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i’m moving to another account, mutuals can dm for the new blog

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Frostbite 💙❄️

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︻╦̵̵̿╤━─ ꩜ UZI TUMBLR LAYOUT

✰F2U WITH CREDIT

✰CREDIT FOR THE DIVIDER: link

✰REQUESTED BY ANON

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chews :3

Look at my virgin eyes through glass

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THE WAY I SQUEALED

Drink art!!

The @ is my TikTok, I didn’t plan to post this here oops. Hope you guys like it, this is my first post here but I’ll be Upload more :3

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If it makes any of you feel better, Donald Trump will have an uphill battle to change the constitution. He will need:

-2/3 of Senators (60)

-2/3 of the House of Representatives (290)

-3/4 of the states (38)

In 2026, 33 senate seats will be up for grabs, and we’ll be able to vote for people who are against Trump and his ideals.

Breathe and remain hopeful because it’s not over. We can still fight and make Trump’s last four years hell.

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N IS HIGH

Audio from GlitchX

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reblog and share immediately

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I survived this shit once I'll survive it again and that is a fucking threat

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Reblog if you honestly have NEVER sent anon hate.

It pains me that only 14,000 people can honestly reblog this

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10k on Twitter is absolutely insane, here's the final design and notes for nyx and niko. Leaning away from the uh... ✨️freaky✨️ aspects of nyx to focus more on the fact he reflects ALL the bad parts of N. Mostly it was his personality that Got changed, unfortunately it's hard to show that off just on a reference sheet lol

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okay if everything doesn’t explode in my face for the 5th time in a row i SHOULD be fully off hiatus in a few days,,,, mwehhehehe

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MDpanicAU doodles~

Au by CandyAsbestos

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As I make final adjustments and edits (especially to this goober) here's a drawing of his redesign :)

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So, I wanted to talk about something since MD Twitter in particular seems to be having some issues with a current trend in the MD fandom. That being the Panic AU by @candyasbestos (apologies in advance for the ping, just felt like maybe you'd wanna see this)

So I'd like to start right off the bat by saying anyone who is uncomfortable with this AU is completely reasonable for being that way. It's more so that uncomfortableness leading to disdain for the AU that I wanna talk about.

So, I'm a horror fan. I watch plenty of things on horror movies and play plenty of horror games. And what exactly does horror media try and do? Make the player horrified and uncomfortable. Seeing grotesque imagery which may make you wanna vomit. One of the games that comes to mind for something that's definitely meant to make people uncomfortable and not just scared is Fear & Hunger. It's a game with incredibly uncomfortable imagery, sometimes due to gore and other times due to sexual themes. And it's perfectly reasonable for that to turn people off, yet I've never seen anyone have the kind of reaction to stuff like that compared to the reactions some people have had to the Panic AU

And that's the thing with the Panic AU, it makes *N* uncomfortable. Uncomfortable with himself due to Nyx's influence on him. That is the entire point of the AU it seems. And Nyx himself seems to be some kind of representation of mental illness (pretty standard horror trope, I know). I'm not an expert in the subject despite dealing with it quite a bit so I won't name any specific mental illnesses it could be, but it's clear to me Nyx is some kind of urge of N's.

I've made plenty of characters like Nyx for my original works that are also meant to be representations of mental illness. Voices that whisper to you to do terrible things, creatures that make you feel worthless and shut down, etc. I make these not only because I find them scary but also as reflections of my own experience with mental illness. And it's that first point again that makes me question people's reactions to it.

People have said "It's grossly out of character for N" and stuff like that which...honestly that makes me think they only saw the initial wave of art and don't really know how N feels about the whole situation. But the other thing is that so many AUs have intentionally mischaracterized N because of what the AU is. And I'm not talking just swap AUs, I've seen plenty where N's character is wildly different because of the circumstances of the AU. And I see the Panic AU no different.

I also saw another comment of someone saying "We shouldn't normalize behavior like this" and again, I question whether the person has actually researched the thing they're talking about. Nyx, the thing that makes everyone uncomfortable, is very clearly the *villain* of the AU. He killed Uzi, he wants N to kill Thad, he's a horrid little creature. Are villains not meant to do things we disdain? Murder, torture, etc. It's prefectly understandable these things would make people uncomfortable, but isn't that what many villains do? There's plenty of media with torture scenes in them which make people uncomfortable, but that's the point! Hell, some kid shows have torture scenes. What about the Lich's design from Adventure Time? He's a rotting corpse! In a kid show! His design is clearly meant to make the viewer uncomfortable.

So again, while I don't think anyone is in the wrong for being uncomfortable due to the AU, I think many of the criticisms are unfair. A piece of media which is specifically designed to make people uncomfortable should not be criticized for that very reason. Avoid it all you want, that's completely reasonable! Never feel like your reasons for being uncomfortable are unwarrented. But I'm just saying that if you were to critique Silent Hill because it's themes of mental illness and character depictions made you uncomfortable, and that was a *negative*, it just seems a little weird to me.

This is all just my opinion, obviously I'm not THE definitive person on the matter. And I'm not saying anyone who has the AU blocked or anything should check it out. I'm just saying, many people seem to be judging it unfairly.

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While im online, I wanna state ahead of time that i’m likely gonna be making fanart for the MD Panic Au, so if u don’t want to see that feel free to mute/filter out the tag if u haven’t already

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//tw/cw for healed sh scars

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I finished this kinsona ref update a while ago, I was kinda scared to post it bc of the scars but yk what this is MY blog and MY sona i do what i want