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Walten Fanart

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sheepish is a really funny word. fuck im so nervous (turns into this)

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i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

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if you are a game designer and you force me to kill wolves AND you have them make sad puppy noises I'm killing you

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Undertale has a Yuri Index of 0.098

Read more about the Yuri Index here

Suggested by anonymous

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Look it, I’m still very unsure about myself so this is part a support post for those who need it and also a “I am begging for help because I don’t understand what’s happening either” vent post kinda bear with me please

To anyone with bad joints, or ruined joints, you guys are so sick. Literally y’all just keep pushing even though it hurts and it’s awesome. Keep doing that. Y’all deserve to keep going and keep being awesome because you deserve it. You all know exactly what accommodations you need and which ones you can push through and that’s incredible.

This is the part where I beg for your praise and adoration though, because I’m scared I’m like, effing up y’all style when I use a cane, an elevator or any other assistance when walking. I’m the type of person that doesn’t wanna be a dick about this sort of thing even though I have awful knees. There’s days where I can’t get out of bed because of my joints sometimes, there’s times when I genuinely have to ask the person beside me to help me get to a spot where I can sit because my knees and hips are going to fail me if I keep going. I get very insecure about this, and despite how much I outwardly express “ooo that hurts”, it’s only because expressing things allows others that I trust to know the status of my knees so they know I’m struggling and I can at least let them know I am before I ask for their help with things. I worry that somehow I’m faking knee pain even though it’s very real and I very much feel it, and it’s all because I can’t get a diagnosis because the doctor I went to didn’t really care and wouldn’t listen to my struggles. I understand that PT can really help in a lot of circumstances, but in my case it’s not about strengthening the other muscles around my knees. I know it’s not. I’ve engaged in enough workouts with my legs to know which ones are building muscle in the other parts of my legs that can support the knees, and they don’t really help. It’s the joint. As long as the joint moves, it’s gonna hurt. As long as the joint locks, it’s going to hurt. I think it will help one day, but for right now it’s not going to because there is a joint in the way. My knees have been effed up since I was in high school at the very least, and I know it’s only gonna get worse. My parents occasionally are very adamant against me using a cane, but I’m very subtle ways. When I mention it, they can be dismissive and suggest an alternative like finding a walking stick when we walk or using a broom, but they also acknowledge I have knee issues. I get very confused and uncomfortable about using a cane now, because I feel like I’m gonna be ableist because I used a cane to walk around because in some way, I might not need it and I can push through.

Sorry, this was long, and I’ve already vented today but I wanted to at least get this out because it’s incredibly difficult to explain.

People who use canes, walkers, crutches, wheels, elevators, anything and everything to get around: seriously, you’re amazing, bless you for being able to say when enough is enough and knoe when you need help, I aspire to be more like that in every way, but I’m so unconfident in my own brain about my knees that I wanted to ask for guidance and explain my situation so I can get past the stigma and move forward toward saying the things I need.

Thank you. This was long and a lot.

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Pookiepop is one I use sometimes

whats the gender neutral version of girlypop

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4000cc breast implants :)

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Chat shit is about to get fucking weird

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hello disabled person who is dithering about whether or not to ask for a certain accommodation because you could "technically survive without it". that is the devil talking. you are allowed to demand more than "technically surviving". the world is a shitty ableist place, but if you have the chance to have your needs met in any tiny way you are allowed to take it. and yes, it's still a need even if you can kind of almost technically mostly survive without it

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new video. playing skate. (2007) as Walter White.

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A classic truly, but it’s time to retire. I didn’t use this one much on here because I kept my tumblr fairly separate from YouTube but I use this to promote YouTube stuff now so :p

This is my old PFP

I got it from fuckin uhhhhh something here on tumblr and it was cool

Matching with my bf at the time

Now I’ve asked one of my friends to make me a new wormie guy and it’s my new PFP so enjoy it because they’re so cool, my friend Finn <3

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i’m fucking wheezing this is so demonic

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Become ungovernable, continue to be anti-terf

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