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I need to smoke so fucking bad rn but it’s taking forever to get here (It’s gonna be here on Saturday)

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I hate eating so fucking much, like it doesn’t even matter if I eat less than my cal deficit I just feel like a disappointment for even ingesting anything.

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“i can’t wait to move out when i’m an adult!”

how my fridge is gonna look

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I can’t be around food because I can’t control myself. I barely even taste the only thing I can think of is how fast I can get it down. I can physically feel myself getting bigger and I’ve never felt so disgusting in my life.

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I’m just gonna start posting my binges to motivate myself to to better

Zaxbys 4 boneless wings-288

Crinkle fries reg.-330

Texas toast-150

Blue cheese dressing-100

2x soy boiled eggs-140

2x Reese’s peanut butter cup-200

4x Dried Apricots-57

2x Original Wheat crackers-40

Christmas Crack-32

Taco meat, cucumber, Doritos salad( don’t judge me)-275

Burned: 349

Total: 1263/600

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Ngl looking at my old $h scars is making me want to relapse

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New rule: If binging makes me go over 800 cals then I won’t eat for two days

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Black coffee is so fucking disgusting but I’m trying my hardest to stick to my fast. I added like 1/2 of milk and it still tastes disgusting.

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My friend invited me to her graduation party but I can’t bring myself to go because I know I’ll be the biggest on there. I look huge in everything and no one deserves to see that.

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I’m terrified to get in the shower because I binged like crazy after dinner. It’s like the second I get a taste I have to eat everything. And I can physically feel my stomach getting bigger

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Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. But you've never been skinny so food is automatically more appealing to you. Put the plate down, bitch.

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my ana rules ♡

1 - Stay AWAY from deep fried foods. All that extra grease and oil is what makes you fat.

2- Do NOT eat over 60 carbs at once.

3- No bananas. period.

4- Stay away from the dessert section when grocery shopping and don't ask anyone to buy you any sweets.

5- No food between 6:30 PM and 6:00 AM.

6- Never go over 1,000 calories

7- You can have 1 dessert every Thursday between 3:00 PM and 6:00 PM

8- Nothing sweet for breakfast, you can have oatmeal, toast, ONE egg or coffee. The only sweet things allowed are fruits or greek yogurt.

9- Don't drink anything over 50 calories.

8- Take at least 6,000 steps per day.

9- Chew gum after you finish your food to keep you from eating more.

10- Only take one portion at a time. No sitting down on the couch with 2 bags of chips, ect.

11- Drink at least 40 Oz of water a day.

12- NEVER purge.

13- No red meat.

14- Drink a glass of water before each meal and take sips in between bites.

15- Chew each bite at least 24 times.

16- Use small plates and bowls to portion out your food.

17- Never portion out more than 1 cup of something. The more you eat of something, the more your gonna crave it.

18- Always skip lunch, if you wanna eat something then take small bites off of other people or eat something under 100 calories.

19- Exercise at least once a day.

20- Take a meta day every Tuesday to avoid tanking your metabolism.

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I keep overeating by like 170 cals so I’m gonna do an apple mono for like a week

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Progress

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