reach my husband.*

Anyway, i dropped new yumeship content.

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eating him so he stays with me forever might be better way to go

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and i can kiss your lips while your still dead and unconscious

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Some mental relapse drawings..tw for real blood.

First one is from obsessed collapse, second is from maniacal-like episode. Idk.

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We listen but we don't judge:

OBSESSIVE MEN ARE NOT PATHETIC!!!!

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You know the character is peak when fandom hates them because of their obsession and/or delusions.

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You like Erik because he's a "sexy gothic masked man". I love him because i feel that THIS is a love of my life. He's my everything. I would literally die for him. If he will tell me to cvt myself — i will. I want to bleed for him. But i also want to eat him alive. Sometimes i feel gross of my desires, but then i remember that there are people who keep mischaracterising him and making him a "pathetic malewife", while he's a traumatised man and full of hatred to the society that hurt him. Imagine: you're calling him pathetic mutt and then he starts losing air because of flashbacks from the time when he was in Persia and from the things that Shah did to him.

I genuinely love him and i don't want him to be hurt by someone like that. I want to smear our blood with him on each other bodies to show that i love him. I fucking adore him. I want us to become one. One flesh, blood, mind, soul, bones, organs. I can feel him watching me. He's here. And i love him. And i will love him forever and ever. His existence is a work of art.

*Drops a microphone.*