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NEVER LET YOURSELF BE STOPPED BY WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE IF YOU STARTED EARLIER!!!!! THE ONLY TIME WE HAVE IS NOW

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Will you be finishing "However I Fall"?

Here’s another question and it’s genuine: What do you think I should do?

Because I know that there are other writers I respect immensely deleting all of their HP fic. And I haven’t done that, and I’ve had thoughts about it, because I understand the need to make this fandom have as few fan works as possible and to try to minimize its shadow over the landscape. But I’ve also had writers and archivists and friends talk about the loss of queer history, because there are lots of writers who do not care about JK’s violent and hateful worldview, and they certainly won’t be deleting their fics, so what will happen is that we will lose the work of trans and queer writers and we will lose the history of trans and queer people making art out of this universe (sexy art!) before the writer made the extent of her cruelty known. (I say the EXTENT here because obviously there were reasons to take issue with aspects - racism, fat phobia, etc. - of the books before JK went fully mask off and started threatening the lives of individuals online and offline, anyway.)

I don’t know.

I know how However I Fall ends. I know who falls and how. I’ve thought about just posting a “this is what happens” chapter with everything I’ve already written. And it doesn’t feel good to write in the hp fandom for ME right now (this is no criticism of people who do continue to write stories of queer hope and triumph -or queer depravity and complexity - in that world because I don’t really think that gay fanfic contributes to her income or reach and frankly I think she’d hate it so good for us! but I’m also willing to discuss and reconsider this! And also my feelings are the least important part of this conversation!)

But I also want to finish this love story, started so long ago when I was married and believed in things that seem impossible right now. And I also am starting to possibly identify as trans. But I’m not a trans woman and I’m not in the UK and I will not be watching her fucking show or listening to the audiobooks or supporting the work of actors who care more about a paycheque than the lives of their trans colleagues and I also know that this is not about me at all SO.

But let’s make it about me for a second, because I’ve had multiple dms about this: what should I do? What do readers want (problematic shocking and god forbid Snarry) fanfic writers to do? What feels good and right and what will make a difference on god’s internet and what won’t and I don’t know.

I really don’t know.

Anyway thank you for asking and let me know and maybe if you can, kick a few bucks to https://mermaidsuk.org.uk/about-us/

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Flyer and assistant

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Kim Dorland, Fever Dream

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Does he have ridiculous sideburns? Does he die a gruesome death? Is he on screen less than ten minutes total?

I spent a full day making this "Guess who? (is stuck)" The Terror game! Inspired by countless conversations about how hard it is to tell these dudes apart on first watch (and endless shitpost ideas with @merlintintintin ) This was honestly a lot of work, and now I really want to play it! I hope you'll find this cool, I'm personally really happy with the result! Would you play it?

I added Silna because I feel like the two boards kinda represent Terror & Erebus, and she's stuck here with these horrible dudes. Definitely more of a thematic easter egg rather than practical gameplay choice ahah.

To make this I bought a My Little Petshop Guess Who game (I liked the colors) second hand, took forever to cut out all the characters and color grade the pictures on photoshop (this serie is SO DARK, i'm thankful for the official pictures by Aidan Monaghan I also used), made the cards backing mostly using some designs I had already made, and then printed and cut the whole thing by hand!

I may share the template for this later on, if anyone is interested!

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Prismatics, Gundula Blumi

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I’m paying to force seven thousand strangers to see a photo of my late husband having fun with his dog. Tumblr Blaze is totally worth it. XD

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Oh my GOD my heart!

Crowley was an angel, once. Before she fell.

Aziraphale was a warrior (she fell too. In her own time.)

Words: 18,340

Status: Complete

Rating: Explicit

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/20074090/chapters/47542885

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Rare Goncharov poster from Czechoslovakia by Luboš Frištenský, a less known but still prolific movie poster artist that disappeared in 1975  under mysterious circumstances.

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For anyone interested, I may have written something back in the day…

https://archiveofourown.org/works/35596750?view_adult=true

im having very normal, very well-adjusted thoughts about this.

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We are so back. Have a vaguely werewolf AU coded sketch-ish Lieutenant Edward Little

Bonus version without the chains under the cut

(the chains are tarnished silver, not gold, bc he’s using them to stay human, lalalaa who said that)

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"We'll never write a poem"???

Has that hateful idiot ever even BEEN on Tumblr??!

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Hello Dr. Tingle, sir. I have a question. Do you ever begin to doubt yourself while writing? I've been writing stuff myself but sometimes get this sadness that makes me think it's not good enough writing. And I'm not sure how to work around that sadness. Do you ever have to? How do you do it? Thank you, I hope your day is as wonderful as you!

as far as a trot of 'is this part of my book is as effective as it could be?' or 'is this character working the way i want them to?' then yes i have doubts about this type of thing while building stories. i think that is essentially was the CRAFT of art is

but as far as a broader existential sort of 'i doubt myself as an artist' then no, absolutely not. i am the worlds greatest author. this is not a joke and it is not something i kinda think maybe could be true or i am pretty sure about, this is something i know with absolute certainty.

ART and creation are not objective, they are subjective. i AM the worlds greatest author and guess what bud, SO ARE YOU. the hurdle we must all overcome as creators is not talent, it is the hurdle of UNDERSTANDING. we already are all the worlds greatest authors, and everything else that claims we are not is a distraction

ignore the bog of hands reaching out to pull you down into this feeling of worthlessness, they are fake. they are an illusion. the only truth is that we are ALL the greatest, and the real journey is simply an internal one where we finally arrive at knowing this

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I had an assignment to take a four-word phrase from social media and use it to demonstrate the four ways of drawing perspective

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