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Why am I being ghosted:(((( I'm distracting myself cause everytime I think about it it makes me so sad it hurts. I told her I have issues with it from being ghosted for years by my sister and she is still doing it. I'm so lonely and depressed

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Successful second date („• ֊ •„) we went thrifting, stole protein bars from a supermarket, played a lot and I received soo many cute and thoughtful gifts:') I feel super lucky

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On my way to meet my edtwt moot for the second time

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I gained 3lbs after a binge period and I feel so bad:((( I don't have the money to buy safe foods either or supplements to help with hunger and energy and I'm very dehydrated because of purging and laxatives ☹️

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I know I'm still very very fat but around one month ago I realized I gained so much weight (bmi 23) and I couldn't see my collarbones from any angle and now I can see them from any angle without forcing it. I don't want to show the before pic cause it's too embarrassing 💀(bmi 21.4?)

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I met my moot on edtwt irl the other day, it was soooo fun. We gave eo lots of cute gifts and played with Legos. It was so weird and new being able to speak my disordered thoughts out loud 😅❤️ It was a really lovely day with a lovely person, I'm still v happy

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I'm finally down to 109.8lbs🎉🎉🎉

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TW//ED

Day 5:

Yesterday was the second day of doing the egg diet, idk if it's the diet having too many cals or what, it's probably water weight cause my metabolism got stuck these past 2 days so I'm gonna be taking some laxatives after work, I lose super little weight but at least it's something. Today I'm doing the IU diet again cause it has worked fine for me at least. I'm just gonna add one tomato to eat with the sweet potato but no salt.

Weight: 111.4 (-0.2lbs)

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HELP, I didn't lose what I expected yesterday and now I have to decide what to eat now without losing motivation ;n;

literally

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TW//ED

Day 4:

I wanted to stop for a day the IU diet so I switched it to the egg diet, I'm kinda stuck cause it's harder to lose weight, I did the egg diet and only lost 0.2lb:/ I did 400 crunches, didn't have to fight cravings either, just the urge for the day to finish so I can see my weight. I'm definitely thinner tho, it's visible and now all my clothes fit.

Weight: 111.6 (-0.2lbs)

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Portion control ! ( ◜‿◝ )♡

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TW//ED

IU DIET

Day 3:

This day wasn't hard, I added a fried egg to my sweet potato cause the taste is getting boring, I also ate some frozen blueberries and some cherries, I shouldn't have but I prefer eating those than bingeing on junk food. I tried my smallest low rise jeans which have never fit me before and they were almost comfortable this time and look good! Cause I have a flat belly now, I know it's most probably water weight but idc as long as I'm losing weight.

Weight: 111.8lbs (-0.4lbs)

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TW//ED

Sunday,December 4th

I screwed up the egg diet 🗿. So I started the IU diet. It consists of:

Breakfast: 1 apple

Lunch: 1 sweet potato

Dinner: Protein shake

I'll do it for 6 days prob cause I have to meet a friend out of town on Friday. I'll upload every day.

Starting weight: 114.6lbs

Day one

I was doing okay until after lunch when I left my job at 7. I went to the store for the protein shake powder and ended up buying 2 Reese's cups, I kept eating chips and then spaghetti my mom made:') I purged afterwards and then ate some chocolate and a soda🤡

Weight: 113.2lbs (-1lbs)

Day two

It was easier on this day cause I'm getting close to 110 so I'm more motivated. Only I ended up eating a very very small portion of unsalted salad my family made. Also I had two diet cokes

Weight: 112.2lbs (-1lbs)

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TW//ED/Bulimia

Wednesday 30th, November

I was 116.8lbs the other day so I started purging cause my mental health has been really bad. This morning I was 113.8lbs and I started the egg diet. I want to see how many days I can stick to it:/ I've been feeling pretty shitty so I guess that's motivation for me

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I keep imagining what our hug will be like.

Will I hug you around your neck?

Will you hug me around the waist real tight?

Will I stand on my tiptoes?

Will you smell my hair?

Will I tell you I missed you?

...

Will you?

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instead of being addicted to drugs like normal people I'm addicted to laxatives 😕