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Reflections on Job Trajectory

aka the most boring shit about life but also includes how glad I am about doing less.

Started out with a super underpaid job, practically working 3 job roles/responsibilities in one, on avg worked 6 days a week, had handled my supervisor's literal actual tantrums at the office, being bullied and isolated by coworkers during the first three months. But I fucking killed it, I was practically assistant to my super (cause her manager would offload to her to then offload to me, haha, what joy), trained so many new colleagues, learned so much shit cause it actually was sink or swim and got some great friends out of it. Trauma bonding at work 👌👌👌

Second job, pays great. Management slowly turns into a literal nightmare. Everybody is a great coworker except the literal bitch from hell who stayed at the job like a leech (I've never researched/got so much EXP on gaslighting in my fucking life) and the actually mentally unwell colleague who eventually had a breakdown. But the amount of job responsibility was still about 30% less than the first. Crazy.

Now this third job, 50% less job responsibility then the second job. Comes with a pay cut but increased mental sanity. Actual managers policing colleagues when they are not up to par. I am actual pleb and told to stay in pleb status cause it's literally not my fucking responsibility. I. Love. It. Bless boundaries because my goodness this shit is great. Every job has shit but when it's predictable and you don't hate ppls guts at your work place, you're doing alright.

Who knows what's going to happen but I get two overall lessons from this. One, I can handle so much bs. Two, the goal is less for more. It's not like I'm not putting in effort and being present but your job shouldn't take all of your "present" energy. It should take the tiny chunk and the rest can exist elsewhere. Here's to manifesting either, same job responsibility level with better pay or (cause I know I am capable unfortunately) more job responsibility but must include much more fucking pay. I'd like to exist at either. But right now, this is nice.

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Bridgerton Book vs Show Ages

This is for my brain to shut up cause it got so caught up with the ages between book vs TV show that I need this somewhere to exist. And the normal resource (reddit) was not helping. This list is assuming debut age is 18. Year born was obtained from Julia Quinn's website and cross referencing the start of the book via the society papers/first chapters. If anyone came up with this before with more accuracy, please tell me.

From what I remember, Daphne is in her third year and we do not have the concepts of diamond of the season so...

Book#1 (1813): Daphne (21) / Simon (29)

Anthony - 29

Benedict - 27

Colin - 22

Daphne - 21

Eloise - 17

Francesca - 16

Gregory - 12

Hyacinth - 10

Book#2 (1814): Anthony (30) / Kate (21)

Book#3 (1815): Benedict (29) / Sophie (21)

Book#4 (1824): Colin (33) / Penelope (28)

Book#5 (1824): Eloise (28) / Philip (30)

I don't have the other books yet so pausing here.

As per reddit, this is part of the script, character ages from the show:

S1 (1813): Daphne (18) / Simon (28)

Anthony - 28

Benedict - 26

Colin - 19

Daphne - 18

Eloise - 17

Francesca - 16

Gregory - 12

Hyacinth - 10

S2 (1814): Anthony (29) / Kate (26)

[Edwina (18) Same age as Eloise/Penelope]

S3 (1815): Colin (21) / Penelope (19)

S4 (1816): Benedict (29) / Sophie (?)

S5 (1817)?: Eloise (21) / Philip? (?)

This is for my own amusement obviously but ao3 authors are combining book and TV show context and sometimes the ages get to me. I need a visual reminder so to speak. Anyway, hope this helps someone who also has this bizarre brain moment of, did I read this/watch this right?

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the special relationship is as strong as ever, lads

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endless curses…  malediction even

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[INSERT BODY COPY HERE]

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The reason it’s called French Toast is absolutely ridiculous and I’m so mad rn about the story

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“you support gay rights so you must be gay”

i support animal rights do i look like a fucking alpaca to you

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Chocolate dragon🐉

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Just read that piece of shit "Macbeth" and I can't BELIEVE that so many people on this hellsite are sucking Shakespeare's dick when that sick motherfucker keeps ROMANTICIZING literal murder and fucked-up relationships!

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i’m not against vaping, but man, vaping two inches from my face on the subway is a ridiculous asshole kind of move. this dude was billowing like he was auditioning for the role of haunted house fog machine. the humidity in the whole car changed, he was ruining haircuts. just jump starting the water cycle. condensation was dripping down my glasses. people were slipping off poles, it was chaos. it was like watching one man try to terraform the moon. a planet with one dense, root beer scented atmosphere blocking out the sun and choking all life. 

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A baby Kookaburra makin noises

birdsofoz

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i simply like m/f romances where the woman is completely feral and the guy is just little too into it

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men took my little pony away from us girls so us teen girls are takin pro wrestling fuck yall just try n stop us

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ultraviolence

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realizing cis women also struggle with “passing” a lot of times and has a lot of the same issues with dysphoria trans women have (issues with putting on/losing weight, dissatisfied with bust size, not feeling “feminine” enough, etc.) has done a lot to combat dysphoria for me, cause it’s like, wow, we really have a lot more in common than we have in difference huh

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This just seemed appropriate today.